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Unhappiness with FI
I beat myself up for not doing better
I think this is bad because it makes me unhappy
I think this is good because it encourages me to try harder
Strong negative feelings that come around sometimes and then go
Ignoring them hasn’t helped
Mentioning them hasn’t helped
What might help that I haven’t tried yet?
Maybe I really don’t want to make progress at FI even though I think I do
Do I post too much?
Are people annoyed at too many of my posts?
Are my posts low quality?
I don’t know how to pick FI projects
Overwhelmed by gap between expectations and reality
When I didn’t know about FI I didn’t know how much I suck at everything
Possible to go back to that?
If yes, how?
Convince myself that FI people are crackpots
I currently don’t think this is true
Convince myself that FI people are jerks so they must be wrong about everything
I currently don’t think this is true
Convince myself I’m too stupid for FI
I currently don’t think this is true
Drugs and/or alcohol
Distraction with something else that keeps me busy
If no, I’m stuck.
Well maybe it’s not really stuck if I’m okay with sucking at everything
FI isn’t fun for me, whether or not it’s going well
Nothing else is particularly fun either
So I should do things that are important to me, even if they’re not fun. It beats doing nothing.
FI a waste of my time?
What would I do instead?
Time with family and friends
Learn something without caring about doing it super well
Pass the time pleasantly
Do things for other people
Volunteer work
Help family
Make money
Have a career
Slow progress
At this rate, not much learned by the time I die
How to know how much progress I’ve made
Could be pretty much zero
Could be more than I think
Anyone else here making good progress?
Or are they just good because they started out good?
Is it because they never acquired the bad blocks I have? Or did they successfully get around some of the same blocks?
What can I learn from how they do things?
Maybe I should just accept slow progress.
Disappointment that I don’t have exponential learning growth
Exponential doesn’t necessarily mean fast.
What would accepting that look like?
Would that mean giving up on faster progress?
I thought my hard work would pay off more than this.
Maybe it will if I keep trying different approaches
If I haven’t figured out better ways to learn by now maybe I never will.
I’m doing my best to figure out good ways to learn but it’s not good enough
Maybe something someone has already suggested will help
I don’t have a good list of things I have and haven’t tried
I could start a tree of this now
Maybe something I try in the future will be good
Maybe it won’t.
I was successful at learning grammar
Yes, but at that rate of learning I’ll learn very little over the course of my life
Maybe spend less time on FI
That might slow me down even more
Or it might make it less stressful