don;t know to take it.

[Linda Mullen]

I"ve gotten so depressed that I haven't gone out of the house in a yr.
or more. I have panic attacks. I was taking meds none seem to help.The
first few years they had me on some pretty crazy stuff. it made here and
see people . A few yrs. ago I tried to end all. I live in old mobile
home that's got the ceilings falling on my bed.This place isn't fit live
in the whole tailor should be condemned. I've really went in to a deep
depression over my living stasis. I never before lived like this. I
don't bath anymore I don't I don't have any clothes. Don't cook an
clean. I can't sleep at night toss and turn praying GOD would take me.
I'm so sick of this life but haven't got the willing in me to
change.I've fought hard all my life to gain some type of place for me
fit in it never happened. I have a roommate but he took advantage of the
fact that I was completely out of it and my money that I received from
back pay for ssi. and gamble it away. I had over 17000 but when finally
got off all the medicines. There was nothing left for me to try and
better my self
Now in such of depression low I can't seem to even want to help my self.
I'm of no use to myself or any one else.But never did I think that would
live this way. a nasty filthy trailer not bathing.

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