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> How are all of you? Lonely today.
was busy day
home now
making noodle kugel to take to sir lala's school tomorrow
culture sharing snack
work monday and tuesday
but, really, off until january
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Fun. That's how we found out we like peruvian food (except rice).
> work monday and tuesday
> but, really, off until january
Slunkette is out of school until January Eighth. When we went to pick
her up, all the classmates rents except us and one other woman were
already there. They had a pizza party for rents who help in class, only
they didn't ever tell us, so we missed it, but they must have told some
rents, because they were all there. Usually we're the only one who's
there a half hour early to help with lunch. Oh well.
and the f*m*ly advocate had left a flier for a counselling center in the
sign in book for us, no explanation, just a flier with our legal name
written in pen on it.
Ok, sorry to ramble. Just feeling a bit sad about all that.
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what's peruvian food?
>> work monday and tuesday
>> but, really, off until january
>
> Slunkette is out of school until January Eighth. When we went to pick
> her up, all the classmates rents except us and one other woman were
> already there. They had a pizza party for rents who help in class,
> only they didn't ever tell us, so we missed it, but they must have
> told some rents, because they were all there. Usually we're the only
> one who's there a half hour early to help with lunch. Oh well.
!!!
:(
> and the f*m*ly advocate had left a flier for a counselling center in
> the sign in book for us, no explanation, just a flier with our legal
> name written in pen on it.
?
maybe ask her about it?
> Ok, sorry to ramble. Just feeling a bit sad about all that.
sounds wierd
Food from Peru. Like saltenas. That's our truly favorite food, but we
haven't had it in six years because we don't know how to make them.
>>> work monday and tuesday
>>> but, really, off until january
>>
>> Slunkette is out of school until January Eighth. When we went to pick
>> her up, all the classmates rents except us and one other woman were
>> already there. They had a pizza party for rents who help in class,
>> only they didn't ever tell us, so we missed it, but they must have
>> told some rents, because they were all there. Usually we're the only
>> one who's there a half hour early to help with lunch. Oh well.
>
> !!!
>
> :(
Don't know. We just tried to forget that yesterday we came in and nobody
said a word to us because a more liked rent was there. We aren't
exciting and fun. It's no wonder they didn't want us at the party. Today
is a bad day anyways. Guess it doesn't matter. They aren't there for us.
They are there for slunkette.
>> and the f*m*ly advocate had left a flier for a counselling center in
>> the sign in book for us, no explanation, just a flier with our legal
>> name written in pen on it.
>
> ?
>
> maybe ask her about it?
Hardly ever see her. Her office is in the w*men's shelter next door.
>> Ok, sorry to ramble. Just feeling a bit sad about all that.
>
> sounds wierd
Yeah. We aren't getting any calls back from pdocs or psych nurses
either. Well, we did get one today, but think that's because t gave us
the number two nights ago, and we called yesterday, and she never called
back, so our t called her today, and then she called us, but probably
won't see her until January.
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was dumb and read a wiki of creepy things even though *know* have
overactive imagination but it was interesting
had creepy dreams and woke up after four hours of sleep
st*bby uterus p*in and friend is nagging wants to hang out tomorrow but
we're all nocturnal and p*in is making snarly
and really wish hadn't read that stuff sigh.
don't understand why this happens but it's all just rotten
> was dumb and read a wiki of creepy things even though *know* have
> overactive imagination but it was interesting
>
> had creepy dreams and woke up after four hours of sleep
>
> st*bby uterus p*in and friend is nagging wants to hang out tomorrow
> but we're all nocturnal and p*in is making snarly
>
> and really wish hadn't read that stuff sigh.
blech
Our t called us back, and said she could move our appointment to 1:30,
but we had already called back and cancelled tomorrow with the nurse.
Will give us more time to get the insurance authorization to see the
nurse. She doesn't take medicare, but she can take our new insurance
from wife's work if we get it authorized beforehand.
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k
im sleepy
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> im sleepy
>
> (v)
hi
hi :)
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what you doing?
im watching musics
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we're waiting for noodle kugel to get done
hi
we tierd
i dont no that i gota hold baby cuz hes cryin
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yea
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r u littul?
i think so
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k
i'm 6
> we tierd
hi
k
we tierd agin
wairs keiki?
:)
> we tierd agin
>
> wairs keiki?
she's around
guess she just hasn't felt like posting
saving posts for her
:)
>
>> we tierd agin
>>
>> wairs keiki?
>
> she's around
> guess she just hasn't felt like posting
> saving posts for her
>
k
we on a diet :(
we tierd but i dont wanna go bed
wolfie wants to take pills to go ebd
how cum nobudy here
that's prolly not a good idea
we here now
hi
should tell t
hi
good!
i wanna emel t back and say hi. i wanna no if she plays games. i dont
wanna make her mad tho.
we lots tierd
r u tierd
> t emeld back.
> she sed she not mad
> wolfie took 2 pink pilss. thats all she can have rite?
yup, that's all
> i wanna emel t back and say hi. i wanna no if she plays games. i dont
> wanna make her mad tho.
think is ok you email her back
don't think she'll be mad
think she'll be happy you communicating with her
> we lots tierd
> r u tierd
yes!!!!
k
>
>> i wanna emel t back and say hi. i wanna no if she plays games. i dont
>> wanna make her mad tho.
>
> think is ok you email her back
> don't think she'll be mad
> think she'll be happy you communicating with her
>
k
i told her i like her cats. she got nice cats
>> we lots tierd
>> r u tierd
>
> yes!!!!
>
u gonna go bed. i gess we gonna go bed
i dont want to
> we didnt eet lunch today and we xrsized
u sud et cukeeeee :)
an pisa
usses:)
i like cukees!!!!
nd pizza
i got pizza and m&ms win we playd dradul. that day thay didnt go diet
u got cookees?
:)
>>> we lots tierd
>>> r u tierd
>>
>> yes!!!!
>>
> u gonna go bed. i gess we gonna go bed
> i dont want to
>
no gots 2
ys:)
On Mon, 21 Dec 2009, astri wrote:
:P
usses!
:( Whatever for?
sometimes people are busy doing other things. we've been just reading
books for a few days. not done that in too long. missed books.
bet not.
skipping meals not how diets work
skipping meals how ED works
:/
and think it would be pretty hard for you guys to eat more then body needs.
agree
i got cookees 2!!!
and sum chokolet
and we made a dil and i git to have 1 treet a day
i dunno
but thay chaynjd thair mind
cuz we wur all dizzy and we had to hold the wal and then we fel on the cowch
but then wolfie desided that a die it was bad
we are sik now tho :(
we not gona skip meels anymore. wolfie sed shed tri.
good they changed their mind
> we are sik now tho :(
that's too bad
glad she decided that.
>
> we are sik now tho :(
hope you feel better soon :(
:)
xsept that then wolfie felt all bad so we didnt git dinner last nite or
brekfest.
>>
>> we are sik now tho :(
>
> hope you feel better soon :(
we got medisun now.
we got lots sickr and it hurt to breeth
:/
>>>
>>> we are sik now tho :(
>>
>> hope you feel better soon :(
>
> we got medisun now.
> we got lots sickr and it hurt to breeth
Yeah, I saw some about that :( Is the medicine being taken on whatevver
schedule the dctr said? That's important so you can get better.
ya
but dinnur was gud :)
>>>>
>>>> we are sik now tho :(
>>>
>>> hope you feel better soon :(
>>
>> we got medisun now.
>> we got lots sickr and it hurt to breeth
>
> Yeah, I saw some about that :( Is the medicine being taken on whatevver
> schedule the dctr said? That's important so you can get better.
oh. i think we suposed to take more medisun. ill ask fuzzy
Yay :)
>
>>>>>
>>>>> we are sik now tho :(
>>>>
>>>> hope you feel better soon :(
>>>
>>> we got medisun now.
>>> we got lots sickr and it hurt to breeth
>>
>> Yeah, I saw some about that :( Is the medicine being taken on
>> whatevver schedule the dctr said? That's important so you can get better.
>
> oh. i think we suposed to take more medisun. ill ask fuzzy
K. :) You get better lots faster with medicine!
fuzzy dont no what to do. maybe she can cum say.
<...>
>>>>>>> we are sik now tho :(
>>>>>>
>>>>>> hope you feel better soon :(
>>>>>
>>>>> we got medisun now.
>>>>> we got lots sickr and it hurt to breeth
>>>>
>>>> Yeah, I saw some about that :( Is the medicine being taken on
>>>> whatevver schedule the dctr said? That's important so you can get
>>>> better.
>>>
>>> oh. i think we suposed to take more medisun. ill ask fuzzy
>>
>> K. :) You get better lots faster with medicine!
>
> fuzzy dont no what to do. maybe she can cum say.
we forgot about the antibiotic today. we *think* the pharmacist said
don't take it within two hours of milk products. it doesn't say that on
the medicine and when we do a google search we don't find that. our
dinner had cheese on it. it's probably been an hour since we ate. I
don't think we will be up another hour. should we just go ahead and take it?
and by the way... switching in front of t was very very weird!!!
Sounds like would be best to just take it. Maybe right before you go to
sleep or if you don't think you'll remmeber then now. Somehow I doubt
you ate a huge amount of food with a huge amount of cheese anyway?
And I bet!
think we will take the med now
> And I bet!
totally weird.
and now... it's going to be even harder to believe we are faking
ok, next question. umm... do you think it's ok to take the rx sleep med.
even though last night wolfie took benedryl. we been using either
benedryl or the sleep med for a week now maybe... really don't know.
think we took a day break in there. And only last night did wolfie take
too mcuh benedry. it has been super super hard to keep track of time and
things just lately.
but because of the nightmare i think we all afraid of going to sleep.
saounds like a pretty reasonable amount of food.
>
> think we will take the med now
>
>> And I bet!
>
> totally weird.
> and now... it's going to be even harder to believe we are faking
why is there so much invested in believing that?
>
> ok, next question. umm... do you think it's ok to take the rx sleep med.
> even though last night wolfie took benedryl. we been using either
> benedryl or the sleep med for a week now maybe... really don't know.
> think we took a day break in there. And only last night did wolfie take
> too mcuh benedry. it has been super super hard to keep track of time and
> things just lately.
>
> but because of the nightmare i think we all afraid of going to sleep.
sleep with med probably better than lack of sleep. lack of sleep isn't
good for anybody. and I know how it feels to be afraid of going to sleep :/
guess so. feels like a lot to us. I'm not complaining though.
>>
>> think we will take the med now
>>
>>> And I bet!
>>
>> totally weird.
>> and now... it's going to be even harder to believe we are faking
>
> why is there so much invested in believing that?
dunno. is more a wolfie thing then mine
umm... just... guess that's what we believe. in general. almost
anything we label as fake. unless it's us being happy/friendly. like
herman. dunno
>>
>> ok, next question. umm... do you think it's ok to take the rx sleep
>> med. even though last night wolfie took benedryl. we been using either
>> benedryl or the sleep med for a week now maybe... really don't know.
>> think we took a day break in there. And only last night did wolfie
>> take too mcuh benedry. it has been super super hard to keep track of
>> time and things just lately.
>>
>> but because of the nightmare i think we all afraid of going to sleep.
>
> sleep with med probably better than lack of sleep. lack of sleep isn't
> good for anybody. and I know how it feels to be afraid of going to sleep :/
k
Heh :P think your perceptions probably skewed by eating very little for
so long?
>>>
>>> think we will take the med now
>>>
>>>> And I bet!
>>>
>>> totally weird.
>>> and now... it's going to be even harder to believe we are faking
>>
>> why is there so much invested in believing that?
>
> dunno. is more a wolfie thing then mine
> umm... just... guess that's what we believe. in general. almost
> anything we label as fake. unless it's us being happy/friendly. like
> herman. dunno
sounds like old tapes. and damaging ones.
> we forgot about the antibiotic today. we *think* the pharmacist said
> don't take it within two hours of milk products. it doesn't say that
> on the medicine and when we do a google search we don't find that.
> our dinner had cheese on it. it's probably been an hour since we ate.
> I don't think we will be up another hour. should we just go ahead and
> take it?
yes, take it
> and by the way... switching in front of t was very very weird!!!
heh
> think we will take the med now
k
> ok, next question. umm... do you think it's ok to take the rx sleep
> med. even though last night wolfie took benedryl. we been using
> either benedryl or the sleep med for a week now maybe... really don't
> know. think we took a day break in there. And only last night did
> wolfie take too mcuh benedry. it has been super super hard to keep
> track of time and things just lately.
>
> but because of the nightmare i think we all afraid of going to sleep.
take the rx
:P
probably so. I think it's been ages since we had accurate perceptions
about eating. not sure we ever did?
>>>>
>>>> think we will take the med now
>>>>
>>>>> And I bet!
>>>>
>>>> totally weird.
>>>> and now... it's going to be even harder to believe we are faking
>>>
>>> why is there so much invested in believing that?
>>
>> dunno. is more a wolfie thing then mine
>> umm... just... guess that's what we believe. in general. almost
>> anything we label as fake. unless it's us being happy/friendly. like
>> herman. dunno
>
> sounds like old tapes. and damaging ones.
k
>> and by the way... switching in front of t was very very weird!!!
>
> heh
>
but how come, if we many, real life people don't know? how come it's
been so hidden?
>> ok, next question. umm... do you think it's ok to take the rx sleep
>> med. even though last night wolfie took benedryl. we been using
>> either benedryl or the sleep med for a week now maybe... really don't
>> know. think we took a day break in there. And only last night did
>> wolfie take too mcuh benedry. it has been super super hard to keep
>> track of time and things just lately.
>>
>> but because of the nightmare i think we all afraid of going to sleep.
>
> take the rx
>
<sigh>
guess maybe we will
nite nite asd
hope you have restful sleep.
> umm... just... guess that's what we believe. in general. almost
> anything we label as fake. unless it's us being happy/friendly. like
> herman. dunno
well, that will certainly keep you unreal
:/
what inhaler do you have?
>>> and by the way... switching in front of t was very very weird!!!
>>
>> heh
>>
> but how come, if we many, real life people don't know? how come it's
> been so hidden?
no one irl knows about us either
except the very few folks we've told
or the folks we met here
currently in 3d, besides t and pdoc, only c knows
think most people just get good at hiding it so people won't think
they're cr*zy.
When we got rx sleep meds once (cause we had pneumonia and had trouble
sleeping) the dr said to take it every single time we thought we
needed it. Not to worry about dependence or anything because that was
the drs job to pay attention to. Like he gave us 10 doses (for
example) and he knew that a person can take up to 20 doses every night
before there is dependence. So if he had to give us another 10 doses
he would have warned us that he wouldn't give us more after that.
He said it was most important that the body sleep while sick to heal
and get stronger.
I have a muscle relaxant like that right now. It is for my jaw/neck/
shoulder problem. I need to take it no matter what right before
getting my teeth cleaned (cause my jaw can dislocate easily) and that
night after. Then if I need it any time during the six months between
cleanings I take it. I took one last night. I usually need more pills
every 1 1/2 years. He gives me 10 at a time. He said this is a very
low rate of use so there is no risk of me getting dependent. It's his
job to pay attention and tell me if I'm using it inappropriately.
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Appearing to be 'normal' seems to be part of the whole process. That
was my job for many many years. All I did was make sure that external
people never figured out we were many. Then I 'graduated' to getting
to keep work desk drawers organized and writing out checks in t'py
*wry grin* For _us_ it was a matter of survival. The weaker we
appeared, the more 'off' we presented to foo the more dangerous it
was.
was ok until morning
albuterol (sp?)
>
>>>> and by the way... switching in front of t was very very weird!!!
>>>
>>> heh
>>>
>> but how come, if we many, real life people don't know? how come it's
>> been so hidden?
>
> no one irl knows about us either
> except the very few folks we've told
> or the folks we met here
> currently in 3d, besides t and pdoc, only c knows
>
<sigh>
just... feels sort of out of control
oh. hmm... k, need to think about this
yes. understand that
think maybe that's ... well... it may be possible that we getting a bit
anxious now that we switched in t. maybe. not scared of course because
that would be wimpy. heh.
> think maybe that's ... well... it may be possible that we getting a
> bit anxious now that we switched in t. maybe. not scared of course
> because that would be wimpy. heh.
what about that would make you anxious?
it just... is really weird. seems like loss of control. isn't the way we
understand the world to work. dunno!
> and think some of that was wolfie. we had to ask her to go back into
> her tree house
k
> it just... is really weird. seems like loss of control. isn't the way
> we understand the world to work. dunno!
believe it or not, you get used to it
is a big new thing? and you've always hidden many so showing it is scary?
yes!!!!
hard to tell
is all moving forward
maybe you've been stalled so long that any movement feels too fast?