Part 55: Barbara Schwarz reveals shocking news!
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from Frankfurt, when I came home. Lotte was of RB's age, she was a
convicted spy and imprioned in an eastern German prison for several
years. She was married to a physican, who also spied for the west
German secret service, which would be the Bundesnachrichtendienst, the
former Gehlen Nazi spy ring. He disappeared without a trace. Lotte
thinks he was murdered, I rather think he became a German
mindcontroller and runs other physicans, because the west German
secret service run secretly the east German secret service and also
the KGB.
I was however glad when Lotte was there, because she was a kind of
buffer between I and RB, who looked terrible. Actually, RB looked as
if psychs had entered her home at night and hypnotized and implanted
her to be as crazy as possible and to make my life miserable. She was
very transformed from the day I left her.
I went out at least once with both women, but I could not relax,
because RB watched me with extreme distrust and wanted to find
something that could be wrong with me and to blame it on L. Ron
Hubbard and Scientology. Any argument that the SCN is infiltrated by
non-Scientologists never got in her head, she is much like the many
Scientology attackers that post on ARS, they just don't think deep
enough.
After some days, Lotte returned to Frankfurt. She asked me to stay
with her, but I never visited her. Connections and involvement with
the German secret service is the last I ever wanted.
After Lotte had left, RB alleged SCN on all kinds of crimes, e.g. that
I was implanted in the orgs. She blamed SCN of having done to me what
psychs did to her. You read in the former sequels what happened in the
orgs, how I was treated by SCN infiltrators, but implanting was not
one of the crimes. I told her a calm as possible that she is
misinformed, that she is on the wrong track, that I was not in need of
doctors in Los Angeles, that I was not sick and that she just should
let go.
But she didn't. I could not tell RB what really happened in L.A.,
because she did not want to listen, she always knew everything better,
she just would have blamed Ron or innocent Scientologists, so I did
not tell her anything, except that her version of the events were
wrong.
I indeed had some black spots on my arms and legs when I returned from
L.A., which came from trying to break out of wrongful imprisonment by
the Scientology infiltrators, the wogs, the agents of the Germans
still Nazi secret service. I told RB that those spots came from
physical exercises, which wasn't untrue, but I could not tell her the
whole truth, because she would have blamed anybody, including you,
Marty, who had nothing to do with that at all. You were not even
around when it happened. RB claimed that the spots came from
"injection needles" by Scientologists that implanted me. I told her it
is false and ridicolous, but as I said, she knew it better, despite
she was not there.
My sister Ulrike wasn't help for me either. In those years, she
adopted mainly the views of RB as hers, those were her opinions too,
but not as extreme. She greeted me with taking one photos after the
other of me, flashing lights in my face, while I just wanted to have
my rest to think. After the photos were developed I had to hear that I
looked terrible. Well sure, enturbulated relatives all over me, wrong
accusations, no place on my own, cameras clicking, flashlights going
off, that is not the ideal base for glamour shorts.
Her taking photos of me was not done with bad intentions. She also
gave me new clothes and tried to attract me to her world, to visit car
shows and exhibits. She did not understand that I wanted to be left
alone to figure out certain things and a change in my life.
The real problem was RB. During the days she kicked me out of the
house, I should not stay home alone, because I might open the door "in
trance" to Scientologists that want to steal her belongings. At
nights, she woke me up demanding from me to give up my religion
Scientology. During the days I was homeless and had to sit in
coffeeshops till she came home, during the nights she would not let me
sleep.
My sister would have taken me in, she would have not locked me out
during the day or woken me up at night, but back then she was married
to a German drunk and chain smoker, who made a pass at me. Her home
was a place that I really tried to avoid.
My brother was the only one that wasn't enturbulated or crazy, but he
had no space to share. He made sure that RB gave me my money back,
that Juergen had turned over to RB and not to me, and RB did not want
to give it back to me.
We did not earn much in the orgs. Without a moonlightjob we would have
been not able to pay our rent. Juergen and I lived mainly from an
inheritance that I got from Heinz Bretschneider. While I was in LA, RB
demanded from Juergen to give her the rest of the money, which he did.
He should have turned it over to me and not to her.
Barbara/Sarah
Read in installment 56 about my run in with Juerg Stettler in the
Munich org, my trip through Germany and a bit about Copenhagen.
Barbara Schwarz, January 3, 2003
