Bullying

[Lynn]

I just this minute realized how often I criticize myself. It's a
series of constant little pokes. It's as bad as any bully could dish
out on the playground. How can one feel relaxed or hear your own
signal if this other garbage is constantly chattering on? In this
moment I feel great joy as I look at things I have always criticized
and marvel at their imperfections and uniqueness to me. I'm rather
giddy about this discovery. It's a big one for me.
Where did all this stuff come from? A lot probably started in the
blessed sandbox. Damn, I'm glad I don't have to go there to play
anymore. It's time I put the sand that fell into my pockets way back
then back where it belongs and leave it there.
There were a lot of bullies in my past but I just never realized that
I had picked up their banter and continued it on thus blocking or over
riding my own precious signal. I now know different. Thanks to Amy and
Louise and all the others who write on this group. You are all
wonderful, as am I. Yippee
I'm going to be asking myself (my body) a whole lot more questions and
letting go of the bullying now that I'm aware of it, and listening a
lot closer to the replies I get from signal #1. This doesn't have to
be so hard, I just need to PAY Attention.