bad anxiety day (pet)
cometz
like paying for pet food or putting things in car, we are so anxious
and hyper self conscious that we shake and try to laugh like it is
nothing but it all gets worse and gets upset inside. get in car and
shaking all over. feel stupid stupid stupid. even when home hands are
all over shaking and waving. know it is kat and she is talking and
talking but not loud enough for me to hear and the neck feels like it
is made of wood and the head aches and aches and i just want to be all
gone. no more. is bad bad. sorry.
know we are prolly getting worse cause of bad time of year with no
sun. also cause of working on stuff that we believe is dangerous.
old cat is not doing well and we go on thursday to vet. will prolly
have to have an xray. job we scheduled to care for cats fell thru.
$200 we don't have. have money stuck away to be safe in january cause
things will be worse then. now have to use some for old cat. worried
about him. scared about all of us. if something doesn't change may
have to give up one animal. maybe two. can't think on it. has to get
ok. looking for jobs only just get triggered badly reading the ads.
think of trying to go in and act ok is not possible right now.
just want to fold up and d*e. really. just be gone gone.
sorry.
astri
:(
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confuzzled
> have that stupid thing where we get all jittery so everything we do,
> like paying for pet food or putting things in car, we are so anxious
> and hyper self conscious that we shake and try to laugh like it is
> nothing but it all gets worse and gets upset inside. get in car and
> shaking all over. feel stupid stupid stupid. even when home hands are
> all over shaking and waving. know it is kat and she is talking and
> talking but not loud enough for me to hear and the neck feels like it
> is made of wood and the head aches and aches and i just want to be all
> gone. no more. is bad bad. sorry.
>
> know we are prolly getting worse cause of bad time of year with no
> sun. also cause of working on stuff that we believe is dangerous.
>
but work on stuff in long run make it better
> old cat is not doing well and we go on thursday to vet. will prolly
> have to have an xray. job we scheduled to care for cats fell thru.
> $200 we don't have. have money stuck away to be safe in january cause
> things will be worse then. now have to use some for old cat. worried
> about him. scared about all of us. if something doesn't change may
> have to give up one animal. maybe two. can't think on it. has to get
> ok. looking for jobs only just get triggered badly reading the ads.
> think of trying to go in and act ok is not possible right now.
>
:( is awful. wish we could help. wish you'd let us help
our old cat not doing well either. will have to get her to vet soon.
when we get car fixed.
a, thinking maybe this time she just done. but we thought that before
and she always surprised us and vet. dunno.
> just want to fold up and d*e. really. just be gone gone.
>
> sorry.
understand feel the same
astri
> our old cat not doing well either. will have to get her to vet soon.
> when we get car fixed.
lots stress
> a, thinking maybe this time she just done. but we thought that before
> and she always surprised us and vet. dunno.
uncertainty really hard
>> just want to fold up and d*e. really. just be gone gone.
>>
>> sorry.
>
> understand feel the same
:(
confuzzled
> On Wed, 16 Dec 2009, confuzzled wrote:
>
>> our old cat not doing well either. will have to get her to vet soon.
>> when we get car fixed.
>
> lots stress
I almost took her to vet klast saturday but she didn't seem
uncomfortable she just wasnt eating. then she was eating too but now
shes not eating andd she seems uncomfortble
>
>> a, thinking maybe this time she just done. but we thought that before
>> and she always surprised us and vet. dunno.
>
> uncertainty really hard
>
:/
>>> just want to fold up and d*e. really. just be gone gone.
>>>
>>> sorry.
>>
>> understand feel the same
>
> :(
>
sorry
astri
> astri wrote:
>> On Wed, 16 Dec 2009, confuzzled wrote:
>>
>>> our old cat not doing well either. will have to get her to vet
>>> soon. when we get car fixed.
>>
>> lots stress
>
> I almost took her to vet klast saturday but she didn't seem
> uncomfortable she just wasnt eating. then she was eating too but now
> shes not eating andd she seems uncomfortble
much regrets
>>> a, thinking maybe this time she just done. but we thought that
>>> before and she always surprised us and vet. dunno.
>>
>> uncertainty really hard
>>
> :/
>>>> just want to fold up and d*e. really. just be gone gone.
>>>>
>>>> sorry.
>>>
>>> understand feel the same
>>
>> :(
>>
> sorry
is hard
mags
sorry things are so hard, this is very difficult time of year for us
also. hope your kitty will be ok, pets are such an important part of
our life and having just lost our beloved Kobe dog last spring can
very much relate. Money stuff...ungh!! hate hate hate dealing with
money, or more accurately the lack there of!
keepin' on
sum of mags
astri
> keepin' on
> sum of mags
hi
confuzzled
> On Wed, 16 Dec 2009, confuzzled wrote:
>> astri wrote:
>>> On Wed, 16 Dec 2009, confuzzled wrote:
>>>
>>>> our old cat not doing well either. will have to get her to vet
>>>> soon. when we get car fixed.
>>>
>>> lots stress
>>
>> I almost took her to vet klast saturday but she didn't seem
>> uncomfortable she just wasnt eating. then she was eating too but now
>> shes not eating andd she seems uncomfortble
>
> much regrets
>
she not eating her dinner
she hates the meds the vet gave us
<sigh>
confuzzled
astri
isn't easy