Emergency

[Charred]

It's a Dangerous, Stinking, Expensive, Filthy, Addiction.

What is your defense?

[Bohgosity BumaskiL]

On 2012-01-25 5:52 AM, Charred wrote:
> It's a Dangerous, Stinking, Expensive, Filthy, Addiction.
>
> What is your defense?

Imajination and lack of enjoyment: I can imajin that I will feel
pain when I smoke. It iz not hard at all. I do sometimes feel pain
after I smoke. It's not in my lungs. I can imajin the stink of a
smoker's lounge with disdain, and wonder how I ever ended up smoking
a few hundred thousand. My arms or my calves will itch. I can look
at a pack in front of me with loathing. I hav awakened to a smoker's
cough, though, and I know how to make it worse. Just drink about
five tomatoes and a third of an onion. That will bring me a cough
within twelve hours. I do not like toying with that, though, because
sometimes that makes my cough so bad that I hav trouble breathing. I
do not hav Ventolin on hand.

Love and Relaxation: I hav a remarkably affectionate cat. Often, I
can sit down or lay down, and five to fifteen minutes later, if she
iz not asleep, she will be in my lap or on my chest, nuzzling my
chin. My cat iz the reason I don't want my problems to evolve into a
hospital stay. I would not want to be without her, because she iz a
good part of my treatment that I probably could not take to a hospital.

Fear and Hope: I fear that my psoriasis will get worse. I've seen
pictures of it getting better with remarkable, one month speed. I
dream of that. I am vejan, so I hav no trouble following the dietary
specifications for that speed of improvement. It iz no trouble
blaming tobacco on the problem. Flavouring my smokes between two and
five years ago just accelerated the problem.

Occupation: I hav a daily constitutional walk while I sing. I hav a
remarkable amount of unfinished work to do. Some of it is recordings
that are not up to the standard I want. Some of it iz unfinished
website design. Some of it iz housework: I still hav to learn to
clean up after myself, rather than sprinting with it on weekends.
Some of it iz my aquarium. Some of it iz partners I could coach and
hav join me with the right agreements. Those are things I can do,
during which I can pretty much forget about smoking, and which will
make me feel better in spite of not smoking.

Progress: In the worst case, in making it a permanent goal to
forever quit, I will only increase the period during my smokes, or
the delay between packs. In the best case, I will drop them
completely, print out this message, bookmark it, or take it to heart.