ok, prayer or good thoughts requested
Nann Bell
2.5 years ago, I had a chest/abd. CT that showed some very small spots on the
lungs. I was referred to a pulmonologist to check them out ad he said they
were so small they could be from anything and there was no need to follow up
unless I developed some kind of problems.
Fast forward to my new RD who I saw on the 8th. He saw the mention of those
spots in my records and decided he wanted baseline chest films as well as
hand and foot films. I had the X rays done Thursday when my labwork was
done.
Friday morning my PCP's office called after he saw his copy of the Xray
reports. There was something on the chest films that he wants to get a CT of
"to make sure there's nothing there" and they didn't want to wait unil we
return from our Christmas trip on Jan. 6th. The CT is set up for 5 pm
Monday. Fortunately, they were able to pull my serum from Thursday's labs to
run the pre-CT tests so I didn't have to get stuck again.
Usually stuff like this doesn't worry me much. As long as I'm feeling fine
(well, fine for being ill!), I figure we're just checking things out or
tracking down some quirk of my body. This time though, I've been fretting
about it. I can't believe there's anything to really worry about - I've been
working out, including long periods on the cross-trainer and I can tll you my
lung function s good! But I can't shake this ominous feeling. Maybe it's
just because I'm aready a bit down as we're facing our first Christmas
without Mother. I hope that's it. But the fact that I can't help worrying
worries me even more! Heck, I wasn't this worried when they found a new mass
in my abdomen - I just knew it was benign and all would be fine. (as it was)
So whatever prayers and peaceful thoughts you can spare would be appreciated.
Whether it's something or not, it's certainly asmptomatic so it should work
out ok which I know but I just keep fretting this time.....
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Nann
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Squirrely
hope it is all something simple to take care of.
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ANN M
a new doc wanting to double check what was found in the past?
Ann
loujeanb
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"Nann Bell" <hanbell...@earthlink.net> wrote in message
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Kelly
situations for any of us?? This has to be a routine ct that they needed to
schedule because no one else took the spot. I refuse to think anything else
at hte moment. The pain is that you probably won't get the results until
the New Year anyways since you are going away. So I tell you - leave the
prayer machine/good thought machine to us and relax. we will do the
worrying for you.
this is going to be a different year for you and there will be some sad
moments. The first time without my dad was so tough and my kids were young,
I wasn't feeling well (unbeknown to me that about the time that my RA was
kicking into gear - I was so sore and tired), and my sister, mom and brother
and his wife went to Mexico to get away from Christmas. I didn't have that
luxury. anyhow someone sent me this lovely card. I still have it - it
says...
Your life may never be the same...it may be different - not better or
worse...just different.
I think that says a lot about many of life's changes. I have found myself
looking at that card lately in a different light than when I got it. You
will miss her, Christmas may be different but try to fit in a couple of
things that you did before and add some things you didn't do.
Have a great holiday and leave the worrying to us! Shake that feeling. It is
not allowed for the next week.But be sure to let us know results as we will
be hoping for only the very best of the results.
Kelly
"Nann Bell" <hanbell...@earthlink.net> wrote in message
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Diane
Still have it a little, but much better. Do you remember that thread I
started on "how do you cope with anxiety?" Here's the link. It really
helped me so much to see how others cope and to feel unalone.
The other thing I'd add to all those comments in that thread and that
has really helped me recently is Mindfulness. I've always been a fan
of Thich Nhat Hanh's writing, but reading a particular one of his
books, "No Fear, No Death" (or vice cersa--can't remember!) really
helped center me the past couple of weeks as I faced the icky surgery
and other medical stuff. Just know we've all been there and understand
that uncomfortable "why am I not coping the way I usually do?"
feeling. I think it's great your doctor wants to get this done now, so
you can have it behind you for your trip and hopefully all answers
will be good ones. you're in my thoughts and prayers.
diane
APBarna
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> So whatever prayers and peaceful thoughts you can spare would be appreciated.
> Whether it's something or not, it's certainly asmptomatic so it should work
> out ok which I know but I just keep fretting this time.....
Sending Good Thoughts,
{{{{Nann}}}}
GrampaHugs,
Alex,
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But it might be interesting reading anyway. Especially
if a person already has problems with their immune
system being inadequately directed, not being able to
discriminate between self and nonself, such as with
Crohn's, MS, RA, SLE, etc. Or being able to do its
job of discriminating cancerous growths from what's
supposed to be there. After all, that is the primary duty
of the immune system.
loujeanb
what is so wonderful about this group. We bring up a different way of
looking at things.
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Navy
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"Kelly" <kell...@shaw.ca> wrote in message
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Nann Bell
(in message <28818-4B2...@baytvnwsxa002.msntv.msn.com>):
> Prayers will be said for you starting tonight. Could this be a case of
> a new doc wanting to double check what was found in the past?
>
> Ann
>
The spots from before were small enough they hadn't been seen on xrays so
this must be at least somewhat larger. They were seen only on CT before. I
was so hopeful of having fewer doctors' appointments for a while. I just
hope this doesn't end up with me having to acquire yet another new
specialist....
Nann Bell
(in message <iKhXm.67783$Wd1....@newsfe15.iad>):
> Okay Nann. Stop the fretting. Remember when I said no more crisis
> situations for any of us?? This has to be a routine ct that they needed to
> schedule because no one else took the spot. I refuse to think anything else
> at hte moment.
Yes, m'am! I'll take what you say over that tone of urgency that came
through in the call. LOL
The pain is that you probably won't get the results until
> the New Year anyways since you are going away.
Actually, she was trying to get it scheduled early in the week so they *will*
get the report in. We have a good balance here between smallish town and a
hospital hooked in to a major system so stuff is read and faxed quickly.
I see my new RD again on Tuesday - the one who ordered the Xrays. It should
be interesting.
> this is going to be a different year for you and there will be some sad
> moments.
There are some family things going on that make it even harder than we
expected it to be. Perhaps we can get my sister to move further along in
setling into Mother's house and making more decisions about some of the
stuff. She says she has't done much that way since I left in September.
> Your life may never be the same...it may be different - not better or
> worse...just different.
>
> I think that says a lot about many of life's changes.
how true....... how very true.....
> Have a great holiday and leave the worrying to us! Shake that feeling.
I'm less frantic, but am reconciled more than at peace. I don't fear
anything as dreadful as cancer but I still have the feeling there's gonna be
something that has to be addressed. Sure hope I'm totally off base though.
What better time to be wrong? I'm just tired of additional stuff cropping up
- too many of you know htat feeling all too well.
Nann Bell
It always has before but I just can't get a read on things this time. It
will be good to know the next step at least before we go. I've not mentioned
this to the family beyond Mike as it's been a hard year. I want to wait until
we have more of a handle on whether we shold worry and *what* we should worry
about!
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Nann
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On Sat, 19 Dec 2009 23:55:41 -0500, Diane wrote
(in message
<d288d004-17fe-4e4c...@d10g2000yqh.googlegroups.com>):
Kelly
with a couple right now but absolutely refuse to be upset about it. Too
much other crap going on and darn this is going to be a good or at least as
good as it can be Christmas. Glad you will get the results before you go
though. Do be sure to let us know as we will all be worrying alongside you
and praying like mad that it isn't anything serious.
As for the family stuff say no more. I just phoned to wish my sister inlaw
a merry christmas. Shouldn't have - should have known I couldn't keep my
bloody mouth shut. Of course I brought up how hurt I was over everything at
my fil's funeral. And over all this darn break up. I should know - I have
been trying so hard to keep what little dignity I have over this breakup
stuff. I said way more than I should have - should have just kept my hurt
feelings about her to myself. But that is enough.
Family dynamics in a tough time are hard. Hopefully your holidays will be
as best as it can be and some of those problems will slowly work their way
out. Unfortunately Christmas so often brings out the worst of the family
and personal stuff. Too much going on, too much food and in some cases a
little alcohol, the uncle no one really likes, expectations.
For a season that is suppose to be wonderful it sometimes gets bogged down
in "stuff". This year I am trying hard to sluff off some of that stuff and
make it as simple and as good as it can be. Obviously though I have to say
my "be a good sport and a great person and phone your sil and wish her Merry
Christmas" kind of blew up in my face. So it is over and will just leave it
there.
But the rest of it - we will keep the prayers up that this is nothing! Or
at least maybe something that explains everything else - wouldn't that be
lovely! Maybe she is giving you an early christmas present of a simple
explanation for the stuff that is happening to your body.
that would make my christmas if that is what this is. There has been too
much up in the air diagnosis stuff for my liking.
Hang in there Nann. Grab a coloured rope I have woven and hang on.
Kelly
"Nann Bell" <hanbell...@earthlink.net> wrote in message
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Squirrely
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Love Squirrely Jo
> Back when I was worked up for the protein non-absorption problems on