Re: [FOTM:0] Digest for friends-of-thamkrabok-monastery@googlegroups.com - 2 Messages in 1 Topic

[ian slevin]

Hey u guys.

John u got it in one man. PAIN IN THE AZZ is right on the button I could go even further but I dont wanna say bad things and start getting angry and typing everything in caps, (thats how I shout online by the way infact im gonna take it a lil further n make the typ bold aswell.)PAIN IN THE AZZ wow I just found the font size hows that for effect u prob heard me down under that time..
Stu said it pretty good man about not thinkin to much about the future and just dealin with the now. but I totally agree with u and think HOW good it would be if there was a point where u could just have a finishing point or a switch the addict off button in our heads. now i have had my upz n downz n me clean time aint really nuttin to boast about but it is scary sometimes knowing that its a constant effort to stey on the straight n narrow. but for all our sakes I hope with time we will find a place where it gets easier. That place exists I have been told so hopefully ill find it and if its before u Ill give u directions on the map. thats the best I can do. DAY X DAY as they say. Also the laughing reference works I have a really good friend who aint too long clean n when I hear them laff u know real laughter not sotned giggles it makes me so happy n also realise that we r all so much better off on the clean side of the track
Hope ur keepin well JOHN AND STU could u please send us a mail  with ur cell number Id love to have a chat with ya n if ur lucky I might even start stalkin u.

EASY NOW.
IAN

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John Cox <johnc...@ymail.com> Dec 10 01:01PM

 
I keep getting the same thought, it's something I've said on here before. How does one deal with addiction for the rest of your life. Day to day, week to week and even year to year I can deal with, but life changes so much and what works now might not work next year...
 
I feel like I'm being stalked across space and time by a presents that desends upon me and stays till i purge it from my being. I'm still overwhelmed by how you just can't escape what sometimes feels like fait.
 
You can never say you've won, there's no victory march or final exam. To put it bluntly being an addict if a great big pain in the arse and it's gets right on my tits sometimes..
 
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Stuart B <stuart....@btconnect.com> Dec 10 06:14AM -0800

 
Hey John..
For me its day to day...if i start thinking too far
ahead then i can scare myself, that took time for me to
do...practice..learning....acceptance, ive learned up til now how to
cope with it...tend to laugh at it a lot...its kinda crazy eh? yeah
stalked...can safely say i understand that...if i dont want stalked
then i will need to find a way to leave my head in the house in the
morning...i never say ive won...i did not win...drugs beat the living
shit out of me..and i had to surrender...was not before trying for a
lot of years to beat it though, kept getting back in that ring
although there was only going to be one winner...yeah it does get on
yir tits at times, then there is good times, it gets easier...gets
harder...gets easier...gets harder...dealing with life full on with no
sedation for the feelings and emotions is a bit of a roller coaster at
times. I can only add that for me, as i said before i like to laugh at
the madness of it...i am totally off the richter scale most of the
time...ha ha its great though! being aware of it is half the battle.
take care John, hope all is well.
 

Stuart
 


 

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