1. ADULT CHILDREN GUESS AT WHAT NORMAL IS
There is no frame of reference for what it is like to be in a normal
household. You also have no frame of reference for what is O.K. to say and
feel. In a more typical situation, one does not have to walk on eggs all the
time. Because you did, you became confused. Many things from the past
contributed to your having to guess at what normal is.
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2. ADULT CHILDREN HAVE DIFFICULTY IN FOLLOWING A PROJECT THROUGH FROM
BEGINNING TO END
In a functional family, the child has this behaviour and attitude to model.
The child observes the process and the child may even ask questions along
the way. The learning may be more indirect than direct, but it is present.
Since your experience was so vastly different, it should be no surprise that
you have a problem with following a project through from beginning to end.
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3. ADULT CHILDREN LIE WHEN IT WOULD BE JUST AS EASY TO TELL THE TRUTH
Lying is basic to the family system affected by alcohol. It masquerades in
part as an overt denial of unpleasant realities, cover ups, broken promises
and inconsistencies. Lying as the norm in your house became part of what you
knew and what could be useful to you. At times, it made life much more
comfortable. If you lied about getting your work done, you could get away
with being lazy for a while. It seemed to make life simpler for everybody.
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4. ADULT CHILDREN JUDGE THEMSELVES WITHOUT MERCY
Your judgement of others is not nearly as harsh as your judgement of
yourself, although it is hard for you to see other people’s behaviour in
terms of a continuum either. Black and white, good or bad, are typically the
way you look at things. You know what it feels like to be bad, and how those
feeling make you behave. And then if you are good there is always the risk
that it won't last. So either way you set yourself up.
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5. ADULT CHILDREN HAVE DIFFICULTY HAVING FUN
6. ADULT CHILDREN TAKE THEMSELVES VERY SERIOUSLY
These two characteristics are closely linked.
You didn’t hear your parents laughing and joking and fooling around. Life
was a very serious, angry business. The tone in your house put a damper on
your fun. Eventually, you just went along with everybody else. Having fun
just was not fun. The spontaneous child within was quashed.
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7. ADULT CHILDREN HAVE DIFFICULTY WITH INTIMATE RELATIONSHIPS
The feelings of being insecure or having difficulty in trusting, and of
questions about whether or not you are going to get hurt are not exclusive
to adult children. These are problems most people have. It is simply a
matter of degree, your being a child of an alcoholic caused the ordinary
difficulties to become more severe.
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8. ADULT CHILDREN OVER-REACT TO CHANGES OVER WHICH THEY HAVE NO CONTROL
The young child of an alcoholic was not in control. The alcoholics’s life
was inflicted on him/her, as was his/her environment. In order to survive
when growing up, he/she needed to turn that around. He/she needed to begin
taking charge of his/her environment. This became important and remains so.
The child of the alcoholic learns to trust him/herself more than anyone else
when it is impossible to rely on someone else’s judgement.
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9. ADULT CHILDREN CONSTANTLY SEEK APPROVAL AND AFFIRMATION
The message you got as a child was very confused. It was not unconditional
love. The definitions were not clear and the messages were mixed. “Yes, no,
I love you, go away.” So you grew up with some confusion about yourself.
The affirmations you did not get on a day-to-day basis as a child, you
interpret as negative.
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10. ADULT CHILDREN FEEL THAT THEY ARE DIFFERENT FROM OTHER PEOPLE
Feeling different is something you have had with you since childhood, and
even if the circumstance does not warrant it, the feeling prevails. Other
children have had the opportunity to be children. You did not. You were very
much concerned with what was going on at home. You could never be completely
comfortable playing with other children. You could not be fully there. Your
concerns about your home problems clouded everything else in your life.
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11. ADULT CHILDREN ARE EITHER SUPER RESPONSIBLE OR SUPER IRRESPONSIBLE
Either you take it all on or you give it all up. There is no middle ground.
You tried to please your parents, doing more and more, or you reached the
point where you recognized it did not matter, so you did nothing.
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12. ADULT CHILDREN ARE EXTREMELY LOYAL, EVEN IN THE FACE OF EVIDENCE THAT
THE LOYALTY IS UNDESERVED
The alcoholic home appears to be a very loyal place. Family members hang in
long after reasons dictate that they should leave. The so-called “loyalty”
is more the result of fear and insecurity than anything else, nevertheless,
the behaviour that is modeled is one where no one walks away just because
the going gets rough. This sense enables the adult child to remain in
involvements that are better dissolved.
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13. ADULT CHILDREN ARE IMPULSIVE
They tend to lock themselves into a course of action without giving serious
consideration to alternative behaviours or possible consequences. This
impulsivity leads to confusion, self-loathing, and loss of control over
their environment. In addition, they spend an excessive amount of energy
cleaning up the mess.