September 17 report
Richard
First the bad news, then the good news.
I was getting a bit frustrated with Tanya, the girl in my painting
class, because she was acting liked she liked me, as far as I could
tell, but she was giving me excuses for not going out with me, which
were probably untrue. I think maybe she's just paranoid because she
wants to see if she can trust me before she goes out with me. Maybe
she was raped before, I don't know. So then what happened was, on
Monday I called this girl, Natalie, who works at an art store. I asked
her for a date, even though I didn't really like her all that much,
because I just wanted to have someone to spend time with while I kept
working on Tanya. I thought Natalie was a sure bet, but when I asked
her out, she said "no" in a laughing tone of voice. So after I hung up
the phone, I was really furious. Everytime something like this
happens, it's a huge bodyblow to my ego. I threw a mug at the wall cuz
I wanted to break something. Well unfortunately, it made a hole in the
wall, so now I have to fix that. Next time I'll throw something at the
cinderblock wall outside. I hate that bitch Natalie now. I thought she
acted like she liked me, but then she fucking laughs at me like I'm a
loser when I ask her out. I fucking hate her guts! I had a fantasy of
setting her on fire!!! That felt good! I was tempted to call her back
and say "fuck you!"
Now the good news, or at least I hope it's good news. Tanya
still is acting like she likes me. I was going to give her tons of
kino tonight, but I only did it once. I'm mad at myself. I'll try
again next time. One intriguing thing: she asked me if my parents
drove me to class or if I had a car. I said I had a car. I didn't
think anything of it at the time, but now I realize that maybe she
asked me that because she was going to offer me a ride!!! Man that
would be great if that's what she was thinking. I LOVE her. I want to
spend the rest of my life with her. I asked her if she was going to
take oil painting next semester, and she asked me what the
prerequisites are. I said just the beginning painting class we're
taking right now, and that I'm going to take oil painting next
semester. Then she said "all right! I'm going to take that class with
you!" Well this sounds like another positive sign that she likes me.
If I'm right, she was just paranoid before because she's scared of
guys who she doesn't know very well. I guess that's kind of reasonable
considering that 25% of women get raped. But I think she's starting to
see that I'm not a dangerous guy who's going to hurt her. I'm just a
nice, intelligent person who likes making art and wants a girlfriend.
I think she's getting more comfortable with me. Hopefully soon I can
spend time with her outside of class. I'm thinking of asking her to
car pool with me to painting class. She lives only 3 miles from me and
her apartment is on the way to the college. I could pick her up and we
could go to class together. That woulld be cool. She hasn't decided
her major yet, but I hope to convince her to be an art major like me
and take as many of the same classes as possible with ME. That would
be really cool, having the girl I love sitting next to me in a lot of
my classes in the future. I am praying and crossing my fingers that
Tanya becomes my girlfriend. It would make me so happy and end my pain
and loneliness, hopefully forever.
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echelon
> I was getting a bit frustrated with Tanya, the girl in my painting
> class, because she was acting liked she liked me, as far as I could
> tell, but she was giving me excuses for not going out with me, which
> were probably untrue. I think maybe she's just paranoid because she
> wants to see if she can trust me before she goes out with me. Maybe
> she was raped before, I don't know.
wow, kinda a big assumption dont you think? maybe she just doesnt like you
in that way?
So then what happened was, on
> Monday I called this girl, Natalie, who works at an art store. I asked
> her for a date, even though I didn't really like her all that much,
> because I just wanted to have someone to spend time with while I kept
> working on Tanya. I thought Natalie was a sure bet, but when I asked
> her out, she said "no" in a laughing tone of voice. So after I hung up
> the phone, I was really furious. Everytime something like this
> happens, it's a huge bodyblow to my ego. I threw a mug at the wall cuz
> I wanted to break something. Well unfortunately, it made a hole in the
> wall, so now I have to fix that. Next time I'll throw something at the
> cinderblock wall outside. I hate that bitch Natalie now. I thought she
> acted like she liked me, but then she fucking laughs at me like I'm a
> loser when I ask her out. I fucking hate her guts! I had a fantasy of
> setting her on fire!!! That felt good! I was tempted to call her back
> and say "fuck you!"
you're sick! get help..seriously...all that anger is not normal..
good luck man, just dont do anything too irrational, you've got all the time
in the world!
Dan
> be really cool, having the girl I love sitting next to me in a lot of
> my classes in the future. I am praying and crossing my fingers that
> Tanya becomes my girlfriend. It would make me so happy and end my pain
> and loneliness, hopefully forever.
You are posting in the wrong newsgroup my friend. This would suite
more in alt.romance or alt.singles or something like that.
Sknnydppr
First of all...anger is pretty common with AFCs, I actually think its more
Frustration than anger.
First when you asked Natalie out you could have been a weasel and said... what
would you say if i asked you out...and then when she laughed you could have
laughed and said...yeah..thats why i would never do it....you going out with
ME..thats funny.
that could have helped you out...
And the car thing...Maybe she was asking you if you had a car...just to see if
you could Drive HER places....not to offer you a ride.
Read some material here and there...and learn to set anchors