saa meeting
Jennifer Thomas
just bein careful.
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told my sex addicts group tonight
bout getting 4 days clean time from
cybersex - they said that was
impressive. told 'em i'm currently at
1 day clean from cyber. *grimaces*
told 'em i'd been thinking bout my
daddy dom - didn't call him that there -
"with predictable results", and that he
came online shortly thereafter and i
started talking to him, likewise "with
predictable results".
told the group that "Daddy" and I were
talking about meeting next week, not
for a play date, but to meet and discuss
a possible play date in the near future.
my feedback included advice about not
trying to get into a relationship too soon,
which made me realize something, which
i said "Oh - the fact that it's a 'play date'
we're considering, and not, like, a real
relationship kinda date should tell me
everything i need to know, right? I mean,
he's married."
so...um...yeah. I think i need to give up
my daddy dom, too.
not so sure i need to take the far more
drastic step of giving up the internet
*completely*!!!! ...but it sounds like it
might be time for me to count my official
"clean time" from the day I gave up cyber
for good...which might be today.
next i gotta give up alcohol again, and i'll
be fine. should be easy: i only drink expensive
liqueuers and i'm too cheap to keep buying it.
one good computer game addiction and i'll be
*fine*, i tell ya... but the point is to give up
all of the addictions and live a normal, healthy
life.
...
*BUAHH HAHH HAHHHH!!!!!!!!* *wipes streaming
eyes* gawd, that's a good one! :) haven't
laughed like that in ages!
's gonna be alright.
and i'm at 34 days since i was insanely stupid and
"random"; 30 days since i stopped actively pursuing
my addiction, and 1 day since i cybered.
i know i'm the only one who cares about the numbers,
but considering yesterday i was talking about toppling
that first number as early as next week, in addition
to killing my 4 days clean from cyber, i think i'm doing
ok.
jt
ps: i also posted this on the aspie site i frequent.