a beautiful mind

[sarah1978]

something really powerful is emerging for me

this movie was my homework for a mental health class from that teacher
that has been an invitation.

i know know what aspect of her is me

and this huge parts integration is occuring

this movie held so many insights for me....of parts i was exploring in
my own self. with the notion of individual relaities and the
information they contain and the brilliance that it all contains

that pills and removing the symptoms removes life force.

and that there are other ways to live true to your truth of it all and
still come to a place where you become the self love of self with
others

it holds RIG of others.....self discovery.....truth of
expierence....and trust in self...no matter whats going on around you.

i feel this urge to engage with my instructor more now....there are
some really powerful things that are going to come up in me...i can
feel them

i feel most alive and passionate when i get curious about it all.....
about self discovery...about curiousity of my holodeck
experiences......

external references create disease...not just of body but of mind as
well. this movie was sucha beutiful reflection of that wisom i hold
in me that i now want to explore more. I feel like a new pth is
opening up in front of me and this character is a catalyst for me to
find that trust in my own path...and trust to stay true to that...no
matter what i experience around me from old parts.

i can create passion in my life...meaning...and it might look very
different fro some...and to others it might sook so familiar....and in
the end....itss all aspects of me. and my life purpose is to continue
discovering it all...and allow myself to let go of the need to over
acheive in an external ref way...and acheive passion and meaning and
experience...no choose to expereince it all differently. connection to
self from truth of self....and connection to others...the asepcts of
who i am becoing. its not created from a formula....its created from
spirit...and truth.

i want to have more conversations with others...bigger ones...i want
bigger playmates on my holodeck... school for me has been the catalyst
in many ways...yet in others it was been confining...yet i create it
all. it my palate...all of it...i choose.


years ago i chooose to not conform with meical knowledge of labels...i
came off paxil despite the choas that occured in my obody...and as i
watched this movie i felt my truth of the wisdom i held in that moment
of discovery align with the outside....and trust it so much more.

i am not sure what this new path of nursing will look like...yet i can
feel something massive happening....this might very well be my new
path in my new career...and a new journey of continuing my own self
discoveries in my own wisdom....and seeing it in others.

[sarah1978]

in the end of the movie...he won a nobel peace prize......and wasn't
even trying... a metaphor for the peace he discovered in self from
trusting his path.....and how it all aligned....inside truth...and
with outside people who saw that in him.....

in the begining he started from an external reference point....in the
end...it was internally..... and his mental disease was the gift...in
all it held....to discover it all.

a beautiful movie.

all on the same continuum....just sometimes when its really left
field...we learn so much so fast.