stop it
ubiquity
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-ubiquity
astri
> its really going to ruin tomorrow forever if you h*ng us tonight huh?
slunkette and baby need you
*lots*
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ubiquity
> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
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>> its really going to ruin tomorrow forever if you h*ng us tonight huh?
>
> slunkette and baby need you
> *lots*
Can't take the stress of that. Can't do it all alone, and we are
absolutely and completely alone here. I can go where nobody will ever
find us. They'll never know what happened. It will be better that way.
Making bananasplits tonight for slunkette. Already fed baby half of a
banana. It will be a good memory for them.
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-ubiquity
astri
:(
not be good memory
will mess up memory of this season for them for always
call t?
she deserves to know.
ubiquity
> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>> Can't take the stress of that. Can't do it all alone, and we are
>> absolutely and completely alone here. I can go where nobody will ever
>> find us. They'll never know what happened. It will be better that
>> way. Making bananasplits tonight for slunkette. Already fed baby half
>> of a banana. It will be a good memory for them.
>
> :(
>
> not be good memory
> will mess up memory of this season for them for always
Why? We are trying to do this right. Least p*inful way for them. We are
trying to be good.
> call t?
> she deserves to know.
Sable sent her a text while she was freaking out about me. T never sent
one back. She probably very busy. Don't want to disturb her. Don't want
to bother anybody anymore. Sorry. Sorry we ever exist.
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-ubiquity
confuzzled
inside is telling you
you cant make it ok. no matter what you do, you cant make it ok for your
kids. you'll go away so they dont find you? how will that make it
better. then the kids will think that you left. they'll always wonder
why you abandoned them. yes, abandonned. that is not better.
you aren't completely alone. call your t.
confuzzled
> On 2009-11-26, astri wrote...
>> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>>> Can't take the stress of that. Can't do it all alone, and we are
>>> absolutely and completely alone here. I can go where nobody will ever
>>> find us. They'll never know what happened. It will be better that
>>> way. Making bananasplits tonight for slunkette. Already fed baby half
>>> of a banana. It will be a good memory for them.
>> :(
>>
>> not be good memory
>> will mess up memory of this season for them for always
>
> Why? We are trying to do this right. Least p*inful way for them. We are
> trying to be good.
there is no right in this. sorry. there just isn't. we've spent lots and
lots of time thinking about this. we've been on both sides. there is no
right. you can't "be good" and do this.
if you do it, it means the pain your in outweighed what your children
need. isn't fair that you have to keep going when it hurts that much. it
is even less fair for your kids to lose you. and for you there is
hope. thins can get better. you keep working with t and it can get
better. takes time which is rotten. if you d*e that won't ever get all
the way better for your kids.
>
>> call t?
>> she deserves to know.
>
> Sable sent her a text while she was freaking out about me. T never sent
> one back. She probably very busy. Don't want to disturb her. Don't want
> to bother anybody anymore. Sorry. Sorry we ever exist.
>
you'll disturb her way more by d*ing or disappearing. will stay with her
a long time. will hurt her
astri
> On 2009-11-26, astri wrote...
>> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>>> Can't take the stress of that. Can't do it all alone, and we are
>>> absolutely and completely alone here. I can go where nobody will
>>> ever find us. They'll never know what happened. It will be better
>>> that way. Making bananasplits tonight for slunkette. Already fed
>>> baby half of a banana. It will be a good memory for them.
>>
>> :(
>>
>> not be good memory
>> will mess up memory of this season for them for always
>
> Why? We are trying to do this right. Least p*inful way for them. We
> are trying to be good.
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know you're trying to be good
isn't any way to k*ll yourself right
will always and forevermore be horrible stressful awful traumatic
memory for them
slunkette would probably try to figure out why she couldn't save you
she'd probably think it was her fault
she'd think she must have been bad to make her daddy disappear
she'll feel guilty for the rest of her life
baby won't understand now
he'll just be horribly terribly upset that you aren't there
he won't understand why you don't come
and he'll feel hurt and awful and abandoned
and then who will take care of them?
their mom, who can't be bothered to clean up after a sick child?
your mother, who didn't protect you from being hurt and who won't give
you their money to take care of them?
>> call t?
>> she deserves to know.
>
> Sable sent her a text while she was freaking out about me. T never
> sent one back. She probably very busy. Don't want to disturb her.
hope she looks at sable's text
> Don't want to bother anybody anymore. Sorry. Sorry we ever exist.
regret that you feel this bad
ubiquity
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-ubiquity
confuzzled
> Sorry. Didn't mean to upset. Wish she hadn't posted this. Sorry.
>
we probably not being nice. sorry
is good that you posted. is better then keeping that stuff inside.
would much much much rather have you post. would rather get upset then
lose another friend.
astri
> ubiquity wrote:
>> On 2009-11-26, astri wrote...
>>> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>>>
>>>> its really going to ruin tomorrow forever if you h*ng us tonight huh?
>>> slunkette and baby need you
>>> *lots*
>>
>> Can't take the stress of that. Can't do it all alone, and we are
>> absolutely and completely alone here. I can go where nobody will
>> ever find us. They'll never know what happened. It will be better
>> that way. Making bananasplits tonight for slunkette. Already fed
>> baby half of a banana. It will be a good memory for them.
>>
> that's a lie. is either a lie you telling yourself or is someone else
> inside is telling you
yes
> you cant make it ok. no matter what you do, you cant make it ok for
> your kids. you'll go away so they dont find you? how will that make
> it better. then the kids will think that you left. they'll always
> wonder why you abandoned them. yes, abandonned. that is not better.
agree
know it hurts, but isn't better
> you aren't completely alone. call your t.
and has asd too
astri
>> On 2009-11-26, astri wrote...
>>> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>>>> Can't take the stress of that. Can't do it all alone, and we are
>>>> absolutely and completely alone here. I can go where nobody will
>>>> ever find us. They'll never know what happened. It will be better
>>>> that way. Making bananasplits tonight for slunkette. Already fed
>>>> baby half of a banana. It will be a good memory for them.
>>> :(
>>>
>>> not be good memory
>>> will mess up memory of this season for them for always
>>
>> Why? We are trying to do this right. Least p*inful way for them. We
>> are trying to be good.
>
> there is no right in this. sorry. there just isn't. we've spent lots
> and lots of time thinking about this. we've been on both sides. there
> is no right. you can't "be good" and do this.
yes
> if you do it, it means the pain your in outweighed what your children
> need. isn't fair that you have to keep going when it hurts that
> much. it is even less fair for your kids to lose you. and for you
> there is hope. thins can get better. you keep working with t and it
> can get better. takes time which is rotten. if you d*e that won't
> ever get all the way better for your kids.
yes
>>> call t?
>>> she deserves to know.
>>
>> Sable sent her a text while she was freaking out about me. T never
>> sent one back. She probably very busy. Don't want to disturb her.
>> Don't want to bother anybody anymore. Sorry. Sorry we ever exist.
>>
> you'll disturb her way more by d*ing or disappearing. will stay with
> her a long time. will hurt her
yes!!!!!
astri
> Sorry. Didn't mean to upset. Wish she hadn't posted this. Sorry.
is good she posted it
is good to let her say
and would be more upsetting if you just disappeared
ubiquity
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-ubiquity
ubiquity
> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>
>> Sorry. Didn't mean to upset. Wish she hadn't posted this. Sorry.
>
> is good she posted it
> is good to let her say
> and would be more upsetting if you just disappeared
i scard :(
--
-ubiquity
astri
> we emailing t
good
astri
> On 2009-11-26, astri wrote...
>> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>>
>>> Sorry. Didn't mean to upset. Wish she hadn't posted this. Sorry.
>>
>> is good she posted it
>> is good to let her say
>> and would be more upsetting if you just disappeared
>
> i scard :(
yeah
scary stuff
need somebody strong to stop that from happening
ubiquity
> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>
>> we emailing t
>
> good
Think she did. Is scary night. There are people outside been sitting
there for hours. We sent t a picture. We posted it online.
--
-ubiquity
ubiquity
> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>>> is good she posted it
>>> is good to let her say
>>> and would be more upsetting if you just disappeared
>>
>> i scard :(
>
> yeah
>
> scary stuff
>
> need somebody strong to stop that from happening
Can you make everything go away?
--
-ubiquity
astri
> On 2009-11-26, astri wrote...
>> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>>
>>> we emailing t
>>
>> good
>
> Think she did. Is scary night. There are people outside been sitting
> there for hours. We sent t a picture. We posted it online.
stay home with kids tonight
astri
> On 2009-11-26, astri wrote...
>> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>>> On 2009-11-26, astri wrote...
>>>> is good she posted it
>>>> is good to let her say
>>>> and would be more upsetting if you just disappeared
>>>
>>> i scard :(
>>
>> yeah
>>
>> scary stuff
>>
>> need somebody strong to stop that from happening
>
> Can you make everything go away?
t can help make it weaker
and then won't be so bothersome
will take a while tho
:P
ubiquity
> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>> Think she did. Is scary night. There are people outside been sitting
>> there for hours. We sent t a picture. We posted it online.
>
> stay home with kids tonight
T sais so too. They want to give me a ride. Somebody called them so they
said they will stay and they keep ringing the buzzer and phones.
--
-ubiquity
ubiquity
> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>> On 2009-11-26, astri wrote...
>>>
>>> need somebody strong to stop that from happening
>>
>> Can you make everything go away?
>
> t can help make it weaker
> and then won't be so bothersome
> will take a while tho
>:P
We got big headache and real dizzy.
--
-ubiquity
confuzzled
confuzzled
> On 2009-11-26, astri wrote...
>> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>>> On 2009-11-26, astri wrote...
>>>> is good she posted it
>>>> is good to let her say
>>>> and would be more upsetting if you just disappeared
>>> i scard :(
>> yeah
>>
>> scary stuff
>>
>> need somebody strong to stop that from happening
>
> Can you make everything go away?
>
confuzzled
astri
> On 2009-11-26, astri wrote...
>> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>>> Think she did. Is scary night. There are people outside been sitting
>>> there for hours. We sent t a picture. We posted it online.
>>
>> stay home with kids tonight
>
> T sais so too. They want to give me a ride. Somebody called them so
> they said they will stay and they keep ringing the buzzer and phones.
nonono
stay home
Shiyiya
> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>> On 2009-11-26, astri wrote...
>>> On Wed, 26 Nov 2009, ubiquity wrote:
>>>> Think she did. Is scary night. There are people outside been sitting
>>>> there for hours. We sent t a picture. We posted it online.
>>>
>>> stay home with kids tonight
>>
>> T sais so too. They want to give me a ride. Somebody called them so
>> they said they will stay and they keep ringing the buzzer and phones.
>
> nonono
> stay home
>
>
yes. stay home. you don't ahve to go anywhere.