It's harder on my wife than me. It's times like this when you find out
who" really" cares for you. Hundreds of people praying for me and
friends pitching in driving me to the clinic and bringing us food. I
see God's footprints all around me through them. I have triple DVT in
my right leg and had a stroke that affected the left occipital lobe
and affected my vision. I can't see things on my top right side. They
discovered this with a humphrey field test. I have to inject blood
thinners in my stomach every day (Tinzaparin) so its all full of
bruises. I hate this part the most.
They are going to do DNA sequencing of my cancer cells as part of a
trial I have registered for so it will be easier to search and find
something that may work with my particular type of cancer if the
standard stuff does not. Fortunately most of the top doctors here are
my close friends In fact it was my friend and angel Gabriel (the
messenger) who discovered my cancer quite by accident. He actually
found a gallstone and sent me for a CT scan and that's when they
spotted the AC on the pancreas.
Talk about an instant life changing experience ! Immediately I knew
what Jesus felt like in front of Pontius Pilate. My Pilate being the
guy who did my endoscopic ultrasound biopsy and later gave me the bad
news and then washed his hands of it.
I thank God for my Faith and my church because they are sustaining me
now and why I have no fear of death. I fear the process of death a bit
because I have never done it before and just like the first time you
swim or ride a bike you are apprehensive about it and a bit scared
having never done it before. Death is no different in that aspect but
at the moment of death I know where I will be going - straight into
the arms of Jesus - who loves me beyond belief and who died for me so
that I too might have eternal life.
Only a real "miracle" can save me and of course we pray for that but
sometimes healing is not the best thing for the soul. So we'll let God
be God. He knows best. He also knows who will win W 2015 ! I also hope
it is Fed of course but he will not be playing Rafa in the final. Rafa
is going out early again ! He's become something of a "turd" on grass,
no?