people must think i have a g/d complex problem issue mental problem but
the way i understand it is the entire everything around physical in
steps like a illusion opening growing thru steps allows a process to
occur involving everything to let this grow out then return in both
superphysical and physical events. Then i just am in this extraordinary
state called samadhi breathless which leds to nirvana.In about the
middle the nimbus is there and i am thinking no speach.Hey hi hello its
me jjay..eeee anybody here jewel donald campbell hum we are ???talking
speaking english hey god english man i needa book man i wish i had a
book this isnt what i thought it was aw well god we have tofigure it out
aw english if you dont know we you do now ha ha ha the entire time happy
heart so happy then i get pissed off cause around me cause itwas nothing
like i thought fromeverything i ever read before...i just get so unhappy
cause its nothing like i ever thought thenit starts changing doing
something and i amhappy againcause it changing we are doing things
differentrd black comesabout happy and pised off sametime near the end
igo oh this is hell gee finally understand something oh boy oh boy
ifound discovered hell and it like oh i know now oh boy oh boyand then i
notice after a few minutes i need to breath i peekup gets worse but i am
very good at natural things figure it all out go oh shit..up i go then
ithinktrythat jesusword about topof stomach area ""slows down"" go fuck
that s...h..i....tiiit its a fertily sacrifice raingod bullshit boom
boom aye bout blow a holein he paxific rain fertily get backupin
theclouds yep rain tricky words so happy i had a filty mouth so so so
happy..heyits me jewel jai i am back lets contain gimme a damage
reportshandleitgt back it was a bomb...red sky morning sailors take
warning BASAIC WEATHER SLANG...snap all perfect loking slight left as
the susnahma was and realy up set as i going oh great even more upset
but dealing wihh it now what more life more rain responsiabilty cause it
was a fertily word say that almost lose the entire upward NUTCASES sia
of relief going oh igot it mystery story...very deephas just come
tolight very deep back upin the clouds finaly like before thinking oh i
know allthat sqweeze both hands cause i amkinda pissed off but not to
bad sucker betsand i go what do i really want boomjyoti light a very
pretty girl figure in allwhites so happy finally finally finally
something i can understand aye thats good i know all this just
tellingmme what i already knowlokupthinkwhat do i really should dowhat
should i really doloking up.BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..just like the
last time everytime max it out ooooooooooooooooooooooooooo and
oooooooooooooooooooooooandooooooooooooooooooooooooooooandoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooandoooooooooooooooooooo+++++fullup.sarts
sputterin crimson zip gone one -bolt then the gunas come together.... a
few minuteshumthat was sure different aw forget thinkabut it later ya
know lt more but sowhat.......................SO I FELL LIKE A FERTILY
GOD SO WHAT SO FUCKNG WHAT i dont thinkits a problem...it was all here
bfore i was...ITS ALLTHAT RAIN THAT MAKES ME FEEL CONCERN everything for
the next wha 13 years and they are bringing more rain.....ha ha ha ha ha
peace not war what fuckig idiots .dumb shits aye welltake what
iget.........at the shoulder i sai fellrelief like isssssssa.letthat air
out again lucky words.................jai