submission by Rose Flores–Martinez

[rosalinda flores martinez]

Title of Poem:  My Heart Is Not My Heart Anymore

This is an unpublished poem

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My Heart Is Not My Heart Anymore


My heart is not my heart anymore
I left it in the pulpit, wiggling red like jelly.

In a pilgrim’s silence, the walls of
the sky tore and clouds restrained.
Rain was supposed to be vicious,
but rainbows came. Earth was supposed
to curse, yet mercy reigned.

I died for sometime in the nightmares
that haunted me. I was raging with the
moon in every fortnight. What taste
does she offer? Beneath dignity her
coarse tongue roused trouble in my home.

Foolish fire! My youth was stripped, my heart,
an oblation, my lips sullen and unkissed!
To unending highways, grief toppled me down
to drumbeats of rock stars, to a deafening roar
I sieved layers of smoke.

Michael Furey from the gasworks sustained
my innocence. Books dozed off my nights
My bed groaned
Until You, brushed my shame -
"summum bonum."

My heart is not my heart anymore;
stretched tight to the sky,
I cry to the dead -
and like a child,
I blubber "Lord!" - for hope.

Rosevoc. sept 14, 2016

About the Author

My name is Rose Flores – Martinez and my pen name is Rosevoc (Rose Vocations).  I am a Filipino.  I was born in September 1961.  I teach and write poems, nonfiction, fiction and prayers my whole life.  I am also a blogger for the I Share Community.

Thank you.  A blessed day, everyone!