Part 33: Barbara Schwarz reveals shocking news!
BarbaraSchwarz
the introduction of the personality test was not by L. Ron Hubbard,
but rather by sources that are more interested to make a psychological
club out of religion Scientology, I don't think that much harm is done
through the test, but it is not L. Ron Hubbard's Scientology. Original
Scientology was so attractive to people that we needed neither
personality test nor bodyrouters. Folks streamed in from everywhere of
the world just having heard that Scientology offers advanced spiritial
abilites and also a technology to preserve youth.
Back to my story: I was a public registrar in the Munich Scientology
org and worked hard on handling my PTS A situation with Rosemarie
Bretschneider (RB). Actually RB was such a terrible supressive person
that me being declared PTS I would have been the exact definition. PTS
I is when a person is supressing another one actively in present time,
which RB did all her life to me. A Munich ethic officer told me to be
as nice to her as I can manage, to improve the situation. So I did. I
was never nicer to her in my whole life. I swallowed all my rebellious
pride, helped her as much as I could, spend time with her, in fact, I
did all she wanted, except quitting Scientology. It wasn't easy,
because I had to devote so much time to her, which other young people
would have rather used for themselves and not on a crazy supressive
"mother", but RB used my attention selfishly. She still hated
Scientology, but she kept her hate to herself, because she liked it
better when I served her, which I had not done before 1977. The result
was that when an auditor asked me if I have a PTS A situation, I could
say with no, because RB did not say anything against Scientology
anymore.
The job as public registrar started to become too small for me, so I
agreed to become Guardian Office (GO), Public Relations Staff. I was
one year on staff, entitled to vacation and RB expected me to go with
her on a 3 weeks long vacation to Yugoslavia. I was told in the GO,
that I can't take this vacation, which resulted that RB got so mad,
that she was not more antagonistic, she even threatened to attack
Scientology and the org. In other words: Not only my PTS A situation
was back, but I was also PTS C, which is a person connected to
somebody who threatens Scientology. It was really a bad decision not
to let me go on this vacation, because everything I had worked before
to get rid of the PTS A situation was destroyed, and on top of it, I
was worse off than before with a PTS C Situation.
RB called the AG PR Kurt Weiland and screamed threats in his ears. I
don't know what she was telling him in detail, but I could tell that
he found her to be a real monster. He did let me go on vacation,
before she would do something violent.
RB usually did not drink, but I am sure she is a past life alcoholic,
because on the rare occasion when he bought liquor, she hid the
bottles immediately in the last corner of her closets. My sister told
me that this is typically behavior of an alcoholic, so my guess is she
got this habit from a former life time. However, she was not drinking
in this lifetime, but in Yugoslavia she got one time drunk and swam in
this condition in the Adriatic Sea. Only I was around and in order to
prevent that she would drown, I had to pull her out of the sea and
dumped her rather unfriendly on the beach. I again had saved her life,
but she just endangered mine.
Back in Munich I was routed off staff. Another ethics officer sent me
to a psychiatrist to get something in writing, in case that when RB
would kidnap me in a mental health institution for being a
Scientologist, that there would be another voice of another psych
saying that I don't belong her. I was examined with tests by such a
psych, but I did not told him that I am a Scientologist, because if I
would have he would have written me a bad expertise, instead of the
good one that I got from him. (But this document did not help me later
when the German still Nazi government tried to "deprogram", in other
words depersonalize me from Scientology, because the German government
was not interested in what anybody else was saying.)
I worked no longer in the Guardian Office, because of the PTS C
situation with RB. I instead worked in the expansion unit, which was
also located in the Munich org, but it was the office for those that
wanted to join the GO, but had something to handle before they would
qualify. However, I did the exact same job in the expansion unit as I
did in the GO, I handled false reports about Scientology and L. Ron
Hubbard in the media.
I was no longer on the org payroll, and I got myself a job in a Munich
hotel and managed every day in the morning the hotel kitchen and
served breakfast on the guests. Everybody in that hotel was spooky:
The owners, the staff and the regular guests. They had a dog as large
as a cow, the largest dog not on any leash, I ever have seen, who
looked at me as if I would be his breakfast. The owner was a German
woman almost 80 years old who was afraid that she got kidnapped, if
she gets too rich, her son was a primitive Bavarian, looked like a
Gauweiler-clone and accused me of being responsible for the failing
electricity in the hotel and claimed that I also otherwise would break
everything I come in contact with, but he never fired me. (I hope he
was not speaking of his heart.)The maid was trying to catch ghosts and
drowned them in her coffee cup and sometimes stomped on them to kill
them. (I am not making this up.) And there was the chief receptionist,
a french men and a Jehova witness, who told me that the hotel is badly
wired by spies, he never wanted to leave my kitchen and who stalked me
with phone call to the org.
I earned however money and could pay my rent and food, but was always
glad when I entered at noon the org, because the non-Scientologists
were a lot crazier than most people that were on staff.
In the expansion unit was a real small office. I met Mr. Schwarz in
there his desk was right next to mine.
Read in installment 34 who he is and my message to him.
Barbara Schwarz, December 17, 2002
Bonan the Carbarian
> I earned however money and could pay my rent and food, but was always
> glad when I entered at noon the org, because the non-Scientologists
> were a lot crazier than most people that were on staff.
You felt better in the "org", because of the insulation in the
ceiling. It consisted of aluminum-foil bags of insulating material,
and ammounted to a gigantic aluminum-foil beanie covering everyone
inside. When you're not in such a building, you need individual
protection. Besides the standard "beanie", for which you can find
plans all over the Internet, you can use an ordinary baseball cap
lined on the inside with foil. This will prevent the German Nazis
from using their orbital mind-control laser on you when you are out
and about.
Small price -- big protection.
--
Bonan the Friendly Carbarian