[Fanfic][Eva][Lemon/Dark] Moonlight
Psaiyan Prince Vegeta
owned by GAINAX. This is merely the work of a slightly twisted,
depressed but otherwise financially challenged person. Please don't
sue me.
The following contains adults situations and scenes of sexual violence
which are totally unsuitable for people under the age of 18 or those
of a sensitive disposition.
I have tried to make this as realistic and in-character as possible.
Comments and constructive critisism are welcomed. MST if you wish.
Let me know what you think.
Moonlight
By Psaiyan Prince Vegeta.
Rei Ayanami lay upon her unmade bed and contemplated the peeling paint
and the patches of green damp which constituted the ceiling of her
abode. Her eyes unblinking in their maroon intensity slowly tracked
the progress of a spider as it crawled from one wall to the next and
commenced its web spinning.
"Arachnid..." Rei's voice little more than a murmur.
There were always a lot of spiders in her apartment. Rei didn't care.
She reasoned that they would keep the flies (attracted to the rotting
food in the kitchen) down to a bare minimum and bore them little mind.
It was near midnight. The sky was clear and the stars were out in
force, their companion moon hung low in the heavens, its light
streaming through her open window, creating long unearthly shadows,
illuminating her pale, creamy skin and imparting an odd lustre to her
soft blue hair.
The moon. Rei had always felt an affinity with the moon. A niggling
something at the back of her mind, always just out of her reach. A
memory that did not wish to be recalled. Just as the moon reflected
the light of the sun, Rei often felt in her heart as though she were
merely a pale reflection of something greater.
She had lain unmoving for several hours now, still dressed in her
school uniform. Her homework completed with diligent efficiency and a
small evening meal of instant rice consumed. When not actively
studying or engaged in her duties for NERV, Rei would lie in bed and
sleep. She had nothing else to do.
It was chilly here, her open window allowing the still night air to
loiter here and there, a small cloud of condensation rising above her
face the only sign that she was alive. Rei did not feel, nor care
about the cold.
A quiet night too. Increased police activity in the area had
temporarily confined the local villains and creatures of the night to
their hovels. The silence was deafening to Rei's ears, the sounds of
the street, the shouts, the screams, the blaring stereos, the screech
of brakes and occasionally, the gunfire conspicuous by its absence.
This seemed wrong to her somehow. A quiet night. Too quiet...
Her bedside clock ticked away, her life ending one second at a time.
It seemed to be an eternity before the digital display flickered to
00:00 and a small bleep sounded, causing a small flicker of
recognition to cross Rei's face. No need to remove her uniform - she
could wear it tomorrow. Time for sleep.
She slowly closed her eyes.
--
*BZZZT!*
Rei blinked. The clock greenly displayed 02:38.
*BZZZT!*
She tilted her head slightly, wide-awake.
*BZZZT!*
The intercom. Someone at the door.
*BZZZT!*
A visitor. She never had visitors.
*BZZZT!*
She never had visitors in the middle of the night
*BZZZT!*
She never answered her door.
*silence*
Rei closed her eyes again.
*CLICK*
The door was unlocked. The door was always unlocked. She had nothing
worth stealing.
*footsteps* - two sets.
--
Commander Ikari's glasses reflected the moonlight like a mirror,
hiding the expression in his eyes. Rei could smell the alcohol on him
from across the room, harsh and cloying, mixed with the acrid
staleness of tobacco smoke and cheap aftershave. His presence seemed
to expand to fill the room. She hardly even noticed Vice-Commander
Fuyutsuki's lean, willowy presence immediately behind the right
shoulder of his superior.
"Good evening Rei." Ikari's speech was slurred. In three worlds, Rei
knew that he was hopelessly drunk.
"Good evening commander." Rei swung her legs over the side of the
mattress and rose to her feet. "Good evening Mr Fuyutsuki."
Gendo nodded. Fuyutsuki looked away uneasily.
"So tell me Rei, how are you feeling tonight? Is everything okay?"
"Everything is well commander." Rei replied in her usual monotone.
Ikari's visit was a little out of the ordinary, but he did like to
take an interest in her from time to time.
"You should close the window. You'll catch your death of cold."
"I do not feel it."
Pulling up a chair and brushing a stack of unopened junk mail from the
seat, Gendo unsteadily set himself down. Fuyutsuki leaned against the
far wall and stared at the nails of his right hand.
"So tell me Rei, how are things at school. Are you being a good girl?"
he struggled to spit the sentence out, a toxic sweat breaking out on
his forehead. He clutched tightly at the chair arms.
"Of course. My studies are proceeding well." Rei nodded slightly.
Running his fingers through his hair, Ikari yawned.
"Rei... Rei... Rei..."
"Yes, sir?"
"I was just wondering if you would perhaps like to share a drink with
me?" he folded his hands in front of his face, the movement of his
head causing a glint of light upon his glasses, his voice oily.
"Drink?"
"Yes. Have some whisky - it's very pleasant." He turned to his
vice-commander. "Fuyutsuki - the bottle please." Rei noticed the
prominent veins, like knotted cords at the side of his neck.
"Commander... with all due respect, I do not think that Rei is old
enough to be drinking..." the older man's voice was gruff, yet
strangely pleasant to her ears. He seemed to radiate competence, a
reassuring air of authority.
"Let me say that again Fuyutsuki. The bottle please." A note of
annoyance crept into Gendo's voice.
"Yes sir." Shaking his head, Fuyutsuki pulled a bottle of American
bourbon from his jacket pocket and tossed it across the room to Gendo,
the contents sloshing gently.
A slight grin appeared at the corners of his mouth as he cracked the
seal on the bottle.
"Now Rei. As I have a head start on you, I think that you should have
a few drinks on your own first. Why don't you sit down? It can be an
acquired taste..." Gendo sneered. "Fuyutsuki - pass me that mug."
--
The liquor was strong and fiery, almost causing the blue-haired girl
to gag retch at the first mouthful. Gendo had smirked at her. Rei had
never seen him look at her like that before. He insisted that she
tried again.
Perched on the edge of her bed and sipping slowly from the blue
ceramic mug, Rei had managed a few sips. The taste was hateful and she
disliked the idea of alcohol intently. However Commander Ikari had
wanted to share a drink with her - she could not disobey him. As she
drank, his mood seemed to lighten. He began to talk.
Rei did not often experience the emotion known as surprise. However,
she could not help but change her facial expression as Gendo began to
speak. This was so unlike him, to discuss personal matters, between
large slugs of whisky straight from the bottle.
He spoke of the pressures of his work, the weight of responsibility,
the expectations placed upon him by those weaker than himself, pausing
briefly every now and then to refill Rei's mug. It was imperceivable
to her, but Gendo had been edging his chair ever closer to her as he
talked, Fuyutsuki watching on from the corner, silent and impassive.
The spirit burned deep inside her, causing a warm glow to radiate
outwards from her centre. This was a new, but not unpleasant feeling.
The drink even began to taste better. The commander had been right
about it being an acquired taste - the commander was always right
about everything.
"I hold all the cards, Rei. The world could be mine if I so wished
it... I could reshape everything that is into my own image if I only
desired... But what good is the world and all the people in it if one
is... always... alone?"
"Commander... I'm not sure I understand what you are saying." Rei had
never heard him speak this way.
"Of course not. How could you? Being by yourself is second nature to
you. You have never known it any other way, have you." he shook his
head sadly.
"I am merely I." She knew no other response.
"My life used to be different. I have known kindness, I have known
warmth..." He leaned closer, his face only inches from Rei's. "...the
warmth of the heart... and the warmth of the flesh..."
Ikari's hot distillery breath rasped across Rei's face, stinging her
eyes and forcing her to turn her head.
"This is the thing that I miss most of all..." a wicked grin spread
across his granite features as he placed his hand, his skin rough and
callused upon Rei's thigh. "Yui..."
Fuyutsuki shook his head sadly.
--
Whiskey. The thick, sickly stench of alcohol. Toxic. The destroyer of
life. The bitter smell of his sweat and his greasy unkempt hair. The
weight of his body, pressing her into the mattress, crushing the life
from her.
There was no tenderness, no affection in his touch. He had ripped away
her blouse and bra with his bare hands, the fabric cutting deeply into
her shoulder blades. She had whimpered in pain as his large hands had
engulfed her breasts, his fingernails digging deeply into her flesh.
His face had been expressionless, the reflected moonlight hiding any
secrets that his eyes could betray.
He had slapped her face and ordered her to be silent and had forced
his thick, snakelike tongue deeply into her mouth, choking her. She
was breathing only alcohol fumes and wanted to vomit.
The vice-commander was no longer in the room. She stared upwards at
the moon. He had slapped her again and ordered her to look at his
face. She complied. She existed only to make her Commander happy.
Her skirt and panties were hurled away into the night. Thick digits,
the nails chipped and dirty, roughly probed the petals of her most
sacred spot. When she winced in pain, he drove his fist hard into her
stomach. Rei stayed silent. She must always do what her Commander told
her.
The pain was indescribable as he penetrated her for the first time. It
felt as though he were tearing her insides apart. She stayed perfectly
still and made not a sound.
It hurt more as he thrust against her, grunting like an animal, his
face contorted with rage. Deep within her, she felt something tear. A
new floor of agony engulfed her, knocking the breath from her body.
She was thankful for the alcohol now, numbing her senses, deadening
some of the sensations. She would endure... endure for her Commander.
His hands roamed all over her slender young body, groping savagely and
wildly at her soft white skin. Drool slid from his mouth and dotted
her forehead.
His spectacles had fallen beside Rei's head, revealing bulging feral
eyes as he pounded away at her. This was what he wanted, this is what
made him happy. The commander needed this. The commander needed her.
She was a good girl.
As he spilled himself deep inside her, he gouged deep furrows into the
flesh of her back, his head thrown back, an unearthly bellow expanding
from within him. Rei noticed that the spider had almost finished
spinning its web.
"Yui... I love you..." tears formed in the corners of his eyes as he
kissed her tenderly on the lips.
--
She could hear Commander Ikari sobbing somewhere in the adjacent
bathroom.
"Yui... my Yui... I'm sorry, so sorry..." his voice choked with
emotion
"You made me do it! You made me do it!" he screamed, his fists
pounding against the sink.
Fuyutsuki flung the door wide and rushed into the room in time to hear
Gendo vomiting noisily into the bath. His eyes were wide with concern
as he stood over Rei's battered and bruised form. He blinked once, as
though his eyes were camera shutters, recording the image before him
for posterity. A look of revulsion crossed his face, disappearing as
quickly as it had arrived. He turned towards the bathroom.
--
"Let's go, Commander."
Fuyutsuki had supported Ikari's arm as NERV's supreme commander
staggered towards the front door. Not another word passed their lips
and neither man glanced back towards Rei, still lying prostrate amid
the tousled sheets and the remains of her clothing.
The front door clicked shut and the sound of a car engine filled the
air. It was silent once again, not even the crickets daring to chirp.
--
The clock read 4:49.
Rei's fingers came away from her ravaged womanhood sticky with blood.
Red... the colour she hated... brought forth from a woman who would
not bleed by the man who was her life. She did not understand how or
why, only that it had and that it was and that it must be so.
The moon was low in the sky as she lay as still as a corpse, waiting
for morning. She stared at it and it stared back, seeing all, knowing
all, revealing nothing, uncaring. A hot tear formed in the corner of
an unblinking crimson eye and slowly rolled down her cheek, to be
absorbed by her damp, matted hair.
Rei could not explain why she cried.
--
Reverend David "PPV" Hawthorne -
Gimme back my broken night,
My mirrored room,
My secret light,
It's lonely here,
There's no-one left to torture.
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/ HENTAI \========@
____|__________\_____
/ ___________________ \
\/ _===============_ \/
"-===============-"
Vaughn L.Porter
you, you may get flamed for it (certainly so if Disaster was still around).
Second, very well written, and disturbing; But I imagine that was what you
were trying to convey. However, and I don't want to go off on a rant here,
but I doubt that such a scenario would have come up involving Rei; more
likely, Ritsuko would have been on the recieving end, and probally numerous
times. Her behaviour in the ending episodes and in EoE seems consistant with
a battered spouse. Of course, that's just my opinion, I could be wrong.
Vaughn L.Porter
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at 1-800-LACTOSE
Psaiyan Prince Vegeta
<vau...@pcez.com> wrote:
>First, you are not supposed to put fanfics up on this ng. Just want to warn
>you, you may get flamed for it (certainly so if Disaster was still around).
I'm not trying to start an argument, but I was just wondering why this
is the case? Why is it wrong to post Eva fanfiction on an Eva
newsgroup (or a UK anime group, depending on where you're looking at
this)?
>Second, very well written, and disturbing; But I imagine that was what you
>were trying to convey. However, and I don't want to go off on a rant here,
>but I doubt that such a scenario would have come up involving Rei; more
>likely, Ritsuko would have been on the recieving end, and probally numerous
>times. Her behaviour in the ending episodes and in EoE seems consistant with
>a battered spouse. Of course, that's just my opinion, I could be wrong.
I think that Ritsuko was more a lonely woman whom Gendo used for sex.
I don't think that he ever forced her, he just didn't show her any
affection before, during or after.
Rei OTOH would probably not even be overly concerned if Gendo began to
molest her. After all, he was her idol and could do no wrong in her
eyes. If it was the commander doing it, then there must have been a
good reason for it...
Justin Palmer
Vegeta <ppve...@hotmail.communism> writes(snip)
>I'm not trying to start an argument, but I was just wondering why this
>is the case? Why is it wrong to post Eva fanfiction on an Eva
>newsgroup (or a UK anime group, depending on where you're looking at
>this)?
Fanfics tend to be on the long side compared to most posts to
newsgroups; they can vary in quality and not everyone on a newsgroup may
want to read them; there are dedicated sites where you can post fanfics
and you could settle for just posting a link to your story.
(snip)
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Psaiyan Prince Vegeta
<jus...@briareos.demon.co.uk> wrote:
>In article <k7vm3v8j3oa3n7o37...@4ax.com>, Psaiyan Prince
>Vegeta <ppve...@hotmail.communism> writes
>>On Fri, 31 Jan 2003 21:02:09 -0800, "Vaughn L.Porter"
>><vau...@pcez.com> wrote:
>>
>(snip)
>>I'm not trying to start an argument, but I was just wondering why this
>>is the case? Why is it wrong to post Eva fanfiction on an Eva
>>newsgroup (or a UK anime group, depending on where you're looking at
>>this)?
>
> Fanfics tend to be on the long side compared to most posts to
>newsgroups; they can vary in quality and not everyone on a newsgroup may
>want to read them; there are dedicated sites where you can post fanfics
>and you could settle for just posting a link to your story.
Okay, fair enough.
But what did you think of the fic? ^_^
Justin Palmer
Vegeta <ppve...@hotmail.communism> writes
>On Sat, 1 Feb 2003 13:00:55 +0000, Justin Palmer
><jus...@briareos.demon.co.uk> wrote:
>
>>In article <k7vm3v8j3oa3n7o37...@4ax.com>, Psaiyan Prince
>>Vegeta <ppve...@hotmail.communism> writes
>>>On Fri, 31 Jan 2003 21:02:09 -0800, "Vaughn L.Porter"
>>><vau...@pcez.com> wrote:
>
(snip)
>>>newsgroup (or a UK anime group, depending on where you're looking at
>>>this)?
>
> there are dedicated sites where you can post fanfics
>>and you could settle for just posting a link to your story.
>
>Okay, fair enough.
>
>But what did you think of the fic? ^_^
I didn't read it. Sorry, nothing personal, but Evangelion fan-
fiction doesn't interest me much.
Stuart Dawson
<ppve...@hotmail.communism> wrote:
>DISCLAIMER: The following work of fiction makes use of characters
>owned by GAINAX. This is merely the work of a slightly twisted,
>depressed but otherwise financially challenged person. Please don't
>sue me.
Don't you think this would be more appropriate in
rec.arts.anime.creative? I certainly do.
--
Stuart Dawson
NomiCon II - Make Mine a Double!
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Pen^3
> On Fri, 31 Jan 2003 21:02:09 -0800, "Vaughn L.Porter"
> <vau...@pcez.com> wrote:
>
> >First, you are not supposed to put fanfics up on this ng. Just want to warn
> >you, you may get flamed for it (certainly so if Disaster was still around).
>
> I'm not trying to start an argument, but I was just wondering why this
> is the case? Why is it wrong to post Eva fanfiction on an Eva
> newsgroup (or a UK anime group, depending on where you're looking at
> this)?
I think it is probably for the same reason as binaries are not
allowed. This wasn't too big, but large files should not be posted to
newsgroups which are not set up for them.
In this case there is another newsgroup which should have been used.
"rec.arts.anime.creative" is for fan created stories and images. You
could repost it there, so it can be properly archived.
> >Second, very well written, and disturbing;
I agree, very well written.
> >But I imagine that was what you
> >were trying to convey. However, and I don't want to go off on a rant here,
> >but I doubt that such a scenario would have come up involving Rei; more
> >likely, Ritsuko would have been on the recieving end, and probally numerous
> >times. Her behaviour in the ending episodes and in EoE seems consistant with
> >a battered spouse. Of course, that's just my opinion, I could be wrong.
>
> I think that Ritsuko was more a lonely woman whom Gendo used for sex.
> I don't think that he ever forced her, he just didn't show her any
> affection before, during or after.
>
> Rei OTOH would probably not even be overly concerned if Gendo began to
> molest her. After all, he was her idol and could do no wrong in her
> eyes. If it was the commander doing it, then there must have been a
> good reason for it...
This story makes it sound like Gendo was missing Yui, so he may have
wanted someone similar to Yui...
One thing I didn't get was why Fuyutsuki was there. I would have
thought Fuyutsuki would have stopped this happening.
P^3
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Pen^3
"Sickle584th" <sukho...@adelphia.junknetspam> squawked:
> "Pen^3" <Pe...@pen3.cjb.net.NO> wrote
>
> <BIG SNIP>
>
> hey Pen^3, haven't seen ya post in a while. Know where Disaster is?
My news-server has been crap for a few months. It's still a bit
intermittent. For a while Dissy and I couldn't see each others
messages, then I dropped off for a while. When I got back, a little
while ago, he had gone. I was hoping someone would tell me what
happened. Has anyone tried emailing him?
Sickle584th
> <dropped the uk group>
>
> "Sickle584th" <sukho...@adelphia.junknetspam> squawked:
> > "Pen^3" <Pe...@pen3.cjb.net.NO> wrote
> >
> > <BIG SNIP>
> >
> > hey Pen^3, haven't seen ya post in a while. Know where Disaster is?
>
> My news-server has been crap for a few months. It's still a bit
> intermittent. For a while Dissy and I couldn't see each others
> messages, then I dropped off for a while. When I got back, a little
> while ago, he had gone. I was hoping someone would tell me what
> happened. Has anyone tried emailing him?
I never did have anyone's e-mail address, except for Patrick's.
Pen^3
> "Pen^3" <Pe...@pen3.cjb.net.NO> wrote
> > <dropped the uk group>
> >
> > "Sickle584th" <sukho...@adelphia.junknetspam> squawked:
> > > "Pen^3" <Pe...@pen3.cjb.net.NO> wrote
> >
> > My news-server has been crap for a few months. It's still a bit
> > intermittent. For a while Dissy and I couldn't see each others
> > messages, then I dropped off for a while. When I got back, a little
> > while ago, he had gone. I was hoping someone would tell me what
> > happened. Has anyone tried emailing him?
>
> I never did have anyone's e-mail address, except for Patrick's.
I checked his webpage <http://www.disfanfic.net> and it says:
"Unfortunately my account is having trouble all of my hobby sites
have to be temporarily taken down to allow my email to get through.
I'll put them back up later though, I am sorry for the
inconvenience this causes some people."
Sounds like he isn't able to access newsgroups at the moment.