message in a bottle
Arcadia70
theresa is having ahard time. i try to be honest and he doesn't listen to her.
she trys to explain but he blocks me out. i don't really csre. and neither does
he. she tryies so hard to see his point of view. i try to help him understand
the diease. it is hell on earth. surely there is something better. i had her
call the docter. she was arfraid to ask for help. what if he doesn't listen.
she deeds to be on disability. she tries to work and she gets lost sometimes or
works so hard and mindlessly that the paain in her arms makes her cry her self
to sleep.
i try to keep my mask on and say my prayers and honor my god and not bother
people. why dh won;t help her. i try to explain i don't want sympathy i am
tough but, she is dying on inside.it is not her fault she is bpolar
she took 4 musle realxers to cslm down. the dishes need to be done, she will do
them that is her job here. she will do her job and try not to be an
inconvience.
i tried to explain about cheacking acct and the paranoia.but, if i break up the
past he gets $20 becasue we don't do inventory i tried to explain i was wrong
and misinterpted the info. i wasn't lying. but, he has lyed so long. why is
that okay
my arms are numb but i need to clean back yard and rite bills.
she is just asking for help. ssi ppl said everyone has stress. she cried ,no
was listening, i love my kids. i look thrugh the fogg. can't go to pdoc in
evening son has boyscouts and dh is taking disabeled son to movies.i don't
sympathy, i'm sorry i am disabled. she tries so hard. and i help her.why is n't
it enough.
she puts on the mascara and make up. i don't want o both people. iam sorry
Lynda
Hi Treasa,
> i send this out cause i don't know where i'll be.
I am sorry I missed your call :(
> theresa is having ahard time. i try to be honest and he doesn't listen to
> her. she trys to explain but he blocks me out. i don't really csre. and
> neither does he. she tryies so hard to see his point of view. i try to
> help him understand the diease. it is hell on earth. surely there is
> something better. i had her call the docter. she was arfraid to ask for
> help. what if he doesn't listen. she deeds to be on disability. she tries
> to work and she gets lost sometimes or works so hard and mindlessly that
> the paain in her arms makes her cry her self to sleep. i try to keep my
> mask on and say my prayers and honor my god and not bother people. why dh
> won;t help her. i try to explain i don't want sympathy i am tough but,
> she is dying on inside.it is not her fault she is bpolar she took 4 musle
> realxers to cslm down. the dishes need to be done, she will do them that
> is her job here. she will do her job and try not to be an inconvience. i
> tried to explain about cheacking acct and the paranoia.but, if i break up
> the past he gets $20 becasue we don't do inventory i tried to explain i
> was wrong and misinterpted the info. i wasn't lying. but, he has lyed so
> long. why is that okay
His lying is not okay.
> my arms are numb but i need to clean back yard and rite bills. she is just
> asking for help. ssi ppl said everyone has stress. she cried ,no was
> listening, i love my kids. i look thrugh the fogg. can't go to pdoc in
> evening son has boyscouts and dh is taking disabeled son to movies.i don't
> sympathy, i'm sorry i am disabled. she tries so hard. and i help her.why
> is n't it enough. she puts on the mascara and make up. i don't want o both
> people. iam sorry
Please call your pdoc ASAP.
Apply for SSDI. You need some respite my friend.
Love,
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Lynda (Lyn...@bigfoot.com)
Arcadia70
want to inconveince my family or worry my son who is now being evaluated for
bp.
the last time i planned out a suicide i found out mother in law was coming over
and i cancelled plans to fix dinner. the next week though, when more calm i
realized i had a problem and did not want o die. long old story many have
heard.. i was later diagnosed as bp.
pdoc impolred me to hang on, it was chemical imbalance.
but, if one more normie tells me everyone has stress i am going to screamm or
something more drastic
t.
B.Ralph
normie who thinks Bi-Polar is something that you can "wish" away or
ignore or is just like what he/she/it goes through. You should have
been here the day I threw the leaders of my Church out of my
apartment. I think the one idiot is still in shock, about a year
later. I have an illness, not a sin, not stress, not learned behavior,
and not a character flaw. It is an illness. I recieve medical
treatment, I work hard to overcome this; and my life still sux at
times. Oh well, enough of my ramblings; just wanted to let you know
that I do understand what you are saying. Hugs Ralph
Linda Channell
mother who is making a real effort to understand. At one time,
"treated" too I might add... I became delulsional... I decided that the
power of the mind was the most powerful thing on earth. I decided that
I would heal my own eyesight. And damnit, it worked. It truly did. I
concentrated so hard for a specific amount of time per day, and after a
time I was able to throw away my glasses, thus "healing" myself. Guess
what? Now, after bragging to people that I did this, they wonder why I
can't heal being bipolar.
I can't win.
BIG hugs to you Ralph!
Linda
Brite
Arcadia70
all. i was os detached and confused in pdoc office. i managed to say samething
to pdoc.
i am not feeling sorry fpr myself.
when my son was in a constant dying mode and i had given dnr orders i wanted
cnn's coverage on hati. there was so much sadness but, helped me realize i was
blessed. my son had medicine and access to a great hossssspital ..cedaar saini
in la. his doctors are nationally known and very good.
i told him i know 3/4s of the world is hungry. but, i try harder than many
normies would to cope. i work in the garden hurting my arms and back to forget
my emotions. my garden is my preseent creative expredsion, hurts to much to
paint. what if i find out i can't paint any more...
what if the ssdi people try so hard to screw me again. there drs. lied. i
can't fight lying. i hate lying.
t.
Lynda
Hi Treasa,
> pdoc changed meds. i didnot want go into hopsital as he wanted me to. i
> don't want to inconveince my family or worry my son who is now being
> evaluated for bp.
Please let us know what happens.
> the last time i planned out a suicide i found out mother in law was coming
> over and i cancelled plans to fix dinner. the next week though, when more
> calm i realized i had a problem and did not want o die. long old story
> many have heard.. i was later diagnosed as bp. pdoc impolred me to hang
> on, it was chemical imbalance. but, if one more normie tells me everyone
> has stress i am going to screamm or something more drastic
No....I am not going to tell you that.
Please write soon.
Love,
> t.
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Lynda (Lyn...@bigfoot.com)
Lynda
Hi Treasa,
> actualy a appreciatr thr rsambling i am so medicated right now, you said
I will pray that all is well.
Please take care of yourself.
Love,
--
Lynda (Lyn...@bigfoot.com)