im in deep

diane b

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Sep 21, 2011, 4:58:41 PM9/21/11

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i see both lisa and em arent doing well and heree i am in the same
boat...soon i wil be much worse...i dont know what to do...lisa i wish i
was like you in that i was ok with going to the hosp for help...but i
hate groups and i fear them so its the biggest reason i wont go...i need
something now more then ever...im in a big mess...soon likemaybe a week
i will be full blown depressed and more...i dont knw how to do this
guys....gonna go away but dont know where? and no one gets it...i dont
even care about money right now...maybe im dumb...i may be here more as
i need to reach out...to talk and to be listened to and maybe
advice...im all over the place right now...be back later...you guys hang
in there!

lisa in mass.

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Sep 21, 2011, 8:44:58 PM9/21/11

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madcha...@webtv.net (diane b) wrote in
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You hang in there, too, diane. I hope you do come back to talk.

BTW, I hate groups, too. They scare the hell out of me until
eventually I'm accepted and feel a part of a group. Then it's
ok. Sometimes that doesn't happen. It depends on who's there.
But when it works, I think it's better than anything else.
People who I understand, who really get my problem, too. Better
than counselors who learned about what I'm going through in
school. That's why I always try the day program first. If it
doesn't work, there's always in-patient. That's not fun, but at
least it's a safe place.

EMS

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Sep 22, 2011, 1:41:36 PM9/22/11

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Sorry you are going through a rough patch now too. I think I'm doing
better. kinda hard to say, though since I don't have to work as hard
as others at staying safe. I understand about the not caring about
money, sometimes it's not so important. I can't always post much, but
I do think of the people here and I do care. Hang in there!

Emily

diane b

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Sep 23, 2011, 9:57:43 AM9/23/11

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ty both...i will try to come back later and post more...hope someone
will be around

lisa in mass.

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Sep 23, 2011, 11:54:17 AM9/23/11

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madcha...@webtv.net (diane b) wrote in

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> ty both...i will try to come back later and post more...hope
> someone will be around
>
>

I will. I check here a couple of times a day, more if I'm
expecting something from someone. I'll be here.

diane b

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Sep 23, 2011, 1:38:28 PM9/23/11

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thanx lisa...im just not sure what to say...ive been laughed at by my
thoughts of what i feel i need to do and been told by 3 others that my
idea wnt work etc...i now feel hopeless....i need to get my thoughts
together and see if i should risk putting them out there yet again....i
feel alone, lost, confusd and like i prob will fail...more later and
thank u

lisa in mass.

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Sep 23, 2011, 3:51:47 PM9/23/11

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madcha...@webtv.net (diane b) wrote in

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You ought to know what you need better than others do. Even if it
doesn't work out, you'll be doing something for yourself, right?
Unless it's truly harmful, I'd try it. You sound pretty desperate
to do something.

EMS

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Sep 26, 2011, 12:37:42 PM9/26/11

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Hmm... I'm not sure what your idea is, or why people are laughing at
you. If your idea doesn't include hurting yourself, then I say go for
it. Even if it doesn't work, you can at least say you tried. That is
better than not trying at all in my opinion. I feel for you and care
for you and would not laugh at you, for what it's worth. Sorry I
don't have a chance to check in here more often.

Emily