An open letter to a Scientologist from an OT8
Michael Pattinson
Dear Scientologist,
I completed New OT8 in February 1990 after being in Scientology since
1973. During that period I was mainly "public" but did several years as
a staff member in Paris Org as Qual Sec. I trained up to be a C/S, FPRD
and Confessional auditor and solo auditor. I was a Scientology
celebrity as an international fine artist, creating beautiful paintings
of "visualized" music. Many Scientologists (thousands) knew me
personally from my art tours of orgs and missions in the early 1980s.
Samples of my art can be seen at www.mpattinson.photosite.com
Though you may read about how and why I actually left Scientology on
the internet (you would probably have to use a non-Scientologist's
computer, however) and see the data at
www.lermanet.com/michaelpattinson, I wanted to address a simple letter
of "Truth Revealed" to you here. After all, that is the very name of
the OT8 level.
As I read the lists of many Scientology staff names and addresses so
recently published on the world wide web (though I don't know how that
came about) I was filled with compassion at the fact of your commitment
and devotion to Scientology and its basic aims. I was also a proud
trooper for decades and was utterly convinced that Scientology was
really everything I read it was and heard it was. Peer agreement (group
ARC) was also a strong re-enforcement of my convictions and my
unrelenting in-KSW attitude that I applied very well despite it
sometimes coming back at me with counter-emotions and counter-efforts.
Like you, I too have made things go right when things looked very
bleak. I, too have spent a lot of money on services and donations that
I really could not afford. I have done the "yo-yo" exercise and stood
and applauded and cheered LRH's photo over and over again at events.
Like you I have also held back the tears of protest and dismay when
"handlings" went wrong or were off-target and waited endless
frustrating hours in waiting rooms for folders, C/s"s and D of P
interviews. I have, maybe like yourself, had serious doubts as to the
unexplainable mysterious "outnesses" in the Scientology lines and
terminals that seemed to be so quickly smothered, hurried away or
blanket-defined as "entheta". I quietly "wondered" (but better not say
anything) at seeing the sudden painful hostilities towards and
upsetting disappearances of staff members, the sadness of the RPFers or
the black hole money pit my money got sucked into so fast.
I have also had the personal wins from auditing, feelings of group ARC
in the briefings and in courses in LRH tech, admin and ethics training,
though in retrospect I could wish that they had been as permanent as my
payments were to purchase them. I have also seen the F/Ns and the VGIs
from my pc's and (in cramming) auditors from applying tech. Without
those wins along the way I would never have made it all way up the
Bridge to New OT8, as you know. Going OT is an uphill battle all the
way.
I have been in your position when my own ethics handlings went both
well or badly, when conditions were applied both to eventual wins and
to the strained "E.P" of satisfying the fixed ideas of tech or ethics
terminals who were aiming at a specific result I had to attain. I have
done conditions formulas till they were coming out of my ears, and tons
and tons of other ethics, tech and admin applications. I personally
knew the Flag Class 12 auditors from the Apollo as I trained with them
at Flag, I have known the Int Execs since they were teenagers, I have
personally known all LRH's children. I have known and frequented many
of the Scientology celebrities too.
I WENT ALL THE WAY UP THE BRIDGE (there is no available level above
New OT8).
What happened then is why I am writing this letter. I wish it was not
necessary to write this but it is. I firmly believe that Truth is a
friend to, and that lies are an enemy of survival. Yes, feel free to
investigate what I write about here...
It is truly heartbreaking for me to have to inform you that you have
been lied to, and not just in a small way. I am so, so sorry to have to
tell you this, but please bear with me.
You have been lied to regarding the "Bridge to Total Freedom" as it
does not arrive at Total Freedom. I know this because I have been there
and experienced it. OT8 is NOT Total Freedom, yet there is no more
Bridge to travel.
You may have wondered why OTs still behave in "strange" or weird ways
and still exhibit aberrated behaviors. They are on the big secret
missed withhold of not having received what LRH promised. Every non-OT
"misses" the withhold.
You have been lied to about O.T.powers. I will not go into any case
data or OT level data as it is not necessary, but I can tell you that
the advertised and promised O.T powers LRH writes about such as
telekinesis (moving objects as a thetan), perfect total recall, "clear"
of any and all aberrations, permanently Cause over Life, real-life
Cause over MEST, etc are NOT in reality delivered by Scientology (in my
direct experience and in that of many others).
You have been lied to about LRH's death, and the lies were criminally
false. The "story" about LRH deciding to causatively but regrettably
depart his body, go off to research further OT levels, etc. was very
likely a pack of lies. The coroner's report found a psychiatric drug
(Vistaril") in LRH's body after death as well as many needle marks. The
surrounding circumstances of LRH's death such as a very unkempt body,
changing his Will a day before he died, the hurried cremation, the
refusal of autopsy, all make for a very suspicious situation. LRH had
been hiding out at the Creston ranch under the false name "Jack
Mitchell" so as not to be served with lawsuits, as those who knew have
revealed.
You have been lied to about LRH's biography, and in many aspects of it,
not just a few.
Though this may seem to be shocking enough or upsetting already there
are many other big and awful lies you have been told and false data you
have been fed. In fact enough false data to fill books which expose and
clarify them. Such books as "A Piece of Blue Sky" by Jon Atack, Bare
Faced Messiah by Bent Corydon and L.Ron Hubbard Jr., L.Ron
Hubbard:Messiah or Madman?" are full of truths revealed and internal
Scientology mysteries unfurled.
The internet is a source for you to explore the truths that hundreds of
former Scientologists, some from Int Exec strata, have written and
revealed.
Truth, being made of pure Life itself can never be "entheta". It is
pure theta, even if shocking in its first impact ;like the sunshine
that dazzles the eyes of someone emerging from a deep and dark cavern,
having followed a closely taped path to nowhere but blind obedience.
But why, you may ask, not let us down slowly? Well, we who "found out"
were not let down slowly and we survived the truth and its powerful
re-orientations. So can you.
I invite you to explore the internet and finding your own freeing
truths. I ask that you open your eyes and see for yourself. I invite
you to see both sides of the Scientology coin.
For example;
www.lemanet.com
www.xenu.net
and other linked sites.
BEWARE of those who say "Do NOT look!" or try to label the truth or me,
or other brave ex-members who have the integrity to seak out despite
personal dangers as "entheta" or SP's. To my knowledge I have NOT been
declared SP, and have even asked Scientolgy terminals if there was such
a "declare" on several occasions to no avail, so I would welcome you to
be in communication with me.
I am proud to have been a companion of many, many Scientologists along
the way and I am equally proud of those who have had the guts to speak
out publicly. I regret the lies we were told and the fraud that took
advantage of our trusting good nature. I believe they must be fully
exposed and dealt with appropriately.
In closing, I salute your positive goals, your will to survive, your
bravery in facing new viewpoints and especially the divine spirit
within you that is immortal, beautiful and full of the Light that
shines as bright as the Sun. This inner Light is your real Source.
Michael Pattinson
mpattinson AT gmail DOT com
Michael Pattinson
I wrote this as I felt the need to not hold back.
I don't know how the average Scientologist would react to it but some
may find a relief from it.
I am not saying that people should send copies of this letter to
Scientologists but I have no active objection to it as long as it is
done tastefully and lovinlgly. If anyone does do this please put it on
a nice quality of paper etc, as I am an artist and it has to be nicely
presented. :))
If anyone gets feedback I would be interested in it.
Both good or bad, either way.
I just hope it helps some to WAKE UP.
Thanks
Michael.
Michael Pattinson
Some of my old-time scn friends are OUTTTTT.
:))
Larry T.
news:1131867673.7...@o13g2000cwo.googlegroups.com...
At least you don't have to worry about doing OT 9 anytime soon.
--
Larry
http://mysite.verizon.net/vzeoqz2m/scientology/
Michael Pattinson
GE
Michael if you are referring to doing OT IX what was it like doing auditing
inside of the CoS vs. outside and were there any doubts as to the validity
of the level?
Just curious.
--
Gregg
"Michael Pattinson" <mpatt...@gmail.com> wrote in message
news:1131992984.3...@g14g2000cwa.googlegroups.com...
> Already did it...LOL
>
Muldoon
This has been re-posted to alt.clearing.technology
GE
Another few questions for you...
Why did you stick around for so long in Scientology? Was it just to handle
homosexuality?
Did you get any benefit at all from anything on the Bridge/in Scientology or
did you just feel like throwing your money and time away similar to those
guys at the casino who keep "doubling up" hoping to get somewhere?
--
Gregg
"GE" <solar_n...@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:43798185$1...@news2.lightlink.com...
Larry T.
> Michael,
>
> Another few questions for you...
>
> Why did you stick around for so long in Scientology? Was it just to handle
> homosexuality?
>
> Did you get any benefit at all from anything on the Bridge/in Scientology
> or did you just feel like throwing your money and time away similar to
> those guys at the casino who keep "doubling up" hoping to get somewhere?
>
> --
> Gregg
That is a really bad question. I know a lot of married guys who have
confided to me at the gym and elsewhere that they get blow jobs from fags!
Why? Because their hot? None of them even heard of Scientology before so
count your blessings that Michael made it all the way up to OT 8!
And guess what else? He's a big fatso!
--
Larry T.
http://mysite.verizon.net/vzeoqz2m/diary/
(SNIP)
Ball of Fluff
So've I. That's why I'm now an ex/non CofS Scientologist.
> though in retrospect I could wish that they had been as permanent as my
> payments were to purchase them. I have also seen the F/Ns and the VGIs
> from my pc's and (in cramming) auditors from applying tech. Without
> those wins along the way I would never have made it all way up the
> Bridge to New OT8, as you know. Going OT is an uphill battle all the
> way.
Right.
You know what, Michael, there's this lady on OCMB who just loves cutting and
pasting this with a strong interest in persuading Scn'ists to ditch Scn.
Even Freezoners. (very weird)
But I don't think she's really looked at the whole thing...
>
> I have been in your position when my own ethics handlings went both
> well or badly, when conditions were applied both to eventual wins and
> to the strained "E.P" of satisfying the fixed ideas of tech or ethics
> terminals who were aiming at a specific result I had to attain. I have
> done conditions formulas till they were coming out of my ears, and tons
> and tons of other ethics, tech and admin applications. I personally
> knew the Flag Class 12 auditors from the Apollo as I trained with them
> at Flag, I have known the Int Execs since they were teenagers, I have
> personally known all LRH's children. I have known and frequented many
> of the Scientology celebrities too.
>
> I WENT ALL THE WAY UP THE BRIDGE (there is no available level above
> New OT8).
>
> What happened then is why I am writing this letter. I wish it was not
> necessary to write this but it is. I firmly believe that Truth is a
> friend to, and that lies are an enemy of survival. Yes, feel free to
> investigate what I write about here...
>
> It is truly heartbreaking for me to have to inform you that you have
> been lied to, and not just in a small way. I am so, so sorry to have to
> tell you this, but please bear with me.
>
> You have been lied to regarding the "Bridge to Total Freedom" as it
> does not arrive at Total Freedom. I know this because I have been there
> and experienced it. OT8 is NOT Total Freedom, yet there is no more
> Bridge to travel.
I think the claims of OT are exaggerated, but there are gains, nonetheless.
I would be bored out of my mind to think that one level was the be all and
end all.
It's all a matter of degree anyway.
>
> You may have wondered why OTs still behave in "strange" or weird ways
> and still exhibit aberrated behaviors. They are on the big secret
> missed withhold of not having received what LRH promised. Every non-OT
> "misses" the withhold.
They didn't receive it to anywhere near the degrees implied and expressed,
sure. But they did receive and attain gains. At the end of the day, that's
really all that matters.
>
> You have been lied to about O.T.powers.
Oh, I've seen people do extraordinary things. I have done some fun things,
as well.
It's sporadic and again, it's a matter of degree, is all.
It's like that with other esoteric studies- the ones that produce any
results at all, that is.
> I will not go into any case
> data or OT level data as it is not necessary, but I can tell you that
> the advertised and promised O.T powers LRH writes about such as
> telekinesis (moving objects as a thetan), perfect total recall, "clear"
> of any and all aberrations, permanently Cause over Life, real-life
> Cause over MEST, etc are NOT in reality delivered by Scientology (in my
> direct experience and in that of many others).
He thought these were potentialities that could be realized.
I've seen nothing to disabuse me of this consideraiton.
>
> You have been lied to about LRH's death, and the lies were criminally
> false. The "story" about LRH deciding to causatively but regrettably
> depart his body, go off to research further OT levels, etc. was very
> likely a pack of lies. The coroner's report found a psychiatric drug
> (Vistaril")
It's actually an anti histamine, isn't it? But definitely seems to be used
far more as a psychiatric med than as anything else.
> in LRH's body after death as well as many needle marks. The
> surrounding circumstances of LRH's death such as a very unkempt body,
> changing his Will a day before he died, the hurried cremation, the
> refusal of autopsy, all make for a very suspicious situation. LRH had
> been hiding out at the Creston ranch under the false name "Jack
> Mitchell" so as not to be served with lawsuits, as those who knew have
> revealed.
Yes, I know all that.
>
> You have been lied to about LRH's biography, and in many aspects of it,
> not just a few.
Yes, sure.
>
> Though this may seem to be shocking enough or upsetting already there
> are many other big and awful lies you have been told and false data you
> have been fed. In fact enough false data to fill books which expose and
> clarify them. Such books as "A Piece of Blue Sky" by Jon Atack, Bare
> Faced Messiah by Bent Corydon and L.Ron Hubbard Jr., L.Ron
> Hubbard:Messiah or Madman?" are full of truths revealed and internal
> Scientology mysteries unfurled.
My bottom line is the methodology.
>
> The internet is a source for you to explore the truths that hundreds of
> former Scientologists, some from Int Exec strata, have written and
> revealed.
Sure.
Lots of truths and some stuff that isn't, so much.
>
> Truth, being made of pure Life itself can never be "entheta". It is
> pure theta, even if shocking in its first impact ;like the sunshine
> that dazzles the eyes of someone emerging from a deep and dark cavern,
> having followed a closely taped path to nowhere but blind obedience.
True.
>
> But why, you may ask, not let us down slowly? Well, we who "found out"
> were not let down slowly and we survived the truth and its powerful
> re-orientations. So can you.
>
> I invite you to explore the internet and finding your own freeing
> truths. I ask that you open your eyes and see for yourself. I invite
> you to see both sides of the Scientology coin.
Perhaps this post should be entitled open letter to a CofS member. The only
reason I say that is that Freezoners and other Indie Scn'ists already know
all that and are, as I am, primarily interested in methods.
It also would be nice to clear things up with that nut who keeps thinking
she can wean people off the Freezone. To teach people, one has to have a
clue in the first place, which she does not.
I have a question- didn't you write or forward something similar to this
before? I'm not denigrating you at all- it's just that I seem to have some
recollection of something but I'm not sure.
You've written a number of interesting things over the years that I've
enjoyed reading.
Claire
GE
news:99wef.579$Sb.368@trndny03...
Well, whatever, I really don't have a problem with him being gay or making
it to OT VIII. I was just wondering what the answers to my questions were
from his point of view.
realpch
>
> Michael,
>
> Another few questions for you...
>
> Why did you stick around for so long in Scientology? Was it just to handle
> homosexuality?
>
> Did you get any benefit at all from anything on the Bridge/in Scientology or
> did you just feel like throwing your money and time away similar to those
> guys at the casino who keep "doubling up" hoping to get somewhere?
>
> --
> Gregg
Ok, this is funny. You just compared doing the Scientology levels to
gambling *and* an addiction. Some folks around here have been saying
that for years.
Peach
barb
Do he get SP1? Show of hands? Tentacles? Flippers?
--
--barb
Chaplain,ARSCC
xenu...@netscape.net
"Imagine a church so dangerous, you must sign a release
form before you can receive its "spiritual assistance."
This assistance might involve holding you against your
will for an indefinite period, isolating you from
friends and family, and denying you access to
appropriate medical care. You will of course be billed
for this treatment - assuming you survive it. If not,
the release form absolves your caretakers of all
responsibility for your suffering and death.
Welcome to the Church of Scientology."
--Dr. Dave Touretzky
Peter Alexander
realpch
>
> realpch wrote:
>
> > GE wrote:
> >
> >>Michael,
> >>
> >>Another few questions for you...
> >>
> >>Why did you stick around for so long in Scientology? Was it just to handle
> >>homosexuality?
> >>
> >>Did you get any benefit at all from anything on the Bridge/in Scientology or
> >>did you just feel like throwing your money and time away similar to those
> >>guys at the casino who keep "doubling up" hoping to get somewhere?
> >>
> >>--
> >>Gregg
> >
> >
> > Ok, this is funny. You just compared doing the Scientology levels to
> > gambling *and* an addiction. Some folks around here have been saying
> > that for years.
> >
> > Peach
>
> Do he get SP1? Show of hands? Tentacles? Flippers?
>
> --
> --barb
I'm really liking this guy.
Peach
ida...@aol.com
paintings are wonderful - just hope he has time to keep up his good
work
Time for a visit Michael.
Take care
Ida J. Camburn
"You must have crossed the river to tell the crocodile he has bad
breath"
chinese proverb
realpch
Actually, Ida, I was saying I was getting to like GE. I've pretty much
liked him since he turned up, despite some of the stuff he's said.
As for Michael, yes, I like him too!
Best,
Peach
GE
news:437AC056...@aol.com...
I compared in principle because he spent who knows how much money and who
knows how many years attaining the highest level CoS has to offer and then
getting out. I occasionally play blackjack and am well aware of the "loser"
who keeps piling on the money in a hope to make more, but just keeps losing
it.
I don't know many people who continue with something for years and years
while pouring hundreds of thousands of dollars into it without getting one
single result.
Zinj
says...
But, according to the often chanted Scientology Mantra; until you've
tried it, you can't criticize it.
Well; Michael tried it. All of it. More of it than you. And dumped it.
Zinj
--
Villains! I say to you now! Knock off all that Evil!
- The Tick
realpch
Oh...this is so tempting! But I'll leave that one lay.
Peach
GE
--
Gregg
"Zinj" <zinj...@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:MPG.1de4a2c61...@news.day.sbcglobal.net...
But he didn't dump Scientology. He claimed he did OT IX which he can't do in
CoS but is available under the title "OT IX" in places like FZ, etc.
barb
Yes, once again, the world is loving Scientology! ;)
barb
You probably don't travel in their social circle, Gregg. That's all.
And you know, don't you, about those 'Big Wins,' that you aren't done
until you write one.
The reason people stick around is:
1. They're gullible
2. That "magic course" is always the next one.
Keith Henson
wrote:
>Michael,
>
>Another few questions for you...
>
>Why did you stick around for so long in Scientology?
Chemical brain rewards. You could ask the same thing about people who
are on addictive drugs, why to they keep taking them? and get the same
answer.
snip
>Did you get any benefit at all from anything on the Bridge/in Scientology or
>did you just feel like throwing your money and time away similar to those
>guys at the casino who keep "doubling up" hoping to get somewhere?
Not speaking for Michael, but the answer in general terms is yes.
Firing brain reward circuits is common to drugs, gambling and cults.
So people get "benefit" from scientology auditing and such that has
about the same effects as shooting drugs. A junkie would certainly
say they were getting benefit, and the same is true of someone trading
their life/money for cult rewards.
There is an article on this that has been discussed here for years.
http://groups.google.com.au/group/sci.med.nutrition/msg/c687b2d2555aca34?hl=en&
*Why* evolution wired us up this way is a slightly deeper question.
I will go into it if you ask.
Keith Henson
barb
I dunno about other addictive drugs, but if you're addicted to opiates
and you quit, you'd almost rather die, you feel so horrible.
Zinj
<snip>
> I dunno about other addictive drugs, but if you're addicted to opiates
> and you quit, you'd almost rather die, you feel so horrible.
If you're addicted to barbiturates, you quite possibly *will* die if you
suddenly quit.
Michael Pattinson
Do you think DM and TC would invite us for tea at the desert clipper
ship?