Tired
slunky
--
-slunky
EB
hi. we just woke up little bit ago from evening nap and took night
meds just now so hopefully they'll make me sleep tonight before the
night scary stuff inside can hit.
wanna talk about yucky day?
fuzzy
> Not a good day. :(
>
we tired too
EB
maybe we should all put out sleeping bags or comfortable mattresses,
all us tired ones.
*lays out comfy stuff on floor*
fuzzy
k, i got blankies
EB
i got big thick quilt. it's cool but heavy. and air conditioning. yes,
in my cyber sleep, i get to have ac. :)
slunky
> meds just now so hopefully they'll make me sleep tonight before the
> night scary stuff inside can hit.
>
> wanna talk about yucky day?
Didn't sleep very much last night and had a nightmare. Kinda got stuck
in it all morning. Called t a little after ten. She said probably a good
resting day. So we've been trying to rest. She said maybe the littles
could draw. Some did and there were big fights. We ended up pretty
bl**dy.
Clubhouse called and wanted us to come for a planning meeting. They
wanted us on a committee to to plan a young adult program trac. We got
right almost to the door, and then turned around and came home because
we realized our c*ts had opened up and gotten our sleeves bl**dy.
Been trying to rest. Can't. We don't feel good. Had a flashback tonight.
We are really overwhelmed. Want to sleep with no dreams.
--
-slunky
EB
> _/ EB <hopecent...@live.com> wrote \_
ugh. really really hard stuff. :(
i hope the ones who make the battles bl**dy can find other more
constructive ways to communicate. they're following pr*grammed
impulses, which are hard to break, but the pr*grams aren't your fault
nor is the huge power of them in their/your control yet. you'll get
there.
we have been having hard nights too.
we are really overwhelmed too.
we hope we both get some good sleep.
fuzzy
> On Jul 8, 9:17 pm, fuzzy <nospamsometimesknownas...@gmail.com> wrote:
>> EB wrote:
>>> On Jul 8, 9:07 pm, fuzzy <nospamsometimesknownas...@gmail.com> wrote:
>>>> slunky wrote:
>>>>> Not a good day. :(
>>>> regrets
>>>> we tired too
>>> maybe we should all put out sleeping bags or comfortable mattresses,
>>> all us tired ones.
>>> *lays out comfy stuff on floor*
>> k, i got blankies
>
> i got big thick quilt. it's cool but heavy. and air conditioning. yes,
> in my cyber sleep, i get to have ac. :)
k. so we got heavy blankie and maybe we can make it warmer. cuz here its
cold today
and we gotta have stuffed animals. i gotta manatee. and monkees
can we go bed for real maybe? is really early but cant think and tired.
and if we do, do we take sleeping med or no
fuzzy
> _/ EB <hopec...@live.com> wrote \_
>> On Jul 8, 9:05?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>>> Not a good day. :(
>> hi. we just woke up little bit ago from evening nap and took night
>> meds just now so hopefully they'll make me sleep tonight before the
>> night scary stuff inside can hit.
>>
>> wanna talk about yucky day?
>
> Didn't sleep very much last night and had a nightmare. Kinda got stuck
> in it all morning. Called t a little after ten. She said probably a good
> resting day. So we've been trying to rest. She said maybe the littles
> could draw. Some did and there were big fights. We ended up pretty
> bl**dy.
:(
cuz of the drawing?
>
> Clubhouse called and wanted us to come for a planning meeting. They
> wanted us on a committee to to plan a young adult program trac. We got
> right almost to the door, and then turned around and came home because
> we realized our c*ts had opened up and gotten our sleeves bl**dy.
>
<sigh>
> Been trying to rest. Can't. We don't feel good. Had a flashback tonight.
> We are really overwhelmed. Want to sleep with no dreams.
>
us too
regrets such a hard day
EB
> EB wrote:
> > On Jul 8, 9:17 pm, fuzzy <nospamsometimesknownas...@gmail.com> wrote:
> >> EB wrote:
> >>> On Jul 8, 9:07 pm, fuzzy <nospamsometimesknownas...@gmail.com> wrote:
> >>>> slunky wrote:
> >>>>> Not a good day. :(
> >>>> regrets
> >>>> we tired too
> >>> maybe we should all put out sleeping bags or comfortable mattresses,
> >>> all us tired ones.
> >>> *lays out comfy stuff on floor*
> >> k, i got blankies
>
> > i got big thick quilt. it's cool but heavy. and air conditioning. yes,
> > in my cyber sleep, i get to have ac. :)
>
> k. so we got heavy blankie and maybe we can make it warmer. cuz here its
> cold today
k. you can have heat and i can have ac. that's the beauty of cyber
sleep. :)
>
> and we gotta have stuffed animals. i gotta manatee. and monkees
ooh. cool!
>
> can we go bed for real maybe? is really early but cant think and tired.
yes, can go to bed for real.
> and if we do, do we take sleeping med or no
try sleeping naturally first for about 15 minutes. if that doesn't
work, take sleeping med. can that work?
slunky
> On Jul 8, 9:19?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>> Didn't sleep very much last night and had a nightmare. Kinda got stuck
>> in it all morning. Called t a little after ten. She said probably a good
>> resting day. So we've been trying to rest. She said maybe the littles
>> could draw. Some did and there were big fights. We ended up pretty
>> bl**dy.
>>
>> Clubhouse called and wanted us to come for a planning meeting. They
>> wanted us on a committee to to plan a young adult program trac. We got
>> right almost to the door, and then turned around and came home because
>> we realized our c*ts had opened up and gotten our sleeves bl**dy.
>>
>> Been trying to rest. Can't. We don't feel good. Had a flashback tonight.
>> We are really overwhelmed. Want to sleep with no dreams.
>
Yeah. :(
> i hope the ones who make the battles bl**dy can find other more
> constructive ways to communicate. they're following pr*grammed
> impulses, which are hard to break, but the pr*grams aren't your fault
> nor is the huge power of them in their/your control yet. you'll get
> there.
Well, we learned no drawing. At least not right now.
T was saying it must be hard for us because everything she suggests for
us to do are things we've been told not to do. We told her about being
scared about trying those things. She said it's ok. She said she will be
there for us. She said compared to what we are doing, her job is easy.
She said we are doing all the work, and taking calls from us to help
is what she wants to do. She said she never plans on retiring either.
She said she is in this for the long run.
> we have been having hard nights too.
> we are really overwhelmed too.
> we hope we both get some good sleep.
Yeah, would be good.
--
-slunky
EB
> _/ EB <hopecent...@live.com> wrote \_
>
>
>
> > On Jul 8, 9:19?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
> >> Didn't sleep very much last night and had a nightmare. Kinda got stuck
> >> in it all morning. Called t a little after ten. She said probably a good
> >> resting day. So we've been trying to rest. She said maybe the littles
> >> could draw. Some did and there were big fights. We ended up pretty
> >> bl**dy.
>
> >> Clubhouse called and wanted us to come for a planning meeting. They
> >> wanted us on a committee to to plan a young adult program trac. We got
> >> right almost to the door, and then turned around and came home because
> >> we realized our c*ts had opened up and gotten our sleeves bl**dy.
>
> >> Been trying to rest. Can't. We don't feel good. Had a flashback tonight.
> >> We are really overwhelmed. Want to sleep with no dreams.
>
> > ugh. really really hard stuff. :(
>
> Yeah. :(
>
> > i hope the ones who make the battles bl**dy can find other more
> > constructive ways to communicate. they're following pr*grammed
> > impulses, which are hard to break, but the pr*grams aren't your fault
> > nor is the huge power of them in their/your control yet. you'll get
> > there.
>
> Well, we learned no drawing. At least not right now.
maybe the littles can color some at least?
>
> T was saying it must be hard for us because everything she suggests for
> us to do are things we've been told not to do. We told her about being
> scared about trying those things. She said it's ok. She said she will be
> there for us. She said compared to what we are doing, her job is easy.
> She said we are doing all the work, and taking calls from us to help
> is what she wants to do. She said she never plans on retiring either.
> She said she is in this for the long run.
glad she's there.
>
> > we have been having hard nights too.
> > we are really overwhelmed too.
> > we hope we both get some good sleep.
>
> Yeah, would be good.
yeah. :(
>
> --
> -slunky
slunky
> slunky wrote:
>> Didn't sleep very much last night and had a nightmare. Kinda got stuck
>> in it all morning. Called t a little after ten. She said probably a good
>> resting day. So we've been trying to rest. She said maybe the littles
>> could draw. Some did and there were big fights. We ended up pretty
>> bl**dy.
>
>:(
>
> cuz of the drawing?
Yeah.
>> Clubhouse called and wanted us to come for a planning meeting. They
>> wanted us on a committee to to plan a young adult program trac. We got
>> right almost to the door, and then turned around and came home because
>> we realized our c*ts had opened up and gotten our sleeves bl**dy.
>
> <sigh>
>
>> Been trying to rest. Can't. We don't feel good. Had a flashback tonight.
>> We are really overwhelmed. Want to sleep with no dreams.
>>
> us too
>
> regrets such a hard day
Hope you can get some sleep.
--
-slunky
fuzzy
> On Jul 8, 9:24 pm, fuzzy <nospamsometimesknownas...@gmail.com> wrote:
>> EB wrote:
>>> On Jul 8, 9:17 pm, fuzzy <nospamsometimesknownas...@gmail.com> wrote:
>>>> EB wrote:
>>>>> On Jul 8, 9:07 pm, fuzzy <nospamsometimesknownas...@gmail.com> wrote:
>>>>>> slunky wrote:
>>>>>>> Not a good day. :(
>>>>>> regrets
>>>>>> we tired too
>>>>> maybe we should all put out sleeping bags or comfortable mattresses,
>>>>> all us tired ones.
>>>>> *lays out comfy stuff on floor*
>>>> k, i got blankies
>>> i got big thick quilt. it's cool but heavy. and air conditioning. yes,
>>> in my cyber sleep, i get to have ac. :)
>> k. so we got heavy blankie and maybe we can make it warmer. cuz here its
>> cold today
>
> k. you can have heat and i can have ac. that's the beauty of cyber
> sleep. :)
k :)
>
>> and we gotta have stuffed animals. i gotta manatee. and monkees
>
> ooh. cool!
>
our manatees name is clementine. shes mine.
>> can we go bed for real maybe? is really early but cant think and tired.
>
> yes, can go to bed for real.
>
k
>> and if we do, do we take sleeping med or no
>
> try sleeping naturally first for about 15 minutes. if that doesn't
> work, take sleeping med. can that work?
>
i dunno. t said take for 3 nites in a row to get sleep back to normal.
but we dont wnana but thats what t said. dont really wanna sleep but got
to. tired tired.
and we can normally get ourself to sleep but then we all tossy turny and
have bad dreams and wake up and stuff
fuzzy
> _/ fuzzy <nospamsometi...@gmail.com> wrote \_
>> slunky wrote:
>>> Didn't sleep very much last night and had a nightmare. Kinda got stuck
>>> in it all morning. Called t a little after ten. She said probably a good
>>> resting day. So we've been trying to rest. She said maybe the littles
>>> could draw. Some did and there were big fights. We ended up pretty
>>> bl**dy.
>> :(
>>
>> cuz of the drawing?
>
> Yeah.
>
sometimes though we can do photoshop or something like that on
computers. maybe isn't so good for littles though but is way of doing a
drawing like thing without the triggers
and we can do playdough. littles like that. we don't do that much though
cuz they do icky things sometimes
or you could do collage. like with old magazines and stuff. we been
thinking about trying that
>>> Clubhouse called and wanted us to come for a planning meeting. They
>>> wanted us on a committee to to plan a young adult program trac. We got
>>> right almost to the door, and then turned around and came home because
>>> we realized our c*ts had opened up and gotten our sleeves bl**dy.
>> <sigh>
>>
>>> Been trying to rest. Can't. We don't feel good. Had a flashback tonight.
>>> We are really overwhelmed. Want to sleep with no dreams.
>>>
>> us too
>>
>> regrets such a hard day
>
> Hope you can get some sleep.
>
k. think maybe we gonna go.
still trying to decide about med
slunky
> On Jul 8, 9:32?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>> Well, we learned no drawing. At least not right now.
>
> maybe the littles can color some at least?
Maybe. Going to talk about it friday.
>> T was saying it must be hard for us because everything she suggests for
>> us to do are things we've been told not to do. We told her about being
>> scared about trying those things. She said it's ok. She said she will be
>> there for us. She said compared to what we are doing, her job is easy.
>> She said we are doing all the work, and taking calls from us to help
>> is what she wants to do. She said she never plans on retiring either.
>> She said she is in this for the long run.
>
> glad she's there.
We are too.
>> > we have been having hard nights too.
>> > we are really overwhelmed too.
>> > we hope we both get some good sleep.
>>
>> Yeah, would be good.
>
> yeah. :(
Sometimes we wish we had sleeping meds. but we also are afraid they
would make us not as alert if we needed to be at night.
--
-slunky
EB
cool!
>
> >> can we go bed for real maybe? is really early but cant think and tired.
>
> > yes, can go to bed for real.
>
> k
>
> >> and if we do, do we take sleeping med or no
>
> > try sleeping naturally first for about 15 minutes. if that doesn't
> > work, take sleeping med. can that work?
>
> i dunno. t said take for 3 nites in a row to get sleep back to normal.
> but we dont wnana but thats what t said. dont really wanna sleep but got
> to. tired tired.
>
> and we can normally get ourself to sleep but then we all tossy turny and
> have bad dreams and wake up and stuff
in light of that new information, i suggest you take the t's advice
and take the sleeping med.
EB
> _/ EB <hopecent...@live.com> wrote \_
ahh. alert for what?
we're glad to have the seroquil but we hate the side effect of big
hunger and weight gain.
fuzzy
yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
slunky
> On Jul 8, 9:46?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>> Sometimes we wish we had sleeping meds. but we also are afraid they
>> would make us not as alert if we needed to be at night.
>
In case we get att*cked or someone tries to h*rt us or something. (When
we explained this to hsptl pdoc, she said we make ourself crazy and we
are hypervigilant.)
> we're glad to have the seroquil but we hate the side effect of big
> hunger and weight gain.
We won't take it anymore. It doesn't help us even at 1000mg.
--
-slunky
EB
> _/ EB <hopecent...@live.com> wrote \_
>
> > On Jul 8, 9:46?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
> >> Sometimes we wish we had sleeping meds. but we also are afraid they
> >> would make us not as alert if we needed to be at night.
>
> > ahh. alert for what?
>
> In case we get att*cked or someone tries to h*rt us or something. (When
> we explained this to hsptl pdoc, she said we make ourself crazy and we
> are hypervigilant.)
umm, it's called ptsd.
>
> > we're glad to have the seroquil but we hate the side effect of big
> > hunger and weight gain.
>
> We won't take it anymore. It doesn't help us even at 1000mg.
wow. wish something would help you. :(
>
> --
> -slunky
fuzzy
cuz sumtimes the sneek in when u sleeping.
maybe peeple turn bad at nite and do bad theings
slunky
> On Jul 8, 9:56?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>> In case we get att*cked or someone tries to h*rt us or something. (When
>> we explained this to hsptl pdoc, she said we make ourself crazy and we
>> are hypervigilant.)
>
> umm, it's called ptsd.
Yeah, they know.
>> We won't take it anymore. It doesn't help us even at 1000mg.
>
> wow. wish something would help you. :(
Elavil does kind of. We don't sleep, but we also don't remember the
night, and we feel a little rested by morning. Of course, they won't
give that to us outside of the hsptl.
--
-slunky
EB
nope, nobody will sneak in where you're sleeping now. see the locks on
the doors? that's your place. no one is going to turn bad at night and
do bad things to you.
that's past stuff. we have it too.
Shay of confuzzled
old dog wood bark and we new we was safe. pup dusnt always bark. and he
wont protect like odl dog
EB
> _/ EB <hopecent...@live.com> wrote \_
>
> > On Jul 8, 9:56?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
> >> In case we get att*cked or someone tries to h*rt us or something. (When
> >> we explained this to hsptl pdoc, she said we make ourself crazy and we
> >> are hypervigilant.)
>
> > umm, it's called ptsd.
>
> Yeah, they know.
oh, um...that was me being kinda sarcastic toward the people who said
that to you. but yeah. :)
>
> >> We won't take it anymore. It doesn't help us even at 1000mg.
>
> > wow. wish something would help you. :(
>
> Elavil does kind of. We don't sleep, but we also don't remember the
> night, and we feel a little rested by morning. Of course, they won't
> give that to us outside of the hsptl.
of course. maybe you could find a way meds could be given to your
therapist and you could get them from her for each few days? then no
one needs to worry about you bein endangered and maybe you can get
some decent sleep.
>
> --
> -slunky
Emerging Butterfly
you're safe now though, Shay. Even if the dog doesn't bark. You're
safe. look at the lock on the door. you can even check under the bed
and in the closets if you need to -- no one is there who will h*rt
you. and remember, you have a fierce wolverine to protect you!
Shay of confuzzled
k. i go check locks now
bak! all the doors is locked
u funny. wolfie isnt rilly fierce :P
nite eb. u r nice
Emerging Butterfly
yay! no one can get in.
>
> u funny. wolfie isnt rilly fierce :P
:P
I'll bet she can be if need be!
>
> nite eb. u r nice
nite! :)
astri
> Been trying to rest. Can't. We don't feel good. Had a flashback
> tonight. We are really overwhelmed. Want to sleep with no dreams.
wish you could
wish you could have restful sleep with no dreams
-- astri
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> EB wrote:
>> On Jul 8, 9:46 pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>>> _/ EB <hopecent...@live.com> wrote \_
>>>> On Jul 8, 9:32?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>>>
>>> Sometimes we wish we had sleeping meds. but we also are afraid they
>>> would make us not as alert if we needed to be at night.
>>
>
> cuz sumtimes the sneek in when u sleeping.
> maybe peeple turn bad at nite and do bad theings
:(
slunky
> On Jul 8, 10:10?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>> _/ EB <hopecent...@live.com> wrote \_
>>
>> > On Jul 8, 9:56?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>> >> In case we get att*cked or someone tries to h*rt us or something. (When
>> >> we explained this to hsptl pdoc, she said we make ourself crazy and we
>> >> are hypervigilant.)
>>
>> > umm, it's called ptsd.
>>
>> Yeah, they know.
>
> oh, um...that was me being kinda sarcastic toward the people who said
> that to you. but yeah. :)
Ok. :)
>> >> We won't take it anymore. It doesn't help us even at 1000mg.
>>
>> > wow. wish something would help you. :(
>>
>> Elavil does kind of. We don't sleep, but we also don't remember the
>> night, and we feel a little rested by morning. Of course, they won't
>> give that to us outside of the hsptl.
>
> of course. maybe you could find a way meds could be given to your
> therapist and you could get them from her for each few days? then no
> one needs to worry about you bein endangered and maybe you can get
> some decent sleep.
Wish they would, but we've been known to stockpile meds to OD. Get them
in small amounts and save them up. Elavil has a very high lethality. If
they wouldn't even give us lithium or benzos, they certainly wouldn't
give us elavil.
--
-slunky
slunky
> On Wed, 9 Jul 2009, slunky wrote:
>
>> Been trying to rest. Can't. We don't feel good. Had a flashback
>> tonight. We are really overwhelmed. Want to sleep with no dreams.
>
> wish you could
> wish you could have restful sleep with no dreams
We didn't. We hardly slept at all, and what we did was on the couch. We
were out almost all night.
--
-slunky
Emerging Butterfly
:(
we had a not so bad night. taking seroquil earlier helped. although we
had to take double the dose that usually would put us out and were up
a good part of the night. we stilll didn't have a big crisis.
i think we'll keep taking seroquil early like last night, at least
until t. gets back.
astri
:(
slunky
> On Jul 9, 7:38?am, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>> We didn't. We hardly slept at all, and what we did was on the couch. We
>> were out almost all night.
>
> we had a not so bad night. taking seroquil earlier helped. although we
> had to take double the dose that usually would put us out and were up
> a good part of the night. we stilll didn't have a big crisis.
> i think we'll keep taking seroquil early like last night, at least
> until t. gets back.
Hope it keeps working for you. We are not doing very well.
--
-slunky
Emerging Butterfly
> _/ Emerging Butterfly <emerging.butter...@hotmail.com> wrote \_
>
> > On Jul 9, 7:38?am, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
> >> We didn't. We hardly slept at all, and what we did was on the couch. We
> >> were out almost all night.
>
> > :(
> > we had a not so bad night. taking seroquil earlier helped. although we
> > had to take double the dose that usually would put us out and were up
> > a good part of the night. we stilll didn't have a big crisis.
> > i think we'll keep taking seroquil early like last night, at least
> > until t. gets back.
>
> Hope it keeps working for you.
i hope so too.
We are not doing very well.
you see t. tomorrow, right?
>
> --
> -slunky
slunky
> On Jul 9, 12:49?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>> Hope it keeps working for you.
>
> i hope so too.
:)
>> We are not doing very well.
>
> you see t. tomorrow, right?
Yeah. Tomorrow at ten am. She moved it forward two hours so she could do
a home visit before coming into the office.
--
-slunky
Emerging Butterfly
> _/ Emerging Butterfly <emerging.butter...@hotmail.com> wrote \_
>
> > On Jul 9, 12:49?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
> >> Hope it keeps working for you.
>
> > i hope so too.
>
> :)
>
> >> We are not doing very well.
>
> > you see t. tomorrow, right?
>
> Yeah. Tomorrow at ten am. She moved it forward two hours so she could do
> a home visit before coming into the office.
maybe she can help some.
>
> --
> -slunky
slunky
Hope so. We just feel really bad, and now we're crying for no reason.
--
-slunky
Emerging Butterfly
> _/ Emerging Butterfly <emerging.butter...@hotmail.com> wrote \_
>
> > On Jul 9, 12:57?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
> >> _/ Emerging Butterfly <emerging.butter...@hotmail.com> wrote \_
> >> > On Jul 9, 12:49?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
> >> >> We are not doing very well.
>
> >> > you see t. tomorrow, right?
>
> >> Yeah. Tomorrow at ten am. She moved it forward two hours so she could do
> >> a home visit before coming into the office.
>
> > maybe she can help some.
>
> Hope so. We just feel really bad, and now we're crying for no reason.
>
> --
> -slunky
*sighs*
we're here.
anything we can do?
slunky
> On Jul 9, 1:09?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>> _/ Emerging Butterfly <emerging.butter...@hotmail.com> wrote \_
>>
>> Hope so. We just feel really bad, and now we're crying for no reason.
>
> we're here.
> anything we can do?
Ummm... Don't know. We never know. We feel hopeless.
--
-slunky
Emerging Butterfly
> _/ Emerging Butterfly <emerging.butter...@hotmail.com> wrote \_
>
> > On Jul 9, 1:09?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
> >> _/ Emerging Butterfly <emerging.butter...@hotmail.com> wrote \_
> >> > maybe she can help some.
>
> >> Hope so. We just feel really bad, and now we're crying for no reason.
>
> > *sighs*
> > we're here.
> > anything we can do?
>
> Ummm... Don't know. We never know. We feel hopeless.
>
> --
> -slunky
can you talk to me about your safe place inside? kinda walk me through
it -- was does it feel like? what do you see? what are the colors and
sounds and sights?
slunky
> On Jul 9, 1:30?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>> Ummm... Don't know. We never know. We feel hopeless.
>
> it -- was does it feel like? what do you see? what are the colors and
> sounds and sights?
It's rainy and grey and blue and green. There are lots of trees.
--
-slunky
EBs
> _/ Emerging Butterfly <emerging.butter...@hotmail.com> wrote \_
was gone for a bit cuz google was being weird. it thought i was spam
cuz i was posting too much.
that safe place....okay. you can feel the rain coming down on you,
wetting your hair and your clothes and your arms.....You can see the
grey and blue and green, and where some of the colors blend together.
the trees are beautiful at this time. what color are the leaves?
now can you take the ones inside who are hurting and carry them to the
safe place? Picture yourself holding their hands and holding maybe a
little little one in your arms. Okay?
and you take them to this safe place and you talk with them in
soothing tones.
slunky
> On Jul 9, 1:46?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>> It's rainy and grey and blue and green. There are lots of trees.
>
> cuz i was posting too much.
Hmmm. :/
> that safe place....okay. you can feel the rain coming down on you,
> wetting your hair and your clothes and your arms.....You can see the
> grey and blue and green, and where some of the colors blend together.
> the trees are beautiful at this time. what color are the leaves?
Green.
> now can you take the ones inside who are hurting and carry them to the
> safe place? Picture yourself holding their hands and holding maybe a
> little little one in your arms. Okay?
> and you take them to this safe place and you talk with them in
> soothing tones.
Ok, will try.
--
-slunky
EBs
> _/ EBs <creativel...@live.com> wrote \_
>
> > On Jul 9, 1:46?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
> >> It's rainy and grey and blue and green. There are lots of trees.
>
> > was gone for a bit cuz google was being weird. it thought i was spam
> > cuz i was posting too much.
>
> Hmmm. :/
yeah. it's why i have 3 different accounts.
>
> > that safe place....okay. you can feel the rain coming down on you,
> > wetting your hair and your clothes and your arms.....You can see the
> > grey and blue and green, and where some of the colors blend together.
> > the trees are beautiful at this time. what color are the leaves?
>
> Green.
beautiful luscious green. there is a big tree outside my window. i was
just sitting on the window sill looking out.....so many branches with
off branches, so complex and beaituful, all the same color of green
but slightly different shades on the leaves.
>
> > now can you take the ones inside who are hurting and carry them to the
> > safe place? Picture yourself holding their hands and holding maybe a
> > little little one in your arms. Okay?
> > and you take them to this safe place and you talk with them in
> > soothing tones.
>
> Ok, will try.
how's it going?
>
> --
> -slunky
slunky
>> > cuz i was posting too much.
>>
>> Hmmm. :/
>
> yeah. it's why i have 3 different accounts.
We finally got individual.net to raise our limit to 500 posts a day.
We were maxing out 300 sometimes. If we were stuck with google, we would
need a dozen accounts!
>> Green.
>
> beautiful luscious green. there is a big tree outside my window. i was
> just sitting on the window sill looking out.....so many branches with
> off branches, so complex and beaituful, all the same color of green
> but slightly different shades on the leaves.
There used to be trees out front, but they cut them down a couple months
ago because they were touching power lines. Now we just see the street.
>> > now can you take the ones inside who are hurting and carry them to the
>> > safe place? Picture yourself holding their hands and holding maybe a
>> > little little one in your arms. Okay?
>> > and you take them to this safe place and you talk with them in
>> > soothing tones.
>>
>> Ok, will try.
>
> how's it going?
Still feeling really cruddy. Wish we could just sleep until tomorrow
with no dreams.
--
-slunky
EBs
> _/ EBs <creativel...@live.com> wrote \_
>
> > On Jul 9, 3:16?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
> >> _/ EBs <creativel...@live.com> wrote \_
> >> > was gone for a bit cuz google was being weird. it thought i was spam
> >> > cuz i was posting too much.
>
> >> Hmmm. :/
>
> > yeah. it's why i have 3 different accounts.
>
> We finally got individual.net to raise our limit to 500 posts a day.
> We were maxing out 300 sometimes. If we were stuck with google, we would
> need a dozen accounts!
yeah. i understand. once i get decent internet, i'll subscribe to
thunderbird again.
>
> >> Green.
>
> > beautiful luscious green. there is a big tree outside my window. i was
> > just sitting on the window sill looking out.....so many branches with
> > off branches, so complex and beaituful, all the same color of green
> > but slightly different shades on the leaves.
>
> There used to be trees out front, but they cut them down a couple months
> ago because they were touching power lines. Now we just see the street.
"they paved Paradise and put up a parking lot."
>
> >> > now can you take the ones inside who are hurting and carry them to the
> >> > safe place? Picture yourself holding their hands and holding maybe a
> >> > little little one in your arms. Okay?
> >> > and you take them to this safe place and you talk with them in
> >> > soothing tones.
>
> >> Ok, will try.
>
> > how's it going?
>
> Still feeling really cruddy.
:(
Wish we could just sleep until tomorrow
> with no dreams.
yeah. we've taken seroquil before to just sleep until therapy.
>
> --
> -slunky
slunky
> On Jul 9, 3:46?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>> We finally got individual.net to raise our limit to 500 posts a day.
>> We were maxing out 300 sometimes. If we were stuck with google, we would
>> need a dozen accounts!
>
> yeah. i understand. once i get decent internet, i'll subscribe to
> thunderbird again.
There is also supposed to be a pretty good free newsserver at
eternal-september.org
>> There used to be trees out front, but they cut them down a couple months
>> ago because they were touching power lines. Now we just see the street.
>
> "they paved Paradise and put up a parking lot."
That reminds us of being in a hsptl once, but it's a good memory. The
first time we were in the psych ward of the main hsptl, the music thrpst
is someone we were in school with. She played that song on her guitar.
:)
>> Still feeling really cruddy.
>
> :(
We might go for a walk in a little bit. We got a call to be invited to
go on an after hours actvity with clubhouse to a park to eat pizza, but
we turned them down.
>> Wish we could just sleep until tomorrow with no dreams.
>
> yeah. we've taken seroquil before to just sleep until therapy.
We took triple ativan before to do that.
--
-slunky
wolfie of confuzzled
> On Wed, 8 Jul 2009, fuzzy wrote:
>> EB wrote:
>>> On Jul 8, 9:46 pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>>>> _/ EB <hopecent...@live.com> wrote \_
>>>>> On Jul 8, 9:32?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>>>>
>>>> Sometimes we wish we had sleeping meds. but we also are afraid they
>>>> would make us not as alert if we needed to be at night.
>>>
>>> ahh. alert for what?
>>
>> cuz sumtimes the sneek in when u sleeping.
>> maybe peeple turn bad at nite and do bad theings
>
> :(
:/
shay's posted stuff like that before, hasn't she?
fuzzy
EB
yes, she has.
astri
yes
fuzzy
> On Thu, 9 Jul 2009, wolfie of confuzzled wrote:
>> astri wrote:
>>> On Wed, 8 Jul 2009, fuzzy wrote:
>>>> EB wrote:
>>>>> On Jul 8, 9:46 pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>>>>>> _/ EB <hopecent...@live.com> wrote \_
>>>>>>> On Jul 8, 9:32?pm, slunky <slu...@cryptobug.com> wrote:
>>>>>>
>>>>>> Sometimes we wish we had sleeping meds. but we also are afraid
>>>>>> they would make us not as alert if we needed to be at night.
>>>>>
>>>>> ahh. alert for what?
>>>>
>>>> cuz sumtimes the sneek in when u sleeping.
>>>> maybe peeple turn bad at nite and do bad theings
>>>
>>> :(
>>
>> :/
>>
>> shay's posted stuff like that before, hasn't she?
>
> yes
>
wolfie of confuzzled
this doesn't matter either
(sorry, being difficult)
just ignore me
astri
> this doesn't matter either
> (sorry, being difficult)
> just ignore me
seems is suddenly important for nothing to matter.
stuff got too close?
is ok to go back to peeking out window.
fuzzy
> On Thu, 9 Jul 2009, wolfie of confuzzled wrote:
>
>> this doesn't matter either
>> (sorry, being difficult)
>> just ignore me
>
> seems is suddenly important for nothing to matter.
> stuff got too close?
>
> is ok to go back to peeking out window.
>
astri
hi
fuzzy
> On Fri, 10 Jul 2009, fuzzy wrote:
>> astri wrote:
>>> On Thu, 9 Jul 2009, wolfie of confuzzled wrote:
>>>
>>>> this doesn't matter either
>>>> (sorry, being difficult)
>>>> just ignore me
>>>
>>> seems is suddenly important for nothing to matter.
>>> stuff got too close?
>>>
>>> is ok to go back to peeking out window.
>>>
>> k
>
> hi
>
we don't like jello
maybe we talk about birds. we saw a great blue heron today flying. And
we heard a kingfisher again.
and we saw the elk and there antlers are growing big. tall with nubs but
not spkey yet
this morning old cat woke me up. I think she might have sat on my head.
hmpf. I kept moving her so she wouldn't be right at my head. I thought
maybe she'd lay on my legs or stomach. she kept going back up and laying
against my head. both her and wondermutt are snoring now
astri
> we don't like jello
nope
> maybe we talk about birds. we saw a great blue heron today flying.
> And we heard a kingfisher again.
>
> and we saw the elk and there antlers are growing big. tall with nubs
> but not spkey yet
>
> this morning old cat woke me up. I think she might have sat on my
> head. hmpf. I kept moving her so she wouldn't be right at my head. I
> thought maybe she'd lay on my legs or stomach. she kept going back up
> and laying against my head. both her and wondermutt are snoring now
hee