So, there I was, on the Freewinds with an "Invitation" to do New
O.T.8! The top of the Bridge had finally been reached and I was about
to get my real O.T. abilities!! that is what all the films, ads,
brochures, and registrars had promised!
I set off for the courseroom in the front of the ship with a view of
the poop deck. Invitation in hand, I showed it to the guard at the
double doors, took my entry magnetic card and slid it into the
security swipe-machine. I got a green light and entered.
The courseroon was relatively large and light due to the numerous
windows. I went to the supervisor, Alice, who had also been my
supervisor on O.T7 in previous years. She welcomed me and took me to
the course administration window to get a course pack to use for
studying. It was explained that, due to an electronic security system,
I had only 30 seconds to get my pack "plugged in again" at my study
table before alarms would sound. I thought this was kind of exciting
and that it must mean a rare and powerful set of materials was being
so heavily protected. Wow!!
I got it plugged in at my space within the time limit and eagerly
opened the pack. Let's see.....ok....it starts off with "Keeping
Scientology Working" Policy Letter...no surprise there. Then the usual
parade of basic course Policy Letters, ok, then Training routines,
E-meter drills all 3 times through, yikes..again???....and a book "A
History of Man" to read. Ok, so where;s NEW O.T8 stuff??? I dared to
inquire of Alice "where the beef was", so to speak, and she said with
a knowing smile...."in pack number 2!" Groan....I had to do all this
well-worn and over-familiar stuff for weeks before I could get to pack
#2??? Darn!! Oh well, "the way out is the way through" so I swallowed
my disappointment and got to douing the usual drills. I was twinned
with Craig Jensen and John Coale (Greta Van Susteren's husband) as
I think it took something like 10 days to 2 weeks to get through pack
#1. However, I did not miss seeing that others studying pack #2 had a
skinny set of papers to study, and were not "over the moon" about what
was in there....in fact they were asking questions like "where's the
rest?", is this all there is? and how do I do this auditing, as it
seems too simple to be all there is...?" They were suitably hushed-up
by Alice, and "handled" with referral 100% to their written materials
and no verbal explanations.
When my time came to get the vastly POWERFUL (supposedly) N*E*W*
*O*T* *8* pack #2 I was excited, but not too much any more. I had
already seen other students come back from auditing it and they were
mostly not much different from before... Some did exhibit big smiles
and laughter, for sure, but I had seen them do that on several other
auditing levels too while at Flag.
Pack#2 was indeed a skinny set of around 12 pages only. Not much
"meat" to it... For details on the procedure, Ariane Jackson has
already posted it to the internet years ago, so my repeating it here
would be redundant and un-necessary. I am sure someone will oblige and
post the relevant url of the Google or web link for Ariane's posting.
It was very accurate and complete, even if very short.
So, I went off to audit the level and had some wins along the way, but
was no longer expecting very much. I audited for a few days and
eventually had a win that was simple yet, to me, powerful. I saw how
"simple" I was as a spiritual being. Not complex just simple (but not
dumb, though the length of time it took me to see I had been scammed
might make others believe so,.....lol). Well, I was invited to attest
the level and did so. It came up once in a deposition, and was stated
as "I now know who I am not, and am interested in finding oput who I
am". that was IT. I did feel really good at finding out how simple a
spiritual being can be, but there were NO O.T.POWERS that I had been
so extremely keen on attaining!!! Oh Nooooo!! Of course, everything
was hush-hush and I couildn't say anything about the level being so
"light" on actual content without getting slammed as a group memeber,
and i could not afford any more "reviews and ethics handlings with
ship accommodations at around $140 a day!
I was "announced" at a festive event in the cabaret room, and gave the
wins I felt at that time. I was happy to have done all I could do and
to have finally "made it". I did enjoy the fact that I had finally
reached the end of the available "Bridge?" and that now I could get on
with life instead of struggling up new levels and ridding myself of
another few million space alien spirits, though.
P.S. IF they WERE really trapped alien spirits, sprites, beings or
entities and not just figments of the imagination or invisible Orcs
from Mordor (lol), the my best guess as to how many I "released" from
1981 to 1990 is approximately 4 or 5 Billion (4,500,000,000), maybe
more, from my body and from my electronic field aura and from other
locations near, far and miscellaneously positioned across the
universe. Being "thetans" or "static" or "life units" they don't take
up much space but they could be a pain in the butt, or wherever else
they may have been "lodged. If I actually did all that then I cleaned
house in a whole lot of places.
My biggest objection was always..."Why do *I* have to pay so much
money to free up other "beings" who go free at no cost?" The usual
staff response to my question was a disapproving look and a resounding
silence, rather like a big firework display of O.T abilities that
never takes place.
I did a lot of costly spiritual self-cleaning along the way. I got
cleaned out financially too, but that is par for the course as a
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I would like to thank those who have read all the postings under the
MPES series so far. It is actually therapeutic for me to finally post
my story as fully as possible (all the while bearing relevancy and
reader interest in mind) as emotional, mental, financial and social
recovery has been a rather difficult task after the whole experience.
It is still not over.
As far as I know nobody else in the world has gone from so far down in
the depths of Scientology indoctrination (New OT8) right up to "SP7"
(a term used on alt.religion.scientology newsgroup to denote a person
who has sued Scientology) and the real self-determinism and freedom
that being OUT of Scientology so well and far has afforded me.
What follows in the several closing postings of this (MPES) series
has, I believe, never been posted before. It shows how insanely crazy
the cult got and how incredibly unworkable the "admin tech" was in my
own case of trying to obtain recourse from major injustices from 1991
to 1997.The staff of several organizations got really angry and
vindictive in its "handlings" with me when I refused to just bow down
and accept lies that were designed to break me down into compliance
with the overgrown egos of cult management and the blatant lies they
false-reported about me. I was extensively grilled on some of the
matters written in these following postings while under deposition
when I sued the cult.
It is a matter of pride for me to have actually survived thus far the
attacks, injustices and insanity of the cult's covert operations
branch that wages war in peace time and compulsively and habitually
blames their own crimes on others to try to cover their tracks. Also,
if anything untoward might "happen" to me in the future then the
record of my direct experiences with Scientology will already be
publicly available and not remain either unpublished or forgotten. Let
my experiences be a warning to others who might become or start to get
tangled in the web of cult indoctrination that Scientology uses to
ensnare and trap innocent people.
I have taken a few days off to do all these postings as I believe it
is my duty and right to post the truth on the internet to clear away
some of Scientology's world wide web of lies. Why now? you may
ask...well ever since I saw and read on the internet recently a
posting from Caroline Letkeman showing a recently discovered
"checksheet" of Scientology's "Department of Special Affairs"
(INVESTIGATIONS OFFICER FULL HAT CHECKSHEET, -OSA INT ED 508R, 1991) a
course of staff study which, I suddenly became aware of, was actually,
apparently, practised on me as a result of such materials in that
course and from 1991 and later. The main focus of the course is the
art of attacking perceived "enemies" and conducting warfare, but is
being taught by a so-called "religion". This is in tight parallel to
the terrorism of 11 September 2001 where religious fanaticism and
warfare were a deadly mix. Any country or territory that has
Scientology on it (acording to what I know and have experienced with
it) under whatever guise or "other name" is at very great risk of
infiltration, subversive agendas and outright hostile take-over, as
the agenda of Scientology is always openly stated as "world
domination". Do not take such a warning lightly. It has been brought
to you at great personal cost.
I realized that I had been the target of a determined and concerted
set of warfare attacks from Scientology like a kind of terorist
activity and decided to write about it here. In short, Scientology
had, to my mind and observation, tried to destroy or kill me by
various underhanded methods and detructive operations all planned out
in advance. I recognized patterns of attack that are recommended in
this checksheet and that I know are contained in some of the
references included. The following postings outline these attacks. I
went from a friend of scientology at the top of the "Grade Chart" to
"hunted group prey" in a very short time. It may be fascinating and
even entertaining to read about it from an office desk or armchair but
I can assure you it was no fun to live it!
My response to attack and fair game has always been to come out with
more truth and post it on the internet. Long live the truth, as it is
the friend of the honest!