I'v been in what I call the low years (some depression but
more low in way of delusions and also low creativity)
since Jan. 29, 1996. In recent days I have asked for
healing workings. prayers, spells and meditations from
others (they would be welcome from you too) in various
newsgroups, towards ending my low (or wilderness) years.
After that I have started feeling more clear-headed and
also I am having far fewer spontaneous perineum clicks
(which started not long after the low years started).
So I have now resolved to ignore any future such
spontaneous perineum clicks and not to seek any
non-spontaneous clicks through divination. I also
feel a bit more relaxed.
If I also had voices and/or visions in addition to the
delusions (or psychosis in the extreme) I would be
diagnosed as schizoaffective, but I am diagnosed as
bipolar. I take 900 mg lithium carbonate/day (for
a lithium blood level of about 0.7), which is a lot
less than I needed for the same level when I was
younger, and 10 mg olanzapine/day, which I hope to
reduce to 5 mg/day eventually.
Right now my psychiatrist's office is closed for an
extended period and I am being monitored by my
family doctor (but luckily my mental health is
good these days; note that I am less eccentric
offline than online). I don't plan to reduce the
olanzapine until I see my usual psychiatrist again
or another psychiatrist.
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David Dalton dal...@nfld.com http://www.nfld.com/~dalton (home page)
http://www.nfld.com/~dalton/nf.html Newfoundland&Labrador Travel & Music
http://www.nfld.com/~dalton/dtales.html Salmon on the Thorns (mystic page)
"Here I go again...back into the flame" (Sarah McLachlan)
