three questions

[confuzzled]

k usually stuff about how we posting too much

we reading posts trying to get caught up but dont think we gonna be able
to stay here much longer

saw pdoc t on friday. he started talking about how it seems like we more
connected and like he thought that was a good thing. we not quite sure
what made him thing we been more connected (maybe we said some
feelings??). dunno. he seemed to think is important to be connected. how
come?

and next question... could being more switchy be actually having us be
more connected to feelings maybe or something? dunno. confused now

and last question, how can we tell tired from dissociating. not sure we
can tell difference

[astri]

On Mon, 16 Nov 2009, confuzzled wrote:

> k usually stuff about how we posting too much
>
> we reading posts trying to get caught up but dont think we gonna be
> able to stay here much longer

you mean not stay here much longer tonight?

> saw pdoc t on friday. he started talking about how it seems like we
> more connected and like he thought that was a good thing. we not
> quite sure what made him thing we been more connected (maybe we said
> some feelings??). dunno. he seemed to think is important to be
> connected. how come?

they all think that :P

> and next question... could being more switchy be actually having us
> be more connected to feelings maybe or something? dunno. confused now

that seems to make sense

> and last question, how can we tell tired from dissociating. not sure
> we can tell difference

think dissociating is more dreamy and spacey?
can't describe tired but think it's different?

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[Sonata]

astri wrote:
> On Mon, 16 Nov 2009, confuzzled wrote:
>
>> k usually stuff about how we posting too much
>>
>> we reading posts trying to get caught up but dont think we gonna be
>> able to stay here much longer
>
> you mean not stay here much longer tonight?
>
>> saw pdoc t on friday. he started talking about how it seems like we
>> more connected and like he thought that was a good thing. we not
>> quite sure what made him thing we been more connected (maybe we said
>> some feelings??). dunno. he seemed to think is important to be
>> connected. how come?
>
> they all think that :P
>
>> and next question... could being more switchy be actually having us
>> be more connected to feelings maybe or something? dunno. confused now
>
> that seems to make sense
>
>> and last question, how can we tell tired from dissociating. not sure
>> we can tell difference
>
> think dissociating is more dreamy and spacey?
> can't describe tired but think it's different?
>

tired for us usually feels kinda heavy? and like eyelids really heavy.

[russiandolly]

On Nov 17, 3:35 am, confuzzled <nospamsometimesknownas...@gmail.com>
wrote:

> k usually stuff about how we posting too much
>
> we reading posts trying to get caught up but dont think we gonna be able
> to stay here much longer
>
> saw pdoc t on friday. he started talking about how it seems like we more
> connected and like he thought that was a good thing. we not quite sure
> what made him thing we been more connected (maybe we said some
> feelings??). dunno. he seemed to think is important to be connected. how
> come?
>
> and next question... could being more switchy be actually having us be
> more connected to feelings maybe or something? dunno. confused now
>

maybe more connected with each other? well, we say connected, we mean
in a communication sense, like you all have phone lines to each other,
or something like that.
perhaps pdoc senses that there are more communications going on not
all empty?

> and last question, how can we tell tired from dissociating. not sure we
> can tell difference

heh, we know that we are more likely to diss when we're tired, because
some of them don't like it, and as we know that you have food issues
like we have, we often use lack of food to *create* tired to make the
others go away, so therefore more dissociated because not trying to
hold onto any connections with each other#
does that make sense?
tired doesn't *help* dissing at all because body is too tired to allow
anyone to engage with the world, it would rather lie down and sleep
cos of no energy.

[wolfie of confuzzled]

russiandolly wrote:
> On Nov 17, 3:35 am, confuzzled <nospamsometimesknownas...@gmail.com>
> wrote:
>> k usually stuff about how we posting too much
>>
>> we reading posts trying to get caught up but dont think we gonna be able
>> to stay here much longer
>>
>> saw pdoc t on friday. he started talking about how it seems like we more
>> connected and like he thought that was a good thing. we not quite sure
>> what made him thing we been more connected (maybe we said some
>> feelings??). dunno. he seemed to think is important to be connected. how
>> come?
>>
>> and next question... could being more switchy be actually having us be
>> more connected to feelings maybe or something? dunno. confused now
>>
>
> maybe more connected with each other? well, we say connected, we mean
> in a communication sense, like you all have phone lines to each other,
> or something like that.
> perhaps pdoc senses that there are more communications going on not
> all empty?
>

maybe but don't know how he can tell and don't really like it
doesn't feel better it feels crazy

>> and last question, how can we tell tired from dissociating. not sure we
>> can tell difference
>
> heh, we know that we are more likely to diss when we're tired, because
> some of them don't like it, and as we know that you have food issues
> like we have, we often use lack of food to *create* tired to make the
> others go away, so therefore more dissociated because not trying to
> hold onto any connections with each other#

:O exactly that

> does that make sense?

oh yes. very much sense.

> tired doesn't *help* dissing at all because body is too tired to allow
> anyone to engage with the world, it would rather lie down and sleep
> cos of no energy.

k

[russiandolly]

On Nov 19, 5:26 am, wolfie of confuzzled

<nospamsometimesknownas...@gmail.com> wrote:
> russiandolly wrote:
> > On Nov 17, 3:35 am, confuzzled <nospamsometimesknownas...@gmail.com>
> > wrote:
> >> k usually stuff about how we posting too much
>
> >> we reading posts trying to get caught up but dont think we gonna be able
> >> to stay here much longer
>
> >> saw pdoc t on friday. he started talking about how it seems like we more
> >> connected and like he thought that was a good thing. we not quite sure
> >> what made him thing we been more connected (maybe we said some
> >> feelings??). dunno. he seemed to think is important to be connected. how
> >> come?
>
> >> and next question... could being more switchy be actually having us be
> >> more connected to feelings maybe or something? dunno. confused now
>
> > maybe more connected with each other? well, we say connected, we mean
> > in a communication sense, like you all have phone lines to each other,
> > or something like that.
> > perhaps pdoc senses that there are more communications going on not
> > all empty?
>
> maybe but don't know how he can tell and don't really like it
> doesn't feel better it feels crazy
>

crazy as in busy? we get that busy, noisy, loud, full, but at the same
time, really hard to focus on or look at and *see* anything

[confuzzled]

much like that

or like now, barely feel like am here. far away

[russiandolly]

On Nov 22, 4:32 am, confuzzled <nospamsometimesknownas...@gmail.com>

yeah.
nothing feeling 'real' , nothing getting 'through'
is d*ngerous for us, all those things

and like somethings going on somewhere else in your head but you don't
know what it is

[confuzzled]

yes

> and like somethings going on somewhere else in your head but you don't
> know what it is

yep
when we sleeping too