A Gay Man and Boy Lover Speaks Out
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Jamie Baillie
2008 NAMBLA Spokesman
2008 NAMBLA Activist of the Month (May)
http://www.nambla.org
A Gay Man and Boy Lover Speaks Out
Dear Friends,
I am a boy-lover and a 39-year-old gay man. I had a wonderful affair
with a 37-year-old man when I was only 10 years old. It was the most
pure, clean, and honest relationship I've ever had in my life. I knew
of my attraction for men and other boys when I was eight years old.
At the age of 10, a very good looking 37-year-old man, a friend of my
family who I very much looked up to, made his approach on me. I guess
I had a lot to do with it because I wanted it. We had a very
wonderful, passionate, heated affair, but it only lasted eight
months. I fell deeply in love with this man, and through my love for
him I matured a lot spiritually as well as sexually. We did
everything that two loving people could do with each other.
Unfortunately this man who I loved so much had to walk away from my
life because my parents found out about our close relationship through
another friend of mine (a peer) to whom I had entrusted my secret. My
man friend was scared and decided to move to another state. No
charges were ever pressed against him because I never admitted making
love with him.
It's hard to believe that this society, with its deep research on
modern psychology and space age technology, has not grown out of this
sexual taboo. They probably don't want to face the real true facts of
intergenerational relationships and how harmless they really are.
Society seems concerned about controlling and monitoring everything a
minor does. It is inconceivable that such relationships are punished
with such long jail sentences. People commit murder and their jail
terms are less.
I could have had a much healthier and lasting relationship when I was
a boy if it wasn't because of the way society is. They fucked up the
nice relationship I was having, and that's no good! Even though I
was, like they say now, "molested at 10," I did not grow up to be a
child molester! That's bullshit! Boy love is a natural thing and
boys naturally want to make love to adult gay men.
I'm sorry if I seem enraged about this issue, but I still hold so
much frustration inside because I was never given a chance to be who I
wanted to be when I was 10 years old. I was told it was wrong to love
a man, that I was too young, and that this man was evil.
Of course, I never thought of him as an evil person. I thought he was
great! I knew what I wanted, but my parents told me I was just a
child and I shouldn't be thinking about sex.
You see, my adult gay life has been tough. It's mostly sexual, and
everything floats around "looks" and "sex," but if I look back to that
first relationship, I found support, caring, spirituality, and
commitment, as well as intensity and purity. All of that is very
difficult to achieve these days; the adult gay scene seems to revolve
around lust and sex.
How can gay people attack, judge, and condemn boy-lovers if we were
once under the same oppression as they are today? Do we really want
to become as closed-minded as those who refuse to let us gay people
share a space in society? Have any of us taken the time to examine
closely what man/boy love is all about? How can we then become part
of the narrow-minded team that we once fought, and still fight,
against? How could we ever win the battle of gay rights if we are
shooting with the same weapons that were (and are) used against us?
We have forgotten that sex is a vehicle of communication through which
there can be the maximum expression of love.
The fact of the matter is, most gay men are boy lovers in private even
if they put on another face in public. I have the courage to stand up
and be counted as a proud boy lover who has had multiple partners as
young as eight years old. The time has come for the rest of you to
stand with me in this plea for reason. Love is beauty and the love
between a man and a boy is a beautiful thing especially when expressed
as love making.
Sincerely yours,
Jamie Baillie
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Jamie Baillie
2008 NAMBLA Spokesman
2008 NAMBLA Activist of the Month (May)
http://www.nambla.org
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"The best sex I ever had was with a nine year old boy named Timmy"
Jamie Baillie
"Consumption of a young boy's feces is better than Viagra"
Jamie Baillie
kangarooistan
Its no wonder Christians are not welcome in Iraq and Afghanistan ,
Muslims know what white christian capitalists are really like and what
the western christians will do if they get into power in the middle
east
THE BLACK WAR
"The Black War of Van Diemen's Land" was the name of the official
campaign of terror directed against the Black people of Tasmania.
Between 1803 and 1830 the Black aborigines of Tasmania were reduced
from an estimated five-thousand people to less than seventy-five. An
article published December 1, 1826 in the Tasmanian Colonial Times
declared that:
"We make no pompous display of Philanthropy. The Government must
remove the natives--if not, they will be hunted down like wild beasts
and destroyed!"
With the declaration of martial law in November 1828, Whites were
authorized to kill Blacks on sight.
As early as 1804 the British began to slaughter, kidnap and enslave
the Black people of Tasmania. The colonial government itself was not
even inclined to consider the aboriginal Tasmanians as full human
beings, and scholars began to discuss civilization as a unilinear
process with White people at the top and Black people at the bottom.
To the Europeans of Tasmania the Blacks were an entity fit only to be
exploited in the most sadistic of manners--a sadism that staggers the
imagination and violates all human morality. As UCLA professor, Jared
Diamond, recorded:
"Tactics for hunting down Tasmanians included riding out on horseback
to shoot them, setting out steel traps to catch them, and putting out
poison flour where they might find and eat it. Sheperds cut off the
penis and testicles of aboriginal men, to watch the men run a few
yards before dying. At a hill christened Mount Victory, settlers
slaughtered 30 Tasmanians and threw their bodies over a cliff. One
party of police killed 70 Tasmanians and dashed out the children's
brains."
Such vile and animalistic behavior on the part of the White settlers
of Tasmania was the rule rather than the exception. In spite of their
wanton cruelty, however, punishment in Tasmania was exceedingly rare
for the Whites, although occasionally Whites were sentenced for crimes
against Blacks. For example, there is an account of a man who was
flogged for exhibiting the ears and other body parts of a Black boy
that he had mutilated alive. We hear of another European punished for
cutting off the little finger of an Aborigine and using it as a
tobacco stopper. Twenty-five lashes were stipulated for Europeans
convicted of tying aboriginal "Tasmanian women to logs and burning
them with firebrands, or forcing a woman to wear the head of her
freshly murdered husband on a string around her neck."
Not a single European, however, was ever punished for the murder of
Tasmanian Aborigines. Europeans thought nothing of tying Black men to
trees and using them for target practice. Black women were kidnapped,
chained and exploited as sexual slaves. White convicts regularly
hunted Black people for sport, casually shooting, spearing or clubbing
the men to death, torturing and raping the women, and roasting Black
infants alive. As historian, James Morris, graphically noted:
"We hear of children kidnapped as pets or servants, of a woman chained
up like an animal in a sheperd's hut, of men castrated to keep them
off their own women. In one foray seventy aborigines were killed, the
men shot, the women and children dragged from crevices in the rocks to
have their brains dashed out. A man called Carrotts, desiring a native
woman, decapitated her husband, hung his head around her neck and
drove her home to his shack."
http://www.cwo.com/~lucumi/tasmania.html
Will Dockery
"kangarooistan" wrote...
> DEVILS IN HUMAN FORM
A harrowing history... but an important one to never forget what can happen
when evil men are in power. Thanks for posting, Kanga.
--
Truck Stop Woman by Dockery and Conley
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jXA4jekz_xk
nambla.jam...@googlemail.com
Jamie Baillie
2008 NAMBLA Spokesman
2008 NAMBLA Activist of the Month (May)
http://www.nambla.org
A Gay Man and Boy Lover Speaks Out
Dear Friends
I am a boy-lover and a 39-year-old gay man. I had a wonderful affair
with a 37-year-old man when I was only 10 years old. It was the most
pure clean and honest relationship I've ever had in my life. I knew
of my attraction for men and other boys when I was eight years old.
At the age of 10 a very good looking 37-year-old man a friend of my
family who I very much looked up to made his approach on me. I guess
I had a lot to do with it because I wanted it. We had a very
wonderful passionate heated affair but it only lasted eight months. I
fell deeply in love with this man and through my love for him I
matured a lot spiritually as well as sexually. We did everything that
two loving people could do with each other we made love in every
possible way in a variety of exciting places. To this day it was one
of the spicyest relationships I have ever had.
Unfortunately this man who I loved so much had to walk away from my
life because my parents found out about our close relationship through
another friend of mine (a peer) to whom I had entrusted my secret. My
boyfriend was scared and decided to move to another state. No charges
were ever pressed against him because I never admitted making love
with him.
It's hard to believe that this society with its deep research on
modern psychology and space age technology has not grown out of this
sexual taboo. They probably don't want to face the real true facts of
intergenerational relationships and how mutually healthy and nurturing
they really are.
Society seems concerned about controlling and monitoring everything a
minor does. It is inconceivable that such relationships are punished
with such long jail sentences. People commit murder and their jail
terms are less.
I could have had a much healthier and lasting relationship when I was
a boy if it wasn't because of the way society is. They fucked up the
nice relationship I was having and that's no good! Even though I was
like they say now "molested at 10" I did not grow up to be a child
molester! That's bullshit! Boy love is a natural thing and boys
naturally want to make love to adult gay men when they are attracted
to them. Its attraction nothing else and it can only be satisfied
with the physical act.
I'm sorry if I seem enraged about this issue but I still hold so much
frustration inside because I was never given a chance to be who I
wanted to be when I was 10 years old. I was told it was wrong to love
a man that I was too young and that by boyfriend was evil.
Of course I never thought of him as an evil person. I thought he was
great! I knew what I wanted and he obviously knew what he wanted but
my parents told me I was just a child and I shouldn't be thinking
about sex.
You see my adult gay life has been tough. It's mostly sexual and
everything floats around "looks" and "sex" but if I look back to that
first relationship I found support caring spirituality and commitment
as well as intensity and purity. All of that is very difficult to
achieve these days; the adult gay scene seems to revolve around lust
and sex. I enjoy the sexaul component of being gay and having once
been a boy with an adult boyfriend I know that the boys I date enjoy
it too but bigots prevail.
How can gay people attack judge and condemn boy-lovers if we were once
under the same oppression as they are today? Do we really want to
become as closed-minded as those who refuse to let us gay people share
a space in society? Have any of us taken the time to examine closely
what man/boy love is all about? How can we then become part of the
narrow-minded team that we once fought and still fight against? How
could we ever win the battle of gay rights if we are shooting with the
same weapons that were (and are) used against us? We have forgotten
that sex is a vehicle of communication through which there can be the
maximum expression of love.
The fact of the matter is most gay men are boy lovers in private even
if they put on another face in public. I have the courage to stand up
and be counted as a proud boy lover who has had multiple partners as
young as eight years old. The time has come for the rest of you to
stand with me in this plea for reason. Love is beauty and the love
between a man and a boy is a beautiful thing especially when expressed
as love making.
Sincerely yours
Jamie Baillie
--
Jamie Baillie
2008 NAMBLA Spokesman
2008 NAMBLA Activist of the Month (May)
http://www.nambla.org
dark...@nambla.org - Find me at NAMBLA
dark...@darkshado.ca - Find me at home
darks...@gmail.com - Find me mobile
Join The North American Man/Boy Love Association
http://www.nambla.org/join.htm
Support The North American Man/Boy Love Association
http://www.nambla.org/donate.htm
Become active in The North American Man/Boy Love Association
http://www.nambla.org/help.htm
"I was demonized for my love affair with a nine year old boy. The key
word is demon something all bigots are."
Jamie Baillie