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The Exiled, V.2
1) Whenever I type out anything, I always seem to find a need to be
verbose. Not just verbose in a normal manner either; if it doesn't reach
Vancian scale then I'm just not trying. It often results in typing a
paragraph, then going back and rewriting it down to two sentences. Damn
you, Vance and Lovecraft!
2) I have had sleep apnea for over three years. I don't like to admit
this to anyone, especially to myself. I've refused to consider it a
problem during that time and I have reaped the negative consequences
thereof. I am constantly apathetic, absent-minded, unable to focus, and
unable to maintain any goals except for getting up and performing
adequately at work. This is because I am fucking tired.
3) This leads to actually trying to do something about it. The sleep
clinic has clocked me at waking up over 100 times per hour. I don't
remember doing this, of course; no one who has apnea really does. It
just results in never reaching the deep portions of sleep. I have an
appointment on Friday with my doctor to discuss the diagnosis. I already
know what the remedy is: a CPAP machine.
I hate and fear the remedy. I'd rather ignore the problem and pretend
nothing is wrong than actually fix the issue. I find it offensive to not
be in perfect health, which is hypocrisy, as I have never been in
perfect health. I'm going to hate wearing that mask, I'm going to hate
breathing that forced air, and I'm going to hate needing it in order to
sleep right.
So, naturally, I'm going to bite the bullet and do it anyway, because
necessity trumps hate any day of the week.
4) GothCruise or Convergence? GothCruise or Convergence? ARGH.
5) What does one do when there is no upward or sideways mobility at
work? This job is stable; I could remain where I am for 20+ years and no
one would object. I will never be fired. My output is considered
valuable and my experience is likewise valued; conversely, I will never
receive significant raises so long as I remain where I'm at.
6) I get really tired of arguing politics on LJ in the political forums.
These people are not going to agree with me. They're not going to come
over to my POV. There is nothing to persuade them to my side. So why am
I still arguing? Time to find some better crack to snort.
7) I love my darling, beautiful, wonderful, gorgeous, incredible,
perfect wife, but damn, can she be a disorganized slob sometimes. There.
I said it. Now off to feel guilty. :D Catholics of the world unite!
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Regards,
The Exiled, V.2
“You are a lawyer, you ought to know the correlation of facts; you
ought to know that two and two make four, not sometimes but all the
time.”
- Professor Augustus S. F. X. Van Dusen, The 'Thinking Machine'
Peter H. Coffin
> 4) GothCruise or Convergence? GothCruise or Convergence? ARGH.
Under most circumstances, and given that one is NOT an "Arrive Friday
afternoon, bolt Monday before 9 AM" Convergence-goer, GC is usually
cheaper for me. And drunker. And a better bonding experience. GC is,
however, leaving from Puerto Rico this year, which means semi-serious
travel even to get to embarcation.
> 5) What does one do when there is no upward or sideways mobility at
> work? This job is stable; I could remain where I am for 20+ years and no
> one would object. I will never be fired. My output is considered
> valuable and my experience is likewise valued; conversely, I will never
> receive significant raises so long as I remain where I'm at.
Shoot the resume around. Enjoy the fact that you can turn down any offer
that isn't a SERIOUS improvement in situation.
> 6) I get really tired of arguing politics on LJ in the political forums.
> These people are not going to agree with me. They're not going to come
> over to my POV. There is nothing to persuade them to my side. So why am
> I still arguing? Time to find some better crack to snort.
That's one of the things I really enjoy about USENET, in at least the
groups I play in. People listen and rethink. They may reach again the
same conclusions they did before, but the passing effort happens. LJ,
not so much... Mostly, I think, because the discussions there seldom
last for more than a day at the most. So you'll get most people weighing
in once, and never coming back, and a few people having a couple of
go-arounds that no one but they ever see.
> 7) I love my darling, beautiful, wonderful, gorgeous, incredible,
> perfect wife, but damn, can she be a disorganized slob sometimes. There.
> I said it. Now off to feel guilty. :D Catholics of the world unite!
Get your own study. Close the door. Peace.
--
75. I will instruct my Legions of Terror to attack the hero en masse,
instead of standing around waiting while members break off and
attack one or two at a time.
--Peter Anspach's list of things to do as an Evil Overlord
Dark Phoenix
3) This leads to actually trying to do something about it. The sleep
clinic has clocked me at waking up over 100 times per hour. I don't
remember doing this, of course; no one who has apnea really does. It
just results in never reaching the deep portions of sleep. I have an
appointment on Friday with my doctor to discuss the diagnosis. I already
know what the remedy is: a CPAP machine.
I hate and fear the remedy. I'd rather ignore the problem and pretend
nothing is wrong than actually fix the issue. I find it offensive to not
be in perfect health, which is hypocrisy, as I have never been in
perfect health. I'm going to hate wearing that mask, I'm going to hate
breathing that forced air, and I'm going to hate needing it in order to
sleep right.
So, naturally, I'm going to bite the bullet and do it anyway, because
necessity trumps hate any day of the week.
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My FIL got used to his right off the bat. Could fall right asleep with it
on. I could never figure out *how* one could; it would drive me nuts. But I
guess when you're that tired, you fall asleep right away; by the time you've
caught up on sleep, you're used to the thing. Or something. A problem that
may arise is that your wife will be driven insane by the noise it makes, but
I'm given to understand that the newer ones are considerably quieter than
some only a couple of years old. Best of luck with it.
Oh, if the mask doesn't suite you- look around. There are different styles,
which is something they don't bother to tell you when the machine shows up.
--
Laurie Brown, Dark Phoenix
dark_p...@netw.com
http://www.associatedcontent.com/user/103910/laurie_brown.html
"To destroy the Western tradition of independent thought, it is not
necessary to burn books. All we have to do is leave them unread for a couple
of generations."
--Robert Maynard Hutchens.
The Exiled, V.2
> On Thu, 19 Nov 2009 01:44:08 -0500, The Exiled, V.2 wrote:
>> 4) GothCruise or Convergence? GothCruise or Convergence? ARGH.
>
> Under most circumstances, and given that one is NOT an "Arrive Friday
> afternoon, bolt Monday before 9 AM" Convergence-goer, GC is usually
> cheaper for me. And drunker. And a better bonding experience. GC is,
> however, leaving from Puerto Rico this year, which means semi-serious
> travel even to get to embarcation.
I too have found GC to be the more relaxing experience, but that may
just be a preference for tropical breezes and blue oceans combined with
alcohol and decent temperatures. Puerto Rico does present a mild
problem, but not too bad in coming from Atlanta. Living at a major hub
has its benefits.
I begin to lean towards GC, but I need to know what hotel or whatnot in
Puerto Rico people will be congregating in.
> Shoot the resume around. Enjoy the fact that you can turn down any offer
> that isn't a SERIOUS improvement in situation.
Crystal ball is proving negative on that score.
Word is, I should try resuming out of state.
>> 7) I love my darling, beautiful, wonderful, gorgeous, incredible,
>> perfect wife, but damn, can she be a disorganized slob sometimes. There.
>> I said it. Now off to feel guilty. :D Catholics of the world unite!
>
> Get your own study. Close the door. Peace.
I wish I had the room for my own study. Oh well. Upon next moving time,
maybe.
Peter H. Coffin
> Peter H. Coffin wrote:
>> Shoot the resume around. Enjoy the fact that you can turn down any offer
>> that isn't a SERIOUS improvement in situation.
>
> Crystal ball is proving negative on that score.
> Word is, I should try resuming out of state.
>
>>> 7) I love my darling, beautiful, wonderful, gorgeous, incredible,
>>> perfect wife, but damn, can she be a disorganized slob sometimes. There.
>>> I said it. Now off to feel guilty. :D Catholics of the world unite!
>>
>> Get your own study. Close the door. Peace.
>
> I wish I had the room for my own study. Oh well. Upon next moving time,
> maybe.
....aaaand we're back to shooting resume out of state again?
--
How about an Australian-language version? 'Your program just attempted
an illegal instruction. No worries, mate.'
-- Paul Tomblin
The Exiled, V.2
> On Thu, 19 Nov 2009 23:58:49 -0500, The Exiled, V.2 wrote:
>> Peter H. Coffin wrote:
>>> Shoot the resume around. Enjoy the fact that you can turn down any offer
>>> that isn't a SERIOUS improvement in situation.
>>
>> Crystal ball is proving negative on that score.
>> Word is, I should try resuming out of state.
>>
>>>> 7) I love my darling, beautiful, wonderful, gorgeous, incredible,
>>>> perfect wife, but damn, can she be a disorganized slob sometimes. There.
>>>> I said it. Now off to feel guilty. :D Catholics of the world unite!
>>>
>>> Get your own study. Close the door. Peace.
>>
>> I wish I had the room for my own study. Oh well. Upon next moving time,
>> maybe.
>
Looks like.
Dammit. I hate exporting the Southern accent.
`una
> 4) GothCruise or Convergence? GothCruise or Convergence? ARGH.
If you go to Convergence, I'll get to see you again.
Needless to say, I am biased.
`una - was in SLC turning 35 and is now back in West Bumblefuck
Axel
>I already know what the remedy is: a CPAP machine.
>I hate and fear the remedy... I'm going to hate wearing that mask, I'm going to hate
>breathing that forced air, and I'm going to hate needing it in order to
>sleep right.
I have a couple of friends with them. They felt the same way about
them.
They do love the sleep they get as a result of using them. Hopefully
YMWNV
>5) What does one do when there is no upward or sideways mobility at
>work? This job is stable; I could remain where I am for 20+ years and no
>one would object. I will never be fired. My output is considered
>valuable and my experience is likewise valued; conversely, I will never
>receive significant raises so long as I remain where I'm at.
If you're happy where you are, stay.
If you want more, go somewhere else.
It seems like you're choices are pre-made.
>6) I get really tired of arguing politics on LJ in the political forums.
>These people are not going to agree with me. They're not going to come
>over to my POV. There is nothing to persuade them to my side. So why am
>I still arguing?
To write beautiful & hilarious prose that will amuse everyone &
encourage people who agree with you.
--
Axel... ...Kallisti
Joseph Brenner
"The Exiled, V.2" <exil...@gmail.com> writes:
> I hate and fear the remedy. I'd rather ignore the problem and
> pretend nothing is wrong than actually fix the issue. I find it
> offensive to not be in perfect health, which is hypocrisy, as I
> have never been in perfect health. I'm going to hate wearing that
> mask, I'm going to hate breathing that forced air, and I'm going
> to hate needing it in order to sleep right.
>
> So, naturally, I'm going to bite the bullet and do it anyway,
> because necessity trumps hate any day of the week.
My usual advice when faced with anything unpleasant is to try to
pretend it's part of a bondage scene.
Nyx
I tried that, but the stewardesses didn't like it when I put the
clothespins on my nipples.
Nyx
The Exiled, V.2
> I don't think it's unreasonable at all. It's perfectly
> reasonable that you would be pissed off. It's hard to come to terms with
> what can feel like being denied the right to good fortune when one can
> see it being enjoyed (or taken for granted) by others.
> But then, I've been known to punch my leg because I'm angry
> with it for hurting...
I've got the exact same sentiment. In fact, I've done the same thing myself.
The Exiled, V.2
Unfortunately, I prefer the cruises to traveling to Convergence. I get
way more out of the cruises.
*evil grin* You should come on a cruise.
`una
> `una wrote:
>
> > If you go to Convergence, I'll get to see you again.
> > Needless to say, I am biased.
>
> Unfortunately, I prefer the cruises to traveling to Convergence. I get
> way more out of the cruises.
> *evil grin* You should come on a cruise.
I swear we have this exact conversation every year.
It's our annual "Should I go on the cruise or go to Convergence?
Dude, go to Convergence. Fuck that, I'm going on a cruise" conversation.
Sing me a new song one of these years ;)
When I have the money to do both, you will see me on the cruise.
`una - may not even have enough for Convergence this year.
Waiting to hear about school funding and scouring the job markets.