digitizing artwork
CoreyWhite
working on transfering your art to the computer and creating computer
graphics? I've got some real good art supplies for doing just that at
home now. I ordered some transparent plastic, that is chemically
treated to pick up wet media like ink, marker, paint, and air brush.
I'm using grease pencil on it now, and doing sketches that look
wonderful. Using photoshop there isn't a lot you can't do to take
whatever artwork your bring on to the computer and transform them into
totally new creations. If you want to look at my sketch just go here:
http://www.ckoogle.com/atlanta.gif
This is what the professionals are using, and even when doing
photorealistic computer graphics they are still just using basic tools
in photoshop to blend 3d models with real photos. It isn't hard at all!
And if you want a roll of this paper I have a large roll I could spare.
Or just order direct from the only company I can find that sells this
stuff:
From: http://www.dickblick.com/zz555/07/
Dura-Lar Wet Media
For all of its usefulness, acetate does cause a few headaches - ink
that won't stay, a yellow or grayish cast to old acetate, edges that
curl. The alternatives are expensive and sometimes just don't suit the
purpose.
Dura-Lar is the acetate alternative. It combines the best features of
Mylar and acetate, and offers a variety of products so that you can
purchase the film that suits your needs precisely. It is always
consistent in color and overall clarity, and won't discolor with age.
Dura-Lar is archival quality, safe for overlaying artwork, and it lays
flat. It will remain dimensionally stable for as long as you need.
Dura-Lar Wet - Specially coated on both sides to accept paint, marker,
pen, and airbrush without bleeding, crawling, or chipping. It's
available in individual sheets (larger sizes), in pads of 12 sheets
(smaller sizes), and in rolls of varying lengths and widths.
Comes in sizes big enough to paint a small mural.
Beauty
> Hi everyone, this is Corey White. Just wondering if you are still
> working on transfering your art to the computer and creating computer
> graphics? I've got some real good art supplies for doing just that at
> home now. I ordered some transparent plastic, that is chemically
> treated to pick up wet media like ink, marker, paint, and air brush.
> I'm using grease pencil on it now, and doing sketches that look
> wonderful. Using photoshop there isn't a lot you can't do to take
> whatever artwork your bring on to the computer and transform them into
> totally new creations. If you want to look at my sketch just go here:
> http://www.ckoogle.com/atlanta.gif
>
>
>
Take that picture off the Internet immediately and never put it up
again. Do you hear me? Stop. Now.
Find some girl in your town and draw her, ok? Not me. Ever again.
Nyx
CoreyWhite wrote:
> Hi everyone, this is Corey White. Just wondering if you are still
> working on transfering your art to the computer and creating computer
> graphics? I've got some real good art supplies for doing just that at
> home now. I ordered some transparent plastic, that is chemically
> treated to pick up wet media like ink, marker, paint, and air brush.
> I'm using grease pencil on it now, and doing sketches that look
> wonderful. Using photoshop there isn't a lot you can't do to take
> whatever artwork your bring on to the computer and transform them into
> totally new creations. If you want to look at my sketch just go here:
> http://www.ckoogle.com/atlanta.gif
It's still not there. I'd actually like to see this.
Nyx
CoreyWhite
She asked me to take them down, but I have redone it in color now, just
like you would see in a waking life or in a scanner darkley. So I will
link you up to it again unless she starts whining to me about how I've
"violating her again" so you may not be able to see them for long:
http://www.ckoogle.com/atlanta-in-color.gif
http://www.ckoogle.com/atlanta-black-and-white.gif
http://www.ckoogle.com/atlanta-origonal-sketch.gif
The first one I feel is the best. It and the second one are both
morphed with the photograph to create the same effect you see in the
movie A Scaner Darkley. But the origonal sketch is 100% my origonal
work. Hope you like all 3.
Beauty
hazel, like a redwood tree, green on the inside. And I am Atalanta. Put
up a link to her myth. And I give you my blessing. I used to practice
Goddess spirituality before I ran into the bishop. The Goddess and the
Bishop. There you go. Even better The Goddess Atalanta and The Vladyka
Tikhon. Ha ha! Oh yes, my eyebrows are not wild. They are groomed. And,
don't forget my left nostril is pierced and has a crystal in it. I want
a new gem for my nose. Find me something befitting a Goddess with hazel
eyes, brunette hair and ivory skin and a Roman nose, ok?
I won't whine anymore. I am on the way to being ookie spookie eye candy.
;-) How naked should I get in my pictures?
CoreyWhite
I've put up a webpage on my server now to host you. It is a tribute to
Atlanta: http://www.ckoogle.com
We will work out all the kinky details privately.
Beauty
>
>
> I've put up a webpage on my server now to host you. It is a tribute to
> Atlanta: http://www.ckoogle.com
> We will work out all the kinky details privately.
>
>
gotten to practice BDSM yet and you already making kinky pictures. I
ought to show you the latest kinky picture I drew last week. Scandalous!
I have some older kinky drawings on my flikr site. Well I am definitely
out of the closet as a submissive masochist now. Today a friend said to
me "If I were your dom... I would command you to..." and I obeyed
anyways! Yum... now if there were one just like him out there for me,
then we could get cookin'. But as he said, these things take time, and,
trust. Remember the Goddess Atalanta ran bare breasted and bare foot,
probably buck naked (no wonder they were chasing her) and beat all the
men who wished to wed her and they all lost their heads (that was the
deal) until Aphrodite intervened. That was my old religion,
pre-Christianity, the Goddess religion.
All hail Discordia
wrote:
Truthfully; The Night of the Living Dead comes to mind before A
Scanner Darkley.
--
Grant
CoreyWhite
I know this too about Atlanta. In the tarot she is the representation
of the card Justice, and even in courtrooms her image is there.
Because she represents such objectivity. I had a vision about her
before, and researched her to help with one of my friends thesis for
grad school.
I would also like to look at your latest artwork if it is online.
CoreyWhite
Well it is a low budget version, done by someone with limited talent
and skill. But that doesn't mean the art looks like a zombie. It is
in the style of a Scanner Darkley I should have said.
Beauty
and she is a Libra. I can not show you my latest artwork. I can tell
you what it is about. It is a vision of me and my master. I am afraid to
show it to you. I drew it last week while sitting in a meeting. I will
say this much. He is fully clothed and I am fully naked. He is facing
towards the viewer, and my back is to the viewer. He is sitting on a
throne and I am kneeling before him all bound up.
My brother and father have legal careers and I get along with lawyers.
In addition my community knows I am one of the few with a legalistic
mind. In fact, my intellect is seen as a two edged sword.
You are indeed clairvoyant Corey. We share this gift. But Eastern
Orthodox are not allowed to talk about it, nor disclose it. It must be
identified by others. Your vision of my naked body was not entirely off
the mark. Send it to me again, I will print it out and edit it for you.
I am thinking about sending you a photograph my daughter took of me in
my bedroom with a very sexy dress on. I wore it to church one day and a
woman said in a whisper to me "that is a very sexy dress". I never wore
it again... but if I send it to you, it will be like inviting you into
my bedroom where no man has been since I kicked my husband out. But
since you already had a vision of me naked... that is kind of going
backwards. I have print photographs going back to when I was a
teenager. I may mail you one of those.
That photograph you drew a sketch of me of was taken in my parent's
kitchen, so in essence you have captured this moment for all eternity
and displayed it to the world. Not a bad start for your devotional. ;-)
How are you feeling?
I have been hitting the caffeine, I finally broke down and bought some
coffee, and the nicotine. I was feeling so angry the other night I asked
my ex to bring me a pack of American Spirit cigarettes when he came by
to drop off something for our daughter. I told him I know how to use it
like medicine like the Native Americans, and its true, I do. He
protested at first, but then I lectured him about his vices and he
relented. He likes to think marijuana is superior to tobacco. Common
Rastafari delusion.
I have smoked one so far.
I guess my decision to war even harder against masturbation has made my
vice come out in other directions.
I have been losing weight. I here that about a few times a month, you
are losing weight. Oh well. This medication I am on causes muscle
weakness. But I kind of wanted that. I am trying to become more yin,
more feminine. I am letting this process work its course.
Atalanta was not a mother goddess. She was a maiden. You are bringing
back my lost maidenhood. Thank you.
I blind carbon copied some negative messages from some users of this
group to a dom friend and he told me what to do in order to have a more
positive peaceful experience in this group. So we can continue to
converse here now, peacefully and positively. Thank you for your
positive energy. You are restoring me to sanity!
Beauty
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Scanner_Darkly
Isn't this the author Douglas mentioned?
Synchronicity!
Did you get the idea from Douglas, or is this a separate coincidence?
Now you get to see how I live my life. Synchronicity and coincidence
abounds. I was told by an Eastern Orthodox this is not "right belief",
as I understand him, but oh well.
I have not read the book nor seen the movie, but I have emerged out of
the drug culture, so if it is, you are right on the mark.
You and I have a clairvoyant relationship, Corey. You are another soul
mate.
Now that I am using legal psychoactive drugs, things are getting better.
Don't reply to "All Hail Discordia" in regards to me.
Rosifer
CoreyWhite wrote:
> Beauty wrote:
> > CoreyWhite wrote:
> I know this too about Atlanta. In the tarot she is the representation
> of the card Justice, and even in courtrooms her image is there.
No, she isn't.
You have almost certainly confused Atalanta with Astraea. Atalanta was
a huntress in Greek mythology, whilst Astraea symbolised Justice in
Roman mythology.
Here is what Waite says regarding Justice;
"The female figure of the eleventh card is said to be Astræa, who
personified the same virtue and is represented by the same symbols.
This goddess notwithstanding, and notwithstanding the vulgarian Cupid,
the Tarot is not of Roman mythology, or of Greek either. Its
presentation of justice is supposed to be one of the four cardinal
virtues included in the sequence of Greater Arcana..."
Rosifer
CoreyWhite
And I am sure it is one of your best. You have the skill for it more
than I do, even though I may be a more creative thinker.
> My brother and father have legal careers and I get along with lawyers.
> In addition my community knows I am one of the few with a legalistic
> mind. In fact, my intellect is seen as a two edged sword.
>
And you certainly can top me, but I have one heck of a spirit. I don't
think you could ever brake it. I would just pull myself right back up.
It is because I have always had so much support and encouragement, and
I'm always smiling.
> You are indeed clairvoyant Corey. We share this gift. But Eastern
> Orthodox are not allowed to talk about it, nor disclose it. It must be
> identified by others. Your vision of my naked body was not entirely off
> the mark. Send it to me again, I will print it out and edit it for you.
I'll send it to you Atlanta.
> I am thinking about sending you a photograph my daughter took of me in
> my bedroom with a very sexy dress on. I wore it to church one day and a
> woman said in a whisper to me "that is a very sexy dress". I never wore
> it again... but if I send it to you, it will be like inviting you into
> my bedroom where no man has been since I kicked my husband out. But
> since you already had a vision of me naked... that is kind of going
> backwards. I have print photographs going back to when I was a
> teenager. I may mail you one of those.
I could capture all of your beauty. And I desperately would like to
see.
> That photograph you drew a sketch of me of was taken in my parent's
> kitchen, so in essence you have captured this moment for all eternity
> and displayed it to the world. Not a bad start for your devotional. ;-)
> How are you feeling?
>
I'm feeling like I'm too obsesed with you, and should work on getting a
job and getting my own appartment. You said that's what you want for
me?
> I have been hitting the caffeine, I finally broke down and bought some
> coffee, and the nicotine. I was feeling so angry the other night I asked
> my ex to bring me a pack of American Spirit cigarettes when he came by
> to drop off something for our daughter. I told him I know how to use it
> like medicine like the Native Americans, and its true, I do. He
> protested at first, but then I lectured him about his vices and he
> relented. He likes to think marijuana is superior to tobacco. Common
> Rastafari delusion.
>
> I have smoked one so far.
>
If you have quit before you can do it again. I think it is just what
you need right now, and could really help you cope. You just have to
stop buying them if you ever want to stop.
> I guess my decision to war even harder against masturbation has made my
> vice come out in other directions.
>
I've been doing the same. But as a man I can't go for ever. The
orgasms I've been having since I started dieting, exercising again, and
drinking lots and lots of water, have been intense. That's the way
they should feel.
> I have been losing weight. I here that about a few times a month, you
> are losing weight. Oh well. This medication I am on causes muscle
> weakness. But I kind of wanted that. I am trying to become more yin,
> more feminine. I am letting this process work its course.
>
> Atalanta was not a mother goddess. She was a maiden. You are bringing
> back my lost maidenhood. Thank you.
>
You aren't lost Atlanta.
> I blind carbon copied some negative messages from some users of this
> group to a dom friend and he told me what to do in order to have a more
> positive peaceful experience in this group. So we can continue to
> converse here now, peacefully and positively. Thank you for your
> positive energy. You are restoring me to sanity!
Thank you. You are like a guiding light to me in these turbulent waves.
Beauty
> CoreyWhite wrote:
>
>> Beauty wrote:
>>
>>> CoreyWhite wrote:
>>>
>
>
>
>> I know this too about Atlanta. In the tarot she is the representation
>> of the card Justice, and even in courtrooms her image is there.
>>
>
> No, she isn't.
>
> You have almost certainly confused Atalanta with Astraea. Atalanta was
> a huntress in Greek mythology, whilst Astraea symbolised Justice in
> Roman mythology.
>
> Here is what Waite says regarding Justice;
>
> personified the same virtue and is represented by the same symbols.
> This goddess notwithstanding, and notwithstanding the vulgarian Cupid,
> the Tarot is not of Roman mythology, or of Greek either. Its
> presentation of justice is supposed to be one of the four cardinal
> virtues included in the sequence of Greater Arcana..."
>
>
> Rosifer
>
>
really liked the goddess Astraea. We can have a whole pantheon of
goddesses in my temple. Remember I use to worship the Goddess, and all
goddesses are a manifestation of the Goddess. And in actuality, we
discussed a book called "When God had a wife" in my biblical studies
group last year. It has been found that the Biblical God did indeed have
a consort. Of course, this is probably heresy for an Eastern Orthodox.
But someone did say I was full of heresy. Oh well.
Corey, lets get some illustrations of Astraea up there. How about use my
image to draw an image of Atalanta and of Astraea? Use my features and
figure to work off. Show it to me before you post it. Research
children's mythology books in the library for your base. Greek
mythology. There are some classics. Also I saw a great drawing of
Atalanta running naked on the Internet. Just google Atalanta. Also
Aphrodite. You will need another model for that as I am a brunette and
Aphrodite was a blond.
This is good you are watering and fertilizing my roots. After being
excommunicated by a bishop I need to be healed. Perhaps I am a magickal
wiccan gothic pagan Eastern Orthodox. Full of heresy according to
someone. I am glad you accept me for who I am and don't denigrate and
insult me. And Theophan accepts me as I am and he is a gothic Eastern
Orthodox. He wants me to leave my jurisdiction, but I won't. You know I
just brought five plants inside my apartment, my poinsettias and
cyclamens. It is too cold outside for them. So, see, you are making me
whole. I am beginning to nurture plants again. Oh yes and I have a
little palm in my bedroom now and in my bathroom, gifts from my ex. That
is healing too. Keep working your magick Corey, it is good magick. I
wanted a magician in my life and I got one, a young one.
Let us talk about young magicians. Who is a boy magician that *you*
identify with? Perhaps I will draw him instead of my master.
CoreyWhite
I've never read the book, but enjoyed the movie. So I think I might get
around to reading it one day soon.
> Did you get the idea from Douglas, or is this a separate coincidence?
I've been working on this artwork for years now, and have other artwork
I did from a long while ago online. But I wouldn't want you to see
because I look so awful in the photograph. It was before I started
losing all the weight I gained from medication, and then since I put it
back on just a little bit. And actually I started working on this even
before the movie.
Although the people who did a Scanner Darkley in theators, also
produced Waking Life.. Which is by far better. And growing up I was
often told I look exactly like the character from that movie, and he
used the same artistic techniques to do it.
> Now you get to see how I live my life. Synchronicity and coincidence
> abounds. I was told by an Eastern Orthodox this is not "right belief",
> as I understand him, but oh well.
Well maybe he just means that when god answers prayers it isn't a
coincidence at all?
> I have not read the book nor seen the movie, but I have emerged out of
> the drug culture, so if it is, you are right on the mark.
> You and I have a clairvoyant relationship, Corey. You are another soul
> mate.
Yes its true, but I need real spirituality in my life like you have.
If I could I would want to join your church. We both need strong
communities as well. If it were just us it still wouldn't be enough.
Two people is never enough, and we don't have strong communities these
days. That's why I miss being young.
> Now that I am using legal psychoactive drugs, things are getting better.
Well if you stop taking them, do it a little at a time. And drinking
water should help you wake up in the mornings, and get to bed. It is
imporant to stay hydrated on these pills. They make you really thirsty
the same way XTC can.
> Don't reply to "All Hail Discordia" in regards to me.
np
Beauty
>
>>>
>>>
>>>
>> Interesting. I used to read tarot, my daughter is named after Justice,
>> and she is a Libra. I can not show you my latest artwork. I can tell
>> you what it is about. It is a vision of me and my master. I am afraid to
>> show it to you. I drew it last week while sitting in a meeting. I will
>> say this much. He is fully clothed and I am fully naked. He is facing
>> towards the viewer, and my back is to the viewer. He is sitting on a
>> throne and I am kneeling before him all bound up.
>>
>>
>
> And I am sure it is one of your best. You have the skill for it more
> than I do, even though I may be a more creative thinker.
>
keep it a secret. I must not waste another page on him. Send me your
picture, let me work on your portrait. You are a young magician. Tell me
who you identify with.
>
>> My brother and father have legal careers and I get along with lawyers.
>> In addition my community knows I am one of the few with a legalistic
>> mind. In fact, my intellect is seen as a two edged sword.
>>
>>
>
> And you certainly can top me, but I have one heck of a spirit. I don't
> think you could ever brake it. I would just pull myself right back up.
> It is because I have always had so much support and encouragement, and
> I'm always smiling.
>
together. I have a friend who is a dominant who is helping me with my
submissive side so perhaps I can explore my dominant side with you in
that group. ssb-b is not safe for my submissive side. I must keep that
private and in my friend's private group. I have not met a dominant yet
that I trust so it is going to take time for that kind of relationship.
Perhaps I am polyamorous. Who knows. I do not think that is allowed in
my religion, but again who knows. What do you think about polyamory?
Paul Evodokimov writes about women in Tibet who practice polyandry so it
is not impossible. Barrister perceived that I could have two tops or
doms at once, so perhaps that is my destiny. This would be a very
interesting subject to research: the practice of polyandry in Tibet. I
used to practice Tibetan Buddhism too and had a Native American Tibetan
Buddhist teacher as a teenager! He would take me out to dinner in
Chinatown or this Vietnamese restaurant on Polk Street in the city in
his sports car when I was still a minor living at home with my parents.
>
>> You are indeed clairvoyant Corey. We share this gift. But Eastern
>> Orthodox are not allowed to talk about it, nor disclose it. It must be
>> identified by others. Your vision of my naked body was not entirely off
>> the mark. Send it to me again, I will print it out and edit it for you.
>>
>
> I'll send it to you Atlanta.
>
>
>> I am thinking about sending you a photograph my daughter took of me in
>> my bedroom with a very sexy dress on. I wore it to church one day and a
>> woman said in a whisper to me "that is a very sexy dress". I never wore
>> it again... but if I send it to you, it will be like inviting you into
>> my bedroom where no man has been since I kicked my husband out. But
>> since you already had a vision of me naked... that is kind of going
>> backwards. I have print photographs going back to when I was a
>> teenager. I may mail you one of those.
>>
>
> I could capture all of your beauty. And I desperately would like to
> see.
>
>
it. And keep in mind that this photograph was right before my 30th
birthday and right after I kicked my husband out so I was very
traumatized. It was during the period of domestic violence.
>> That photograph you drew a sketch of me of was taken in my parent's
>> kitchen, so in essence you have captured this moment for all eternity
>> and displayed it to the world. Not a bad start for your devotional. ;-)
>> How are you feeling?
>>
>>
>
> I'm feeling like I'm too obsesed with you, and should work on getting a
> job and getting my own appartment. You said that's what you want for
> me?
>
>
You may be devoted to me and I will channel the Goddess for you. This is
our destiny. I can do this. I was devoted to the Goddess before I was
devoted to Christ. Since I do not have a master right now I can do this.
It is ok. I am totally at peace with it.
I am going to start training so I can get a new job very soon. We will
do this together. I have my own 2BDR apartment so I can really support
you in getting your own room. Start out with that. At your age... I was
in a serious transition. I can barely remember.
Tell me your exact age again and I will tell you where I was at your age.
>> I have been hitting the caffeine, I finally broke down and bought some
>> coffee, and the nicotine. I was feeling so angry the other night I asked
>> my ex to bring me a pack of American Spirit cigarettes when he came by
>> to drop off something for our daughter. I told him I know how to use it
>> like medicine like the Native Americans, and its true, I do. He
>> protested at first, but then I lectured him about his vices and he
>> relented. He likes to think marijuana is superior to tobacco. Common
>> Rastafari delusion.
>>
>> I have smoked one so far.
>>
>>
>
> If you have quit before you can do it again. I think it is just what
> you need right now, and could really help you cope. You just have to
> stop buying them if you ever want to stop.
>
I never have been addicted to nicotine. I only smoke it when I need it.
It is better I smoke a cigarette when I am angry then to be abusive. I
did not buy it. I asked my ex too. I rarely buy a pack of cigarettes.
>
>> I guess my decision to war even harder against masturbation has made my
>> vice come out in other directions.
>>
>>
>
> I've been doing the same. But as a man I can't go for ever. The
> orgasms I've been having since I started dieting, exercising again, and
> drinking lots and lots of water, have been intense. That's the way
> they should feel.
>
I can not masturbate as an Eastern Orthodox woman so I am in hell right
now. I am trying not to hate my sexuality. It is hard. I must not
repress it or oppress it or suppress it, but sublimate it. That is what
my art is for and has always been for, as well as my dancing... This is
a new experience for me, to be a celibate Eastern Orthodox woman. My
Eastern Orthodox friend in another group is trying to help me. You might
want to join the conversation on alt.religion.christian.east-orthodox.
>
>> I have been losing weight. I here that about a few times a month, you
>> are losing weight. Oh well. This medication I am on causes muscle
>> weakness. But I kind of wanted that. I am trying to become more yin,
>> more feminine. I am letting this process work its course.
>>
>> Atalanta was not a mother goddess. She was a maiden. You are bringing
>> back my lost maidenhood. Thank you.
>>
>>
>
> You aren't lost Atlanta.
>
Well vladyka thought I was lost. That was one of the first things we had
a horrendous fight over. He still has not apologized to me over that
one. And it just got worse. He had the nerve to tell the Eastern
Orthodox I was a lost soul from the city my parish is in! He named my
parish by allusion before I did.
When I am with you, I don't feel lost, Corey. You restore my roots, for
I am indeed a magickal wiccan gothic pagan Eastern Orthodox woman.
>
>> I blind carbon copied some negative messages from some users of this
>> group to a dom friend and he told me what to do in order to have a more
>> positive peaceful experience in this group. So we can continue to
>> converse here now, peacefully and positively. Thank you for your
>> positive energy. You are restoring me to sanity!
>>
>
> Thank you. You are like a guiding light to me in these turbulent waves.
>
>
It is not me, it is the Goddess. Remember to give homage to her. I am
really struggling with the Virgin Mary. I have a Catholic friend who is
devoted to her. He was nagging me on Monday to pray to her. My former
chapel is dedicated to her. I have so many prayers and icons to her.
My friend sent me his book on the Winter Pascha for the chapter on the
Virgin Mary. It has been on my mind. I had a very hard time reading his
book this Winter Pascha. The Scripture is confusing me. It seems that
the Virgin Mary knew her husband after her Son was born, but that is not
Eastern Orthodox doctrine.
I am having a very hard time with the virginity of the Theotokos. At
church on Sunday there were all these little icons of the Theotokos and
I picked up a couple. Priests and monks and abbesses and nuns have given
me icons of the Theotokos. I prefer putting them up in my daughter's
room. Her saint is a virgin martyr deaconess.
Beauty
>
>>>
>>>
>>>
>> Do you mean this?
>> http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Scanner_Darkly
>> Isn't this the author Douglas mentioned?
>> Synchronicity!
>>
>
> I've never read the book, but enjoyed the movie. So I think I might get
> around to reading it one day soon.
>
>
>> Did you get the idea from Douglas, or is this a separate coincidence?
>>
>
> I've been working on this artwork for years now, and have other artwork
> I did from a long while ago online. But I wouldn't want you to see
> because I look so awful in the photograph. It was before I started
> losing all the weight I gained from medication, and then since I put it
> back on just a little bit. And actually I started working on this even
> before the movie.
>
> Although the people who did a Scanner Darkley in theators, also
> produced Waking Life.. Which is by far better. And growing up I was
> often told I look exactly like the character from that movie, and he
> used the same artistic techniques to do it.
>
>
>> Now you get to see how I live my life. Synchronicity and coincidence
>> abounds. I was told by an Eastern Orthodox this is not "right belief",
>> as I understand him, but oh well.
>>
>
> Well maybe he just means that when god answers prayers it isn't a
> coincidence at all?
>
>
>> I have not read the book nor seen the movie, but I have emerged out of
>> the drug culture, so if it is, you are right on the mark.
>> You and I have a clairvoyant relationship, Corey. You are another soul
>> mate.
>>
>
> Yes its true, but I need real spirituality in my life like you have.
> If I could I would want to join your church. We both need strong
> communities as well. If it were just us it still wouldn't be enough.
> Two people is never enough, and we don't have strong communities these
> days. That's why I miss being young.
>
if I know any. Of course, I don't have the best reputation with some
traditional American Eastern Orthodox clergy, just to let you know. I am
a Universalist.
>
>> Now that I am using legal psychoactive drugs, things are getting better.
>>
>
> Well if you stop taking them, do it a little at a time. And drinking
> water should help you wake up in the mornings, and get to bed. It is
> imporant to stay hydrated on these pills. They make you really thirsty
> the same way XTC can.
>
>
course. I need to heal. My psyche was nearly destroyed as you can see in
my photograph I sent you. I have endured as much trauma as a war
veteran. Years of trauma. Let us remind each other to drink our water. I
have not been taking the best care of my physical health.I am suffering
from depression despite my medication. I have never done XTC.
We just celebrated Theophany and I brought home a quart of Holy Water
which I can add to my daily water bottle. One night when I was getting
so sick of fighting the demons when I lay down to sleep I poured threw
Holy Water on my bed from this bottle my ex priest gave me when he
visited me when I was convalescing in the hospital after the unexpected
surgical delivery of my daughter. It has an enamel portrait of the
Theotokos on it. The Holy Water did not disperse the demons. I threw it
on all four walls. To no avail. I learned to cross my walls from a
former housemate who is an ordained reader and choir director.
Sometimes I hate being an Eastern Orthodox woman. It is a mystery how I
ended up one, through the quasi-Orthodox Rastafari syncretism.
>> Don't reply to "All Hail Discordia" in regards to me.
>>
>
> np
>
>
By the time I am a middle aged woman I am going to be able to have a
little museum with all the prayers and icons and books and portraits
people have given me of the Thetokos. Rosaries too.
Virgin Mother. I think not. Single mother is more like it. Where is my
Saint Joseph? I need a benefactor. I have to warn you, I like the Virgin
Mary, seem destined to be the wife of an older man the next time around.
Renate
> CoreyWhite wrote:
>> All hail Discordia wrote:
>>>> Nyx wrote:
>>>>> CoreyWhite wrote:
>>>>>> If you want to look at my sketch just go here:
>>>>>> http://www.ckoogle.com/atlanta.gif
>>>>>>
>>>>> It's still not there. I'd actually like to see this.
>>>>>
>>>> like you would see in a waking life or in a scanner darkley.
>>>>
>>>> http://www.ckoogle.com/atlanta-black-and-white.gif
>>>> http://www.ckoogle.com/atlanta-origonal-sketch.gif
>>
>> and skill. But that doesn't mean the art looks like a zombie. It is
>> in the style of a Scanner Darkley I should have said.
>>
> Do you mean this?
> http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Scanner_Darkly
> Isn't this the author Douglas mentioned?
> Synchronicity!
> Did you get the idea from Douglas, or is this a separate coincidence?
> Now you get to see how I live my life. Synchronicity and coincidence
> abounds. I was told by an Eastern Orthodox this is not "right belief",
> as I understand him, but oh well.
Oh well? Is that how you see the teaching of the church you profess to
love so much, and would die for? Just "oh well"?
> I have not read the book nor seen the movie, but I have emerged out of
> the drug culture, so if it is, you are right on the mark.
> You and I have a clairvoyant relationship, Corey. You are another soul
> mate.
> Now that I am using legal psychoactive drugs, things are getting better.
> Don't reply to "All Hail Discordia" in regards to me.
Smoking and drinking again, are you? An addict is an addict is an addict.
Think any of the nice folks at church are going to talk to you, with your
foul cigarette and booze breath?
Renate
All hail Discordia
wrote:
It does not matter what style you claim, it looks like a picture of a
zombie to me. That was my honest first impression.
--
Grant
Troia
(a bunch of irrelevant nonsense)
OK, Corey, here's the scoop:
I don't usually do this sort of thing. But if you continue to
cross-post to a.g, I *will* contact AOL with all your various messages
including those which explicitly threaten to disrupt, flood, etc. the
newsgroup. Those messages do show your originating IP in the header.
The net result is that you will lose your connection to the internet,
fast, as you are violating AOL's TOS, as I posted before.
This is your last warning. Cut a.g from the cross-posts, and only post
here if you have something on-topic to post, or I *will* file a complaint.
-- Troia
Meltdarok
Uh oh, Corey's in trouble again for his posting style.
--
meltdarok
http://hometown.aol.com/meltdarok/
Elder
wayn...@gmail.com says...
A whole page full of the freakshow.
--
Carl Robson
Audio stream: http://www.bouncing-czechs.com:8000/samtest
Homepage: http://www.bouncing-czechs.com
Now Playing at home:Devilish Presley-Cat On A Hot Tin Roof
Korin
"Beauty" <amkemail...@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:UtDrh.2330$O02....@newssvr11.news.prodigy.net...
> CoreyWhite wrote:
> I can not stop taking them. I just started. They need to run their course.
> I need to heal. My psyche was nearly destroyed as you can see in my
> photograph I sent you. I have endured as much trauma as a war veteran.
How?
>>> Don't reply to "All Hail Discordia" in regards to me.
>>>
>>
>> np
>>
>>
> thanks. I will tell you who else not to reply to as time goes on.
Umm.. might I remind you of this:
"Beauty" <amkemail...@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:9nxrh.35510$Gr2....@newssvr21.news.prodigy.net...
> Corey, I did not give you permission to post that. In fact, I explicitly
> forbade you to ever post a picture of me again online and I meant it. You
> are not old enough to get involved with me. Do you understand this? Take
> that picture down immediately and never put it up again.
Korin
Troia
> "Beauty" <amkemail...@yahoo.com> wrote in message
> news:UtDrh.2330$O02....@newssvr11.news.prodigy.net...
>> I can not stop taking them. I just started. They need to run their course.
>> I need to heal. My psyche was nearly destroyed as you can see in my
>> photograph I sent you. I have endured as much trauma as a war veteran.
>
> How?
The State of California, in its infinite wisdom (or, at least, the
therapist she apparently no longer has) officially diagnosed her with
C-PTSD and gave her 18 months to "recover" (not to be confused with her
recovery from addictive substances), which is why she gets money to stay
home until she actually bothers to show up for whatever new job they
arrange for her through her "job rehab" program. (She was in an "art
production" program, but it appears she didn't actually show up much;
apparently they now insist she find something else.)
So she figures that since some vets have PTSD, she has "endured as much
trauama" (mind you, all this over her divorce) as a war veteran, cuz she
is diagnosed with the same class of disorder.
Mind you, before she worked that out, she was loudly castigating anyone
who dared to associate C-PTSD with PTSD, but this way gets her more
dramatic sympathy so now she considers them pretty much the same thing.
-- Troia
Beauty
> "Beauty" <amkemail...@yahoo.com> wrote in message
> news:UtDrh.2330$O02....@newssvr11.news.prodigy.net...
>
>> CoreyWhite wrote:
>> I can not stop taking them. I just started. They need to run their course.
>> I need to heal. My psyche was nearly destroyed as you can see in my
>> photograph I sent you. I have endured as much trauma as a war veteran.
>>
>
> How?
>
getting in trouble here. I apologize for that above paragraph.
>
>>>> Don't reply to "All Hail Discordia" in regards to me.
>>>>
>>>>
>>> np
>>>
>>>
>>>
>> thanks. I will tell you who else not to reply to as time goes on.
>>
>
> Umm.. might I remind you of this:
>
> "Beauty" <amkemail...@yahoo.com> wrote in message
> news:9nxrh.35510$Gr2....@newssvr21.news.prodigy.net...
>
>> Corey, I did not give you permission to post that. In fact, I explicitly
>> forbade you to ever post a picture of me again online and I meant it. You
>> are not old enough to get involved with me. Do you understand this? Take
>> that picture down immediately and never put it up again.
>>
>
>
> Korin
>
>
>
mother liked it. So what do you suggest I do? He feels I am impinging
his talent by forbidding him to post his drawings of me. I told him to
find a local model. He admitted he was obsessed with me. I am open to
your suggestions!
Beauty
> Korin wrote:
>> "Beauty" <amkemail...@yahoo.com> wrote in message
>> news:UtDrh.2330$O02....@newssvr11.news.prodigy.net...
>
>>> I can not stop taking them. I just started. They need to run their
>>> course. I need to heal. My psyche was nearly destroyed as you can
>>> see in my photograph I sent you. I have endured as much trauma as a
>>> war veteran.
>>
>> How?
>
> The State of California, in its infinite wisdom (or, at least, the
> therapist she apparently no longer has) officially diagnosed her with
> C-PTSD and gave her 18 months to "recover" (not to be confused with
> her recovery from addictive substances),
The psychiatrist that tithed his time and energy to me diagnosed me with
C-PTSD. Why do you have a bug under your rug about me?
> which is why she gets money to stay home until she actually bothers to
> show up for whatever new job they arrange for her through her "job
> rehab" program.
my schedule to get set up so I can go train to go back to work. What do
you know about mental health disabilities?
> (She was in an "art production" program, but it appears she didn't
> actually show up much; apparently they now insist she find something
> else.)
proved to be far more demanding than I thought. Furthermore, when she
went back to school, her schedule changed so because of this so did
mine. Would you quit talking about me please. Contrary to your erroneous
opinion, not only did my job developer urge me to develop my artistic
talent into a microbusiness! she has supported me and urged me to start
training to reenter the job market as a clerk! Why do you have a bee in
your bonnet about me?
>
> So she figures that since some vets have PTSD, she has "endured as
> much trauama" (mind you, all this over her divorce) as a war veteran,
> cuz she is diagnosed with the same class of disorder.
continue to publish *lies* about me? I know what I did to deserve this.
>
> Mind you, before she worked that out, she was loudly castigating
> anyone who dared to associate C-PTSD with PTSD, but this way gets her
> more dramatic sympathy so now she considers them pretty much the same
> thing.
>
> -- Troia
>
discuss it. Would you please accept my about face and stop talking about
my mental health disability!
CoreyWhite
Was it because she was too pale? I'm still adjusting, and exploring
what I can do with this artwork. Today I added more color to her
photo. So refresh the page, take another look. And please tell me if
your feelings have changed. Thanks, Grant.
CoreyWhite
I'm updating the artwork today so you may see some changes. I added a
lot more color and depth to your portrait, and you look alive now. We
will see about all the other details as things keep moving on. I'm
really happy with this gallery now! It is just a matter of adding more
to it. YAY! :D
NightMist
More like his endless delight in flinging poo in eight different
directions at once.
NightMist
--
Come to the dark side.
We have cookies.
kj
near him!!!
Beauty
I am sorry to have to say this publicly to you but do not look at
wedding rings for me. I already told you who I am in love with and I am
still stuck on him. I will not marry you. Do you understand this? I am
not feeding your obsession, but as a young man in debt, you need to get
yourself together. Go the EDD and take a vocational assessment and find
a job. That is my command to you. Is this clear? Do not post to
alt.gothic anymore. I unsubscribed. Ok?
Thanks,
Atlanta
PS I am pale, this is true. I am proud of my pale complexion so do not
change my color. It is important that I own my paleness as I was ashamed
of it up until now. My mom has an olive complexion. I got my father's
Dutch-Ukrainian complexion and not my mother's Italian complexion. I
totally internalized my ex's Afrocentric and did violence to my soul.
Study my complexion color. I can even tell you what foundation color I
currently wear if you need help. And I can even tell you what lip stain
I was wearing so you can add more color.
I suggest you look into self employment or microbusiness for artist's
ok. Talk to the gallery owner in this group. Perhaps he can exhibit your
art!
TyMeDwn1st
wrote:
>The State of California, in its infinite wisdom (or, at least, the
>therapist she apparently no longer has) officially diagnosed her with
>C-PTSD
So she says, anyway. We have only her word for that, and as she herself has
said more than once, she doesn't believe she has any obligation to be honest or
to tell the truth when she posts.
>and gave her 18 months to "recover" (not to be confused with her
>recovery from addictive substances), which is why she gets money to stay
>home until she actually bothers to show up for whatever new job they
>arrange for her through her "job rehab" program. (She was in an "art
>production" program, but it appears she didn't actually show up much;
>apparently they now insist she find something else.)
>
>So she figures that since some vets have PTSD, she has "endured as much
>trauama" (mind you, all this over her divorce) as a war veteran, cuz she
>is diagnosed with the same class of disorder.
>
>Mind you, before she worked that out, she was loudly castigating anyone
>who dared to associate C-PTSD with PTSD, but this way gets her more
>dramatic sympathy so now she considers them pretty much the same thing.
Personally, I think she has a mixed diagnosis which includes a number of
personality disorders. She's commented repeated that she's had "problems"
since she was in elementary school.
--
Ty
Who is mostly just a
slightly skewed
Donna Reed
A woman's place is in the House -- in the Speaker's office!
Beauty
He and I had a falling out and he thinks I am trying to emotionally
blackmail him. I am not. Do not go his route. Stay away from him least
he infect you with his bile.
I am pale. Do not adjust my photo for his sake. Do you get this? Do you
need more photographs to study my complexion? I would be happy to send
you another one! Either keep my paleness or drop the portrait. Is this
clear? You are being disobedient. Do I have to punish you?
My offer is still open to subscribe to
soc.subculture.bondage-bdsm.femdom with you. You need to learn how to
behave properly!
Grant's feelings will not change. He thinks my vodka is a +dickhead.
Leave him alone. Study up on the complexions of the Dutch or the pale
Italians, ok? Or even the pale Jewish Ukrainians. Listen. My eyes are
pale green on the outside and reddish brown on the inside. Not dark
brown as you pencil them. That should be a clue as to my fairness!
TyMeDwn1st
Hmmm... You *might* try to discourage him. Telling him to put a positive
light on his use of the word "obsessed" by suggesting he say instead that he's
devoted to you is not all that helpful.
Nor is sending him additional photos of yourself so he can do more of his
copying and scribbling of them.
Beauty
with them, ok? I will not be joining you there. They have pissed all
over me and defiled me and I am done with them. Do you understand my
directive?
Beauty
>
>
> Personally, I think she has a mixed diagnosis which includes a number of
> personality disorders. She's commented repeated that she's had "problems"
> since she was in elementary school.
>
>
abuse of me because I was so "precocious" and "out there" and
"brilliant". Problems due to my high intelligence quotient and how I fit
into society, you betcha, "TyMeDwn1st". I just figured it out. You are
jealous of the fact that I am out and have faith and you do not!
Beauty
>
>
> Hmmm... You *might* try to discourage him. Telling him to put a positive
> light on his use of the word "obsessed" by suggesting he say instead that he's
> devoted to you is not all that helpful.
>
> Nor is sending him additional photos of yourself so he can do more of his
> copying and scribbling of them.
>
>
>
me. So damn what. I deserve a public devotee. Better than a secret
clerical one. I have been accused of being obsessed of a few people. Its
my turn to have someone "obsessed" with me. I will send him another
photograph if he can not get my complexion straight. And I am about to
scan him and send him a sketch I drew of me and the one *I* am obsessed
with it so he can get it I am not obsessed with *him*, under personal
confidentiality, of course.
CoreyWhite
Yes, you are right. There was too much color, but a friend gave me the
advice that the more color I add the better. So I've reduced it by 15%
and now it looks better, just like you said it should. Don't you think?
Beauty
>
>
> Yes, you are right. There was too much color, but a friend gave me the
> advice that the more color I add the better. So I've reduced it by 15%
> and now it looks better, just like you said it should. Don't you think?
>
>
for my daughter ok? I am making brown rice (with the rice cooker my
brother gave me for a wedding? present), broccoli (it is best to steam
vegetables), and teriyaki tofu. I did not cook dinner last night. My ex
called unexpectedly and took our daughter out to the library, did not
feed her dinner, brought her home at 8:50pm! (her bed time is 8pm, takes
her *an hour* to unwind) without having fed her dinner. I *told* him to
pick up a burrito on the way to the library and he "forgot". Grrrr.
Leave my portrait alone. Look I have not touched my artwork for work
since last Monday except to start working on my technique with my
colored pencils for an hour last Friday. You need to find a job as an
artist and fast.
What are you eating for dinner tonight?
Tim McGaughy
at Corey...@gmail.com wrote on 1/17/07 10:18 PM:
> I'm feeling like I'm too obsesed with you, and should work on getting a
> job and getting my own appartment. You said that's what you want for
> me?
Holy shit.
You two are a perfect match.
Tim McGaughy
thorncultre...@googlemail.com wrote on 1/18/07 10:59 AM:
> Umm.. might I remind you of this:
>
> "Beauty" <amkemail...@yahoo.com> wrote in message
> news:9nxrh.35510$Gr2....@newssvr21.news.prodigy.net...
>> Corey, I did not give you permission to post that. In fact, I explicitly
>> forbade you to ever post a picture of me again online and I meant it. You
>> are not old enough to get involved with me. Do you understand this? Take
>> that picture down immediately and never put it up again.
Screw it, dude. He's homeless and jobless, she's nuttier than a payday bar,
they're both sickly obsessive. They were made for each other.
CoreyWhite
I have done a bit more with it all now. If you refresh
http://www.ckoogle.com you will see a tribute to you with my art. It
is very nicely coded.