Sanatana Gosvami tells Rupa Gosvami, "You have murdered me."

[Bhakti Vikasa Swami]

There is a nice story about Sanatana Gosvami, of whom we are now studying.
Sanatana Gosvami and Rupa Gosvami, two brothers, they went to Vrndavana for
devotional service. So their all business was... Rupa Gosvami, especially, he
was always engaged in writing books. And when he was hungry, he went to some
householder: "Give me a piece of bread." And everyone at Vrndavana... They were
leaders. All the Vrndavana inhabitants, they took... Even their household
quarrels, they used to represent, "Swamiji, this is our position. Please settle
up." So whatever decision he would give to the villagers, they will accept.
Their court was Swamiji, Rupa Gosvami. So he was so lovable.

So one day Rupa Gosvami was thinking that "If I could get some commodities for
cooking, then I would have invited Sanatana Gosvami to take some prasadam." He
thought like that. And, and after, say, one hour, one young girl came with
sufficient quantity of rice, flour, ghee and vegetables, so many things:
"Babuji..." They were called... They call in the India, especially in Vrndavana
quarter, they call all these transcendentalist svamis "Babuji." "Babuji, please
accept these commodities. There is some ceremony at our house. So My mother has
sent you all these things." "Oh, very good." He was thinking that "If I could
get some commodities and I could prepare something and invite Sanatana
Gosvami." So the things were there.

So Rupa Gosvami inquired, "Where do You live? Oh, You are very nice girl. Where
do You live?" "Oh, I live in this village. You do not know?" "No, I have never
seen You. All right. Thank You very much." Then She went away. And invited
Sanatana Gosvami, "My dear brother, please come and take your prasadam here. I
have got some food." "All right." So Sanatana Gosvami came during prasadam
time, and Rupa Gosvami has prepared so many nice dishes. They were also expert
in cooking, expert. You know, all devotees, they are expert. That is his
qualification.

So then Sanatana Gosvami was inquiring, "Where did you get all these things, so
nice things, you have prepared in this jungle? How did you get?" So he narrated
the story, "Yes, in the morning I thought that 'If somebody sends me
something...' So by Krsna's grace, somebody, a nice girl, a very beautiful
girl, and She brought all these things." "Who?" He began to state about the
girl's beauty.

Then Sanatana Gosvami said, "Oh, I have never seen such beautiful girl.
How...?" "Yes, I have also never seen." "Ohhh. Then She must be Radharani. She
must be Radha. You have taken service from Radharani? Ohhh. You have murdered
me. We don't want to take any service from Krsna, and He has taken the
opportunity, sent us... We want to simply give our service, not any exchange.
Oh, you have done a great mistake. Radharani has taken this opportunity." So he
began to cry that "We have taken service from Krsna. We have given Her
trouble." This is pure devotion. They were very sorry that "Krsna was troubled
to send me all these goods."
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From Srila Prabhupada's lecture on Sri Caitanya-caritamrta, Madhya-lila
20.118–119 – December 1, 1966, New York