tracing some people

[Michael Weaver]

I am trying to trace a few people and I am not sure where to ask apart from
sending an email to someone who knew me from Worcester College who now works
for BCAB.
I placed an article in RNIB's New Beacon to try and trace a couple of
people, one I did manage to track down when her profile appeared on Friends
Reunited and I also used 192 to find her phone number but the people
involved in bullying me had got to her first and bought her off.
The other person I advertised to make contact with I also placed an add to
find her on and someone told me they knew her and would ask if they could
pass on her details to me but I heard nothing.
I am possibly wanting to hear from Anna Mesruthea who I knew from Tapton
Mount who I last saw a few years ago at the guide dog centre in
Middlesbrough. She was the one I was told would be asked for her details on
my behalf by I believe someone called Beth or Bev Laskey.
Anna had actually confronted me at the centre and had asked me if I had got
feelings for her but I couldn't tell her because I felt and still do that I
am treading on eggshells trying to have a girlfriend in the UK and that some
verry unpleasant people had been on my back since attending New College
Worcester, the individuals were so overbearing and unpleasant I reported
them to someone I had a crush on from a seaside town and this girl was on
the point of offering me a relationship and ended up on Heroin in 1997,
taking the drug from the same type of overbearing people she was supposed to
be giving me protection from and her sister who was younger than her was
supposed to have been also supporting me as well over those individuals
because I wasn't getting any support from staff at New College or RNC and
not even support from my own family as regards dealing with them. The only
staff who supported me at Worcester was Richard Dean my last form teacher
there who tried pushing me towards another School or College such as RNC in
the hope of separating me from the bullies who he knew about and the only
staff who supported me at RNC were Librarian Angela Ogden who saw me in
tears over the behaviour of some of her staff colleagues who allowed
students to sabotage my relationships there and Richard Whitehead, the
Mobility teacher who offered to have words with the bullies including some
young girls who were involved.
I told Anna about what happened to this girl in 1997 which might have been
why she came straight out when she said "Do you fancy me" but I was still
too scared to tell her and I think she knew someone who I knew from RNC who
picked on my girlfriend Stephanie Mace when I was there, Stephanie was
called a fat slag by this girl who was the sister of another student and
this bully was apparently no slimmer than Stephanie was and I know because
she wented me to let her into Campblell Hall. The girl concerned even got it
into her head that I wanted a relationship with her but she was wrong and
she knew she was because I tried to confront her over what she did to Steph
and she leaned over me when I was working at a computer and made me feel
intimidated. She had got a right big mouth and she once snatched my mobile
off me when I was talking to dad and shouted down the phone and she snatched
my cane of me and someone had to get it because she had got a Sight
advantage.
Anna Mesruthea seemed to know this girl that ruined my relationship with
Steph.
Failing contact with Anna and maybe forming a relationship with her, the
other person I would like contact with is someone called Emma Whiting.
If she lives as I was told by another Ex from Worcester that she got
depression that I am sorry and would be willing to take Emma back if she
were to get in touch if she wasn't seeing anyone of course.
Whatever people thought of Emma and that maybe includes me when I knew her
at Tapton Mount and before she arrived at Worcester, she was one of the few
handful of young women who were straight with me ie if she said she cared
about someone she wouldn't publically stabb that person in the back like a
lot of girls who were there in the mid 1990s, some of whom were
unfortunately ex girlfriends of mine who claimed to maybe have been victims
of bullying themselves like the girl who informed me of Emma's depression
and another ex girlfriend of mine who used to talk about Emma's lack of
maturity concerning women's stuff yet that same ex handed me on a plate to
my tyrant house parent so it is not supprising I became quite close to Emma.
Emma would be one of those few ex girlfriends I have had I would get back
with like a shot if I could if it prevented me from having to appear on
Jeremy Kyle show about the bullying that cost me relationships and turned
one potential girlfriend into a drug addict.

[bando?ers]

Once again I say "damn man!"
At some point we all need to get over most of our blindness, and start
relating to the world at large, but I understand that this is a bit
harder sometimes for those educated in blind schools. That being said
at some point we all need to stop living in our school days or "daze".
This should usually happen with in a few months or so after graduating
I think. There are groups for talking out relationship problems, but
this space here has a slightly different focus.
Lastly I will say that even though I have never been to the UK I have
a few good friends from the British Isles, and you need to get around a
bit more if you think that you are walking on eggshells if you pursue
a romantic relationship.
I wish you the best. Try and work through your issues, and move on and
get a life. I am almost fifty, blind from birth, and I hope that if
I ever start living in the past it will be after living another half
century.
Cheers for Fears
B.Henry
Standing on the moon; where talk is cheap and vision's true:

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