Losses
pcat...@comcast.net
so sorry to read all the new posts, the heartache of everyone, new &
old. I had to get thru Jenn's birthday on 10-22, it was a hard day. We
sent up balloons, the kids wrote on theirs, messages for their mom,
they sang happy birthday to her, had a cake when we came home. Her
youngest son said next year he wants to tape flowers on the balloons,
red roses. He only had her for 4 yrs. & yet he remembers so much. He
watched the video of his 4th birthday, made 3 days before her death.
My heart breaks each time the boys mention their mom, how they want
her back, all the whys. So hard to answer them. And at the same time I
am dying inside for my loss as well. On 12-1, it'll be 2 yrs. how will
I ever get thru all the yrs. to follow? Her oldest son feels so bad
for his younger brother, says its not fair he hardly had any time with
her to make memories, he only has tapes of her, lots of pictures, but
thats not the same. He feels blessed that at least he had 12 yrs. of
her love. While he longs for more, he understands more than the 5yr.
old. I still morn the loss of my mom & I had her for 50 yrs. I cannot
imagine how they feel. How unfair life can be. Thanks for listening,
have to get back to the real world for now & pick my grandson up. My
sympathy to all. Pat
pcat...@comcast.net
Caz
person a real hug and today is one of these times, but I can only send
virtual ones. So here is a Big virtual (((((((HUG)))))) coming your way
Pat. I made it through Scott's birthday on the 25th, cried a shed load
of tears, but I came out the other end. Halloween was always a favorite
when he was little. We'd make up his costume and dress him all up to go
trick or treat. He loved it as he got older too, to see the little ones
come to the door! Now all I have is pictures. You're so right Pat, life
is very cruel. I still ask the why question and still I get no answer!
Best wishes to you and yours Pat.
Caz.
Scott's mom
Cindy's Mom
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I am saddly readng everyones post this early Sunday morning and
feeling all your pain as well as my own. This has been such a hard
week for me..the first anniversary of my daughter's death was
Thursday. It is still like yesterday and the memories just flood in.
Next comes the awful realizations that never will I hear her voice or
feel her touch again. I am so sorry for all of us,((((HUGS)))
especially to those sweet babies of yours Pat that you are raising.
Life is just so hard and this is one of those days for me, too. I hope
we can find some peace in the autumn sunshine later and say a special
wish/prayer to those we are missing that they knew how much we loved
them! thinking of you all..Judy. Cindy's MOM
pcat...@comcast.net
Thank you for your thoughts, we sure do share some sorrows don't we?
All the special days we must get thru, anniversaries, birthdays, & now
the holidays, & just before them the anniversary of Jenns death on
Dec. 1st. What a way to go thru life, trying to get thru these days
without going crazy, & thats for the rest of our lives. I think of all
of you & say a prayer of thanks that you're all here. My heart is with
you all. Pat