Real excited about this!!
NewYearNewQuit
My quit officially starts December 31st, 2009 at 4pm.
As of this date and time, I am officially a non-smoker. Any remaining
cigarettes will be flushed at this time and I am jumping on a plane with my
girlfriend for a weeklong getaway. If things go according to plan, I won't
have time to even think about smoking until mid-next week.
There will be no option of running out for a pack of smokes, it just can't
be done :)
I see this as more than just quitting smoking. It is the struggle to
either live "healthy" or "un-healthy". This is a liberating, yet dauting
task in front of me. I must change a lifetime of habit and self medication.
Its like I give myself permisison to trash my body in numberous way when I
am a smoker. As a non-smoker I take a close look at everything I put in my
body, when I smoke it brings on a "don't care" attitude. For me quitting
is much larger than just smoking. When I don't smoke, I eat better,
exercise more, get more sleep and drink less alcohol. I tie most of my bad
habits around my to smoking.
I have always been a closet smoker. My friends, kids and even my doctor
doesn't know I smoke. The only person that knows I smoke is my girlfriend.
I normally don't smoke around her, but she can smell it on my breath when
were intimate, even if I haven't smoked for 24 hours. I have quit for
years several times. I know I know I am a differernt person when I am a
non-smoker.
I even see it in my job performance. Without nicotine, I am more uptight,
agressive, assertive and feel genuine passion for my job. With nicotine, I
seem to have a "i don't give a crap about the dealine" attitude. I have
also noticed as a non-smoker, I am more confident around others and have
more drive in everything I do.
I see my smoking as a tie to my past. I was in a bad marrage and felt I had
to smoke.. My wife was a very angry and assertive woman, and I used smoking
as my "escape". There was no sense arguing and causing her to go ballistic,
so I would go outside and have a smoke instead of arguing. If I stayed
and voiced my opinion, I would be dodging frying pans. In that
relationship, I flet I had to smoke just to "keep the peace". It was
almost like I didn't care about the health effects, life really wasn't that
great.
I am now in a relationship with a great woman. She has noticed when I
don't smoke, I am more pushy when it comes to a disagreement. I am more
willing hold my own, less willing to back down. It is really strange, but
it almost seems like not smoking balances the power in our relationship. If
I run out for a smoke, she automatically wins the argument. With her calm
demenor, it's a hell of alot more productive and hear her explain her
reasoning. I don't need to escape and get nicotine when I am around her.
It is time to leave smoking in the past with my failed marriage. My biggest
smoking trigger is in the past and no longer a trigger..
Tonight at midnight, I will ask my girlfirend to marry me. What better way
to start a new year, a new decade, and my new life. Happy, smoke free, and
with the woman I love. It is truely time to move on with my lilfe, and
leave smoking in the past where it belongs.
I am truly excited about this quit, something I have never felt before.
It is truely time for change, and that change starts in just a few hours...
I AM READY!
Wishing everyone a smoke free 2010!
Happy new year!
Cheri
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> I am truly excited about this quit, something I have never felt before.
> It is truely time for change, and that change starts in just a few
> hours... I AM READY!
>
> Wishing everyone a smoke free 2010!
>
> Happy new year!
Best to you with the quit, and I hope she says yes. Keep posting.
Cheri
Wayne Baker
recommend you post often and read all you can here. It really does help
a lot.
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Wayne Baker
Smoke Free: 3m 6d 7:03
Not Smoked: 2,826
$ Better Spent: $649.98
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New Decade
Cheri
New Decade
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Yes, Happy New Year to everyone. I was just hearing about all the new
smoking laws taking effect, price increases etc., and I was so grateful it
no longer applied to me, just one of the really good things about not
smoking anymore. Everyone be safe and have fun.
Cheri
Becky
hope your girlfriend gives you the answer you want to hear to your proposal
Becky
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