I'm happy that someone would stay up at night time, in anticipation of
my next post, regardless of the reasons. I take it as a sign that my
passion about my shop and my Google misfortune shines through. I've
asked for forgiveness for putting out these many posts, and fully admit
that I'm emotional about losing my creation and being put on the
street. I can't take it lightly when I led down my investor (who
trusted part of his own small-scale savings in me) and when I have to
lay off people that I care about. I'm emotional about having to show my
mother that her single doughter failed with her dream. Excuse me for
being human.

It's 7:30AM (7:51 now as I passed this spot again) on Christmas night
in Denmark, which should show that I'm serious and that this misfortune
is preventing any rest for me.

Someone here seemed to indicate, on a more personal note, that I'm
someone born with a golden spoon in my hand and that noone ever said
"No!" to me. It hurts me deeply and literally brings tears to my eyes.
I grew up without my father (who flat out disregarded me, like some of
his other kids - who were "accidents"). My last name is Sicilian, which
might give a clue about my fathers merits. I met my father for the
first time when I was 19, along with 4 siblings. I have known him till
about 1 year ago, where I, because of shop preparations had to turn
down an invitation. In response, I got a text-message saying that "he
would never talk to me again". Knowing his Sicilian temper I figured he
was hurt and that it would pass (like it does for most Italiens). It
didn't. I have had my family cut off since then, and was once again
abandoned by him. It almost felt that me accomplishing something in
life, would have to be accompanied by a great sacrifice. My father now
lives in Bulgaria, with his new wife and kid (who I'm sure is more
intersting than me). If anyone here has tried complete rejection as a
kid, by their father, then they know exactly how that feels. As a
result of this rejection, I got teased all the way through school (you
project strength while feeling rejected). To those that have tried
that, they know EXACTLY what that feels like (it didn't help that I was
a natural red-head, after my mother). Well, I didn't give up on life,
but I became a fighter, knowing that I had to do extraordinarily well
in order to pick up the pieces of my misrable beginning and get things
sorted out. I'm a firm believer in the American dream (and the Danish
faritale of the "ugly duckling" inspired me as well).. They touch a
romantic and live-reassuring nerve in me ... Getting to where I am
today, without spreading hurt and anger like other people have done to
me, is an accomplishment that I can finally start to appreciate. My
shop was a successful project that I had made from scratch, my
employees are dear to me, and I have my own place to live. To those
that have tried setting up a shop from scratch and getting all the
pieces together, and also earning the cash required, will know what
that's like (as a young woman in particular). Well, this is all very
personal, but I hurt deeply and I'm naive enough (by choice) to call
even on the biggest company for help. I'm also humble enough to admit
any failure and take full responsibility. As with anything else I've
said, I can document any single bit of data that I've put out here. The
value of honesty was the first lesson life tought me (and probably why
some still care to listen to me) and I've appreciated my lessons - and
thank God for each and every one of them.

Now, I know some of you can't resist the easy pray and will jump at me
.. I know my story sounds like a big cliche and this level of honesty
is difficult to relate to. The bad news is that this isn't a movie, but
my real story. I've lived this and fought daemons from hell to retain a
heart and a belief in the human race. I'm vulnerable and putting myself
on the spot makes me an easy target. If you feel that picking further
on me is the right thing to do, then go ahead and do it. You won't be
able to throw anything at me that I haven't tried worse before.

Bad things can happen to good people. I've planned for everything I
could. I've NOT put all my eggs in one basket, but I just couldn't
foresee getting booted by Google on the 6th. of December, in my first
year - right after buying the Christmas stock and the marketing
campaign. I couldn't foresee not being able to get out a single piece
of information from Google about why mine and 5 other shops where
thrown out of the index, while my main competitor (using the same
structure and shop system) got all my business and remains in the index
to date. I've taken the challenge of learning all I can about Google
and the challenge of making my shop provider open up as well (another
struggle where I had to be humiliated, but I didn't give up). Anyone in
here, will see now that taking this struggle with my shop provider was
needed for me, but the hundreds of shops that are running fine, weren't
supporting me.

Despite having made aware of my unfortunate situation, I can see Matt
Cutts making jokes right over the top of my head, while completely
ignoring the small businesses that ask for a simple guideline on how to
structure a framed site, to Google's satisfaction. I find it odd to
prioritize that way.

Bear in mind that I've not created my shop system, even though I'm
ultimately responsible for using it. I'm a user! I deal with design
furniture, and I do my best. If Google's motto is "do no evil", then I
think they need dialog with my shop provider and not randomly exclude
their clients. Google was immediately made aware of the shop provider
and asked questions by them, all the way back around December 6th. This
took place through Google Denmark and through the Inclusion request.
The shop provider heard nothing back and have been unable to take a
path that would satisfy their many shops.

The shop provider has announced that a frame-less version of their
shop-system will ultimately be made available, but by the time it's
there, I'm gone. It shouldn't have to be like this. My shop provider
designed for people (they have outlined a number of benefits of frames
in regards to a shop system), but now it's actually Google that's
implicitly dictating how their system needs to be. Getting a guideline
from Google about how a framed shop site is best structured, so it will
satisfy both the users and the sarch engine is a pretty humble request.
Rather than making a fuss about it, it would be simpler to just address
it head on.

As I mention in my blog posts, I'll gladly admit to anything and take
full blame, even though I didn't make the shop system..

Sorry if I didn't get to address all the comments in this post.