:) :) :) :) :) :)

[Ryan Hans]

depression seems to be the common emotion lately.

i'm happy.

i was jobless and homeless all summer. i was living in my friends
basement, eating bread and cheese, being depressed, and hating life.

in september my girlfriend moved up here and we got an apartment together.
much props to her for helping me out, even though i had no money she paid
for everything, and had faith in me that i'd get my shit together. we
fight a little bit (but that's normal), but overall it's pretty good.
she's the most beautiful and intelligent girl i've ever met. i don't give
her enough credit for who she is.

about a month ago i got a job. a friend of mine works at a bar and they
were hiring a busboy, so he hooked me up. 4 months of handing out resumes
and it took a friend's hookup to get a job. funny how this world works.

i just started school last monday. i'm studying music business at harris
institute for the arts. it's pretty cool, we're learning everything about
the industry, from production, engineering, management, labels, publicity,
live sound, etc. it's dope.

it's funny how you can go from one end of the spectrum to the other in
such a short time. all thanks to other people beleiving in me, and helping
me out, which gives me the strenght to overcome my depression and make
some shit happen.

thanks to marc, derrick and sharon (who's house i stayed at), pete (who
got me the job), alexis (who supported my ass for a month), and mom's (for
hooking me up with a little loan to start school).

this has nothing to do with hip-hop (or does it?), but i felt like i had
to be an optimist for a minute.

why don't some other heads talk about some good things going on in their
lives right now, and maybe it'll improve the overall mood a little.

the light at the end of the tunnel,

fritz the cat

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