don't want to!
confuzzled
well...
maybe the finger is infected
maybe
probably we exaggerating.
probanbly we just overloaded and stressed and projecting and freaking
out over nothing
shay says it hurts
we are fine
we have to be fine
kitchen sink is leaking
mess under sink still hasn't been cleaned up
mess inside our head not cleaned up
is too much
but we are fine
so isnt too muc
we are fine
we are
will wake up tomorrow and decide nothing wrong and feel stupid for this post
and believe this was stupid drama
(shay said somethng was wrong yesterday)
really tired
just cant
sorry
Shiyiya
> ummm...
> well...
>
> maybe the finger is infected
is it red or swollen or hot to the touch?
> maybe
> probably we exaggerating.
Is minimizing worth body maybe being unwell? :/
> probanbly we just overloaded and stressed and projecting and freaking
> out over nothing
> shay says it hurts
I think she's the only one who really listens to the body. She deserves
to be listened to too
> we are fine
> we have to be fine
Why?
> kitchen sink is leaking
> mess under sink still hasn't been cleaned up
> mess inside our head not cleaned up
hard to do that if you trying to be fine all the time :/ if you don't
admit things wrong they can't be fixed
> is too much
> but we are fine
which version?
> so isnt too muc
> we are fine
> we are
> will wake up tomorrow and decide nothing wrong and feel stupid for this
> post
> and believe this was stupid drama
isn't
> (shay said somethng was wrong yesterday)
really think you need to listen to her. Is like the canary in the coal
mine letting you know something is wrong before you realise. is
impirtant to take care of body. everything is harder when body isn't okay.
> really tired
> just cant
> sorry
>
is k.
Shiyiya
Also I'm sorry I think I was kind of snappish I'm slightly rys as well
as shi don't like that sorry.
confuzzled
> confuzzled wrote:
>> ummm...
>> well...
>>
>> maybe the finger is infected
>
> is it red or swollen or hot to the touch?
:/
is hot
guess it's swollen too
just a little bit
>> maybe
>> probably we exaggerating.
>
> Is minimizing worth body maybe being unwell? :/
dont wanna go dr dont wanna
dr suposed to make it better but its not better
>> probanbly we just overloaded and stressed and projecting and freaking
>> out over nothing
>> shay says it hurts
>
> I think she's the only one who really listens to the body. She deserves
> to be listened to too
:/
>> we are fine
>> we have to be fine
>
> Why?
have to be
is too much
we been trying. really really trying and stuff keeps happening and cant
and wanna be d*ad and melt and jsut cant. fine is better
>> kitchen sink is leaking
>> mess under sink still hasn't been cleaned up
>> mess inside our head not cleaned up
>
> hard to do that if you trying to be fine all the time :/ if you don't
> admit things wrong they can't be fixed
talked to t todah. talked and talked and said stuff. need to be fine now
tired
tired tired tired
wanna make it all go away
why cant we make it go away
isnt faire
>> is too much
>> but we are fine
>
> which version?
dunno
>> so isnt too muc
>> we are fine
>> we are
>> will wake up tomorrow and decide nothing wrong and feel stupid for
>> this post
>> and believe this was stupid drama
>
> isn't
:/
how come we cant just be ok
>> (shay said somethng was wrong yesterday)
>
> really think you need to listen to her. Is like the canary in the coal
> mine letting you know something is wrong before you realise. is
> impirtant to take care of body. everything is harder when body isn't okay.
dont wanna go back to dr
domt wanna
it hurt last tme
and dont wanna mis work have fuss
maybe thay be mad we nottake food care of fingur
tried
we tried promise we tried
dont wanna looking. thay always looking and grabbing and demanding to
see and taking and grabbing
(that foo not dr)
we getting mixed
up
tired
>> really tired
>> just cant
>> sorry
>>
>
> is k.
wanan be d*ad
sorry sorry no its wrong
no qe cant got pets
so tired
is too much much
we been trying as hard as we can and stuff keeps happening and just cant
just cant
stupid dumb meltdown
hate this
hate hate hate hate hate this
confuzzled
is k
we werent upset
astri
urgh
regrets
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Shiyiya
> Shiyiya wrote:
>> confuzzled wrote:
>>> ummm...
>>> well...
>>>
>>> maybe the finger is infected
>>
>> is it red or swollen or hot to the touch?
>
> :/
> is hot
> guess it's swollen too
> just a little bit
hot to the touch is big sign of infection.
>
>>> maybe
>>> probably we exaggerating.
>>
>> Is minimizing worth body maybe being unwell? :/
>
> dont wanna go dr dont wanna
> dr suposed to make it better but its not better
Did you follow the doctor's intructions?
>
>
>>> probanbly we just overloaded and stressed and projecting and freaking
>>> out over nothing
>>> shay says it hurts
>>
>> I think she's the only one who really listens to the body. She
>> deserves to be listened to too
>
> :/
>
>>> we are fine
>>> we have to be fine
>>
>> Why?
>
> have to be
> is too much
> we been trying. really really trying and stuff keeps happening and cant
> and wanna be d*ad and melt and jsut cant. fine is better
fine tends to only work in the short term though
>
>>> kitchen sink is leaking
>>> mess under sink still hasn't been cleaned up
>>> mess inside our head not cleaned up
>>
>> hard to do that if you trying to be fine all the time :/ if you don't
>> admit things wrong they can't be fixed
>
> talked to t todah. talked and talked and said stuff. need to be fine now
> tired
> tired tired tired
> wanna make it all go away
> why cant we make it go away
> isnt faire
no, it isn't :/
>
>>> is too much
>>> but we are fine
>>
>> which version?
>
> dunno
>
>>> so isnt too muc
>>> we are fine
>>> we are
>>> will wake up tomorrow and decide nothing wrong and feel stupid for
>>> this post
>>> and believe this was stupid drama
>>
>> isn't
>
> :/
> how come we cant just be ok
unfortunately isn't a matter of willpower
>
>>> (shay said somethng was wrong yesterday)
>>
>> really think you need to listen to her. Is like the canary in the coal
>> mine letting you know something is wrong before you realise. is
>> impirtant to take care of body. everything is harder when body isn't
>> okay.
>
> dont wanna go back to dr
> domt wanna
> it hurt last tme
:(
> and dont wanna mis work have fuss
> maybe thay be mad we nottake food care of fingur
doubt they would be mad. but if it's infected and gets left and worse
you could get sick :/ do you have neosporin or something to put on it to
help against the infection, at least?
> tried
> we tried promise we tried
believe you.
> dont wanna looking. thay always looking and grabbing and demanding to
> see and taking and grabbing
> (that foo not dr)
> we getting mixed
> up
> tired
>
>>> really tired
>>> just cant
>>> sorry
>>>
>>
>> is k.
>
> wanan be d*ad
> sorry sorry no its wrong
> no qe cant got pets
> so tired
> is too much much
> we been trying as hard as we can and stuff keeps happening and just cant
> just cant
> stupid dumb meltdown
> hate this
> hate hate hate hate hate this
sounds like you're having to do too much and push away anything that
isn't okay and need time to just slow down and process.
astri
>> confuzzled wrote:
>>> ummm...
>>> well...
>>>
>>> maybe the finger is infected
>>
>> is it red or swollen or hot to the touch?
>
> :/
> is hot
> guess it's swollen too
> just a little bit
try topical antibiotic
if that doesn't help
or if it gets worse
need doc
:(
>>> maybe
>>> probably we exaggerating.
>>
>> Is minimizing worth body maybe being unwell? :/
>
> dont wanna go dr dont wanna
> dr suposed to make it better but its not better
sigh
lots stuff "supposed to" be better but not isn't
>>> probanbly we just overloaded and stressed and projecting and
>>> freaking out over nothing
>>> shay says it hurts
>>
>> I think she's the only one who really listens to the body. She
>> deserves to be listened to too
>
> :/
>
>>> we are fine
>>> we have to be fine
>>
>> Why?
>
> have to be
> is too much
understand
> we been trying. really really trying and stuff keeps happening and
> cant and wanna be d*ad and melt and jsut cant. fine is better
understand
:(
hard
>>> kitchen sink is leaking
>>> mess under sink still hasn't been cleaned up
>>> mess inside our head not cleaned up
>>
>> hard to do that if you trying to be fine all the time :/ if you
>> don't admit things wrong they can't be fixed
>
> talked to t todah. talked and talked and said stuff. need to be fine
> now
oooooh
> tired
> tired tired tired
> wanna make it all go away
> why cant we make it go away
> isnt faire
nope
not
>>> is too much
>>> but we are fine
>>
>> which version?
>
> dunno
several?
>>> so isnt too muc
>>> we are fine
>>> we are
>>> will wake up tomorrow and decide nothing wrong and feel stupid for
>>> this post and believe this was stupid drama
>>
>> isn't
>
> :/
> how come we cant just be ok
how come we can't?
>>> (shay said somethng was wrong yesterday)
>>
>> really think you need to listen to her. Is like the canary in the
>> coal mine letting you know something is wrong before you realise. is
>> impirtant to take care of body. everything is harder when body isn't
>> okay.
>
> dont wanna go back to dr
> domt wanna
> it hurt last tme
> and dont wanna mis work have fuss
> maybe thay be mad we nottake food care of fingur
> tried
> we tried promise we tried
> dont wanna looking. thay always looking and grabbing and demanding to
> see and taking and grabbing
> (that foo not dr)
yes
> we getting mixed
> up
> tired
>
>>> really tired
>>> just cant
>>> sorry
>>>
>>
>> is k.
>
> wanan be d*ad
(understand)
> sorry sorry no its wrong
> no qe cant got pets
> so tired
> is too much much
feels like it
> we been trying as hard as we can and stuff keeps happening and just
> cant just cant
> stupid dumb meltdown
> hate this
> hate hate hate hate hate this
understand
talk about t?
Shiyiya
k. just eanted to make sure because when like that sort of can't keep
track of self very well or how soemthing might be. ack I think I'm
failing at using words right. shi has the empathy so when is more rys is
less easy to see where might be hurtful. think that's what I'm trying to
say.
confuzzled
and we read the other posts too. but sleep med kicking in and hard to
type and think and have words
gonna go sleep on couch. cant face bedroom
astri
yw
> and we read the other posts too. but sleep med kicking in and hard to
> type and think and have words
certainly
> gonna go sleep on couch. cant face bedroom
g'ni
Shay of confuzzled
> confuzzled wrote:
>> Shiyiya wrote:
>>> confuzzled wrote:
>>>> ummm...
>>>> well...
>>>>
>>>> maybe the finger is infected
>>>
>>> is it red or swollen or hot to the touch?
>>
>> :/
>> is hot
>> guess it's swollen too
>> just a little bit
>
> hot to the touch is big sign of infection.
thay put lots of medisun on it. it dusnt hurt as much as last nite. they
changing the band ade lots to make it bettur.
>>
>>>> maybe
>>>> probably we exaggerating.
>>>
>>> Is minimizing worth body maybe being unwell? :/
>>
>> dont wanna go dr dont wanna
>> dr suposed to make it better but its not better
>
> Did you follow the doctor's intructions?
we tride. it got wet a cupul times. and we took the band ade off at nite
sumtimes.
and we had to go to wurk today :(
it hurt last time. i dont wanna go
wolfie sez shill help make it better
>> tried
>> we tried promise we tried
>
> believe you.
:)
Shiyiya
> Shiyiya wrote:
>> confuzzled wrote:
>>> Shiyiya wrote:
>>>> confuzzled wrote:
>>>>> ummm...
>>>>> well...
>>>>>
>>>>> maybe the finger is infected
>>>>
>>>> is it red or swollen or hot to the touch?
>>>
>>> :/
>>> is hot
>>> guess it's swollen too
>>> just a little bit
>>
>> hot to the touch is big sign of infection.
>
> thay put lots of medisun on it. it dusnt hurt as much as last nite. they
> changing the band ade lots to make it bettur.
Glad it hurts less. Hope the medicine clears it up. Don't stop putting
it on when it feels better, k? It could get infected again if you do
that. Keep putting it on and bandaids until it's all the way healed.
>
>>>
>>>>> maybe
>>>>> probably we exaggerating.
>>>>
>>>> Is minimizing worth body maybe being unwell? :/
>>>
>>> dont wanna go dr dont wanna
>>> dr suposed to make it better but its not better
>>
>> Did you follow the doctor's intructions?
>
> we tride. it got wet a cupul times. and we took the band ade off at nite
> sumtimes.
It's okay if it gets wet if you change the bandaid after. Why did you
take it off at night?
Was that hard? :(
understandable
> wolfie sez shill help make it better
glad. you help pay attention to how it's healing :)
Shay of confuzzled
thay dont like bandades
but now its gitting better and they leeving it on. and we got a spesul
bandade. it stays on lots. it hurts lots less nwo. i can rite and culur
agin :)
its not all bettur yet. i hope it gits all better.
it rilly is lots better tho
its bin rilly hard. its making wolfie wanna be d*ad
dont wanna go back to dr
>>>> domt wanna
>>>> it hurt last tme
>>>
>>> :(
>>>> and dont wanna mis work have fuss
>>>> maybe thay be mad we nottake food care of fingur
>>>
>>> doubt they would be mad. but if it's infected and gets left and worse
>>> you could get sick :/ do you have neosporin or something to put on it
>>> to help against the infection, at least?
>>
>> it hurt last time. i dont wanna go
>
> understandable
>> wolfie sez shill help make it better
>
> glad. you help pay attention to how it's healing :)
thay lissening to me abowt the fingur
astri
> thay dont like bandades
don't either
> but now its gitting better and they leeving it on. and we got a
> spesul bandade. it stays on lots. it hurts lots less nwo. i can rite
> and culur agin
> :)
yay
> its not all bettur yet. i hope it gits all better.
will
> it rilly is lots better tho
good
> thay lissening to me abowt the fingur
yay
Shiyiya
Do you know why? Just curious.
> but now its gitting better and they leeving it on. and we got a spesul
> bandade. it stays on lots. it hurts lots less nwo. i can rite and culur
> agin :)
>
> its not all bettur yet. i hope it gits all better.
>
> it rilly is lots better tho
:) Glad it's healing up well.
:( That sounds hard indeed. Do you know what it's making wolfie want
that? If someone told t about that she mgiht be able to help.
>
> dont wanna go back to dr
>>>>> domt wanna
>>>>> it hurt last tme
>>>>
>>>> :(
>>>>> and dont wanna mis work have fuss
>>>>> maybe thay be mad we nottake food care of fingur
>>>>
>>>> doubt they would be mad. but if it's infected and gets left and
>>>> worse you could get sick :/ do you have neosporin or something to
>>>> put on it to help against the infection, at least?
>>>
>>> it hurt last time. i dont wanna go
>>
>> understandable
>>> wolfie sez shill help make it better
>>
>> glad. you help pay attention to how it's healing :)
>
> thay lissening to me abowt the fingur
Glad :)
Shay of confuzzled
> On Sun, 13 Dec 2009, Shay of confuzzled wrote:
>
>> thay dont like bandades
>
> don't either
>
>> but now its gitting better and they leeving it on. and we got a
>> spesul bandade. it stays on lots. it hurts lots less nwo. i can rite
>> and culur agin
>> :)
>
> yay
i wanna culur
>
>> its not all bettur yet. i hope it gits all better.
>
> will
>
>> it rilly is lots better tho
>
> good
>
>> thay lissening to me abowt the fingur
>
> yay
>
and its almsot all the way bettur! :) :) :)
Shay of confuzzled
i dunno
sumbody sez we dont need it
and wolfie tries to hide it
>> but now its gitting better and they leeving it on. and we got a spesul
>> bandade. it stays on lots. it hurts lots less nwo. i can rite and
>> culur agin :)
>>
>> its not all bettur yet. i hope it gits all better.
>>
>> it rilly is lots better tho
>
> :) Glad it's healing up well.
:) lots lots lots better :)
charlie told t
astri
> i wanna culur
they gonna make time for that?
>>> thay lissening to me abowt the fingur
>>
>> yay
>>
> and its almsot all the way bettur! :) :) :)
:)
Shay of confuzzled
> On Sun, 20 Dec 2009, Shay of confuzzled wrote:
>
>> i wanna culur
>
> they gonna make time for that?
i dunno. not yet
i git to go sleding with n :)
astri
:)
Shay of confuzzled
> On Mon, 21 Dec 2009, Shay of confuzzled wrote:
>> astri wrote:
>>> On Sun, 20 Dec 2009, Shay of confuzzled wrote:
>>>
>>>> i wanna culur
>>>
>>> they gonna make time for that?
>>
>> i dunno. not yet
>>
>> i git to go sleding with n :)
>
> :)
>
astri
:)
Shay of confuzzled
> On Mon, 21 Dec 2009, Shay of confuzzled wrote:
>> astri wrote:
>>> On Mon, 21 Dec 2009, Shay of confuzzled wrote:
>>>>
>>>> i git to go sleding with n :)
>>>
>>> :)
>>>
>> we gonna play!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>
> :)
>
Shiyiya
Bandaids usually not a matter of need, is a matter of precaution. Things
will usually heal eventually even without, but it'll take longer and is
more likely to get hurt again or get infected. Bandaid is a precaution
so it's easier for the skin to heal.
What did t have to say about it?
Shay of confuzzled
we tocked abowt wolfie
shes gonna hide in her treehowse for now
t sez she hopes she can tock more with wolfie
shes sorry she made wolfie feel wurs
i told her how wolfie took pink pills last nite and woodnt let us eet
dinner or brekfesgt
Shiyiya
Think it's good you told t. She can help. Hope wolfie feels better after
hiding. Have you eaten today?
Shay of confuzzled
i hope wolfie filss bettur
we ate lunch and dinner. and i got desurt :)
Shiyiya
:) What did you have for desert? I had a candy cane earlier. It was a
weird one flavoured like sweettart candies, but it was good.
Shay of confuzzled
it waz peenut buttr fuj.
Shiyiya
Yum!!