birthdays
Crystal's mom
called, cause they know how hard this day is....it was still a day to
cry. My baby isn't here! Crystal always made it a day to remember
with flowers, a card, and loads of hugs and "Love you, Mom" I don't
want any more birthdays without her! In 8 days, it will be 7 yrs
since she was killed....how to get thru the day...God help me! Give
her back to me! Take me...I don't care anymore!
Amanda...just Crystal's mom...an empty shell
lloman
An empty shell is how I feel most days. We are still having all of
our "firsts" the first of each holiday this year 9 months after
having lost Franklin. I can't imagine 7 years....I sometimes look
ahead and wonder how I will feel as time passes and yet I know I will
always miss his physical presence in my life. We try to get through
each day the best we can in the hopes of some future reunion. I pray
that you will have that with your dear Amanda.
Hugs!
Franklin's mama
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AMANDA!!!!!
No matter how heavy your heart is, your birthday will *always* be a special
day. Why do I say that? Because Crystal would have said the same exact
thing!!
I wish you well,
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All that I am or hope to be, I owe to my angel mother.
~Abraham Lincoln
donna
dear amanda, dear crystal's mom,
on january 7, 2006, i telephoned savannah in olympia, washington, from
kalispell, montana, where i was traveling for work. it was early in
the morning and she was still asleep so i left a message on her cell.
'22?', i said. 'you're 22 today! you'd better stop having birthdays
or you'll catch up with me!' she was dead 12 days later and i will
always be haunted by what later seemed to be a dark premonition.
when he was a child, jm barrie's older brother, david, died in a
skating accident. their mother was inconsolable and remained so the
rest or her life. she always spoke of david as a child, he never grew
up. from that, barrie wrote 'peter pan' and the legend began.
no matter how many more birthdays you and i have, our children will
stay young and vibrant. it is my belief we will see them again on the
other side where age and pain don't exist. until then we hold them in
our hearts; exuberant, healthy and forever young. i'm so sorry for
your hurt. i long for my daughter too. i see her in my mind: six
feet tall, slender, blond with those electric blue eyes and that
smile. i love her so much and i know your love for crystal is the
same.
my best to you in these dark times,
donna
Daniel
Aww. {{ Amanda }} All the special days, ours and theirs, to go through after
they are gone -- It is so, so hard. I never know what to say to the moms who
have lost their children, other than that in some mysterious way their love is a
sign to me that true love does exist, and does really matter. As a "little boy
who lost his mom" that means a lot to me. Peace and blessings to you. You are
a good mom.
Peace,
--
Daniel ( deltae...@usa.net )
Liliana
Dear Crystal's mom forever,
I am thinking of you and all the other moms. It's hard to say Happy
Birthday to a mother who has lost a child. We just say the words we
are used to saying. I wish you some measure of peace and the strength
to get through each day. I hope that Crystal surrounds you with her
love that will never die each and every day.
Sad
Hi Amanda - Your daughter sounds so sweet and thoughtful to celebrate
your birthday so nicely. I know it's hard but she really does want you
to have fun birthdays so hopefully one day it will become less
hurtful. I know it's easier said than done because I always have
people telling me my Mom would want me to be happy so I should at
least try. I always think "what's the point?" I guess that's just
natural
My Aunt lost her 10 year-old son about 40 years ago and I'm sure she
wouldn't ever say life is the same, but I do know she has found peace
with it. She's in her 70's now. I'm sure when it first happened, she
probably would have never thought she could survive that long without
her son. My Aunt and the Moms in this group truly amaze me because
you're able to still care about other people even while you're
experiencing such a tremendous loss of your own. That shows an amazing
strength of character.
I hope you can feel your daughter close to you at all times. She wants
you to smile if you can. Take care (((hugs)))
Crystal's mom
Thank you all for your comforting responses...to know that there are
some who Do understand means more than I can ever put into words! I
don't have anywhere else that I can scream...just here. Tomorrow, is
the bad one...11-30. The Oklahoman has a page for memorials & I had
wanted to put in the paper the poem that starts with "Friends may
think that we have forgotten" under Crystal & Sammy's pic...but it was
just too much money for me this year. I tried to write
something...but I fall to pieces, so my husband did...I'm not sure
what. They couldn't use the pic I wanted....nothing went right for
it. I have to work with patients tomorrow instead of staying in my
office & I don't know if I can deal with the complaining about little
things.
Again, thanks for the little amount of time where I don't feel
alone.
Amanda....Crystalsmom....9-22-78----11-30-02
lloman
you think or remember. I will be holding you close in my thoughts
tomorrow and I pray that those around you will have some sense to hold
their small complaints to themselves. Take care.
Hugs, Franklin's Mom