Ending Life
doon
no truck with me anymore. I met a wonderful woman who was my doctor
and in contrast it made my life seem horrible. I am going to take my
own life so my son will have the insurance money . I don't know what
else to do as I will likely be dead in 10 or 15 years from lung cancer
anyways.
I don't think of it as suicide....Jesus knew he was going to be
executed but he stayed in Jerusalem because he was dying for his
children ...us , on Golgatha. I will die for my child on Interstate
95. I have been trying to see if there is any reason to keep living
but I have not found any. I am hurting very bad inside.
Why wait? Why commit suicide? I will fake an accident though I thought
about "death by cops" but with my luck I would get a cop who couldn't
shoot straight.
Am I depressed? ...Most likely..but the logic of my position is
infalliable and drugs like Prozac and what not just make you ignore
the truths of your life so screw them. Why am I posting?...because
someone needs to know and there is no one I can trust not to try and
talk me out of it or who might ruin it vis a vis the insurance
company.
Do I believe in God? Absolutely but the Great Spirit has not given me
a reason to want life...it is just the animal self preservation that
makes me duck and fear. If I don't do this I will probably just commit
suicide and there will be no insurance money.
Thanks for listening.