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INTRODUCTION: The length of this post is relevant to its subject. It does
include some Scientologese. If you find a word you don't understand, call
your local Dianetics or Scientology organization and ask them to define
it. They like people to do this. Be sure to tell them you are reading
alt.religion.scientology.


Hi, guys. Long time no write, which is what this post is really about.

I've been posting to ARS for a few years now and then I disappeared,
although I was occasionally in touch with several of you via email. I
want to tell you what's been going on. Plus it will give the criminal cult
something to whine, bitch, carp, natter, scream, cry, rant about which
might get someone's stats up there so they can get a day off to do their
laundry. (Boy, do I remember that routine!)

For those who don't know me, I was in the cult for nearly 21 years. (I
know that Martin Hunt has archived some of my posts at
<http://www.islandnet.com/~martinh/rvy/rvy.htm>.) Because I spoke out,
they had to have spent hundreds of thousands of dollars in the last five
years trying to silence me and probably even think they finally did it.
Right. Read on.

If you can manage about 7,000 words, this post will tell you more than the
cult wants you to know.


TRAVELS WITH JESSE

You've heard about Jesse Prince. Well, I was with him having a great time
in Southern California back in July, when he was at Dan Leipold's law
offices. Of course, we were being followed by the Church of Paranoia's
criminal Dept. 20 and typical of their ineptness, we slipped in behind
them and followed them for awhile. It was hilarious they way they
panicked, zipping and dashing about through traffic while we kept on their
tails, sometimes bumper-to-bumper, reading license plates and laughing our
heads off in this darling red Mustang convertible, with the top down.
(Hey, do it in style!) If this was a paid PI, Rinder should ask for a
refund as they were a pathetic joke. Anyway, we did it for a while and
then tired and left them, wondering if they would tell the truth in their
report how they screwed it up. Again.

Later I went back to Minneapolis, where Jesse lived. We spent a few days
there while he wrapped up things and then we toodled on over to Chicago to
visit relatives and hung out in the Windy City for a few days, checking
out everything from the music clubs to Lake Michigan. I had my dog Mac
with me and we romped on the sands and down in the water, having a great
time. (Meanwhile someone told me the OSA sock puppets on ARS were saying
how I've disappeared. Yup. With Jesse in a red Mustang convertible. LOL!)

From there we went south to visit more relatives, caring less if the
paranoid criminal cult was tracking us. Let em spend Travolta's money to
get nuttin'. After a few days here and there, we turned west and ambled
across Kansas (spare me from EVER driving across Kansas again) and into
Colorado.


HELP! RVY IS MISSING!

So while the OSA sock puppets were claiming I was missing, they were lying
to you. (I'm shocked!) They knew I was with Jesse. (In fact, we enjoyed it
that they knew. It's called "critical mass.") They just hated it that two
very good friends were having such a good time!

I should have mentioned that earlier. Jesse and I go back many years, into
the cult. He and I are old buddies and it was great spending many weeks
with him. He is as outrageous as ever. Runt leader David Miscavige was
always afraid of him and as evidenced by the tantrums of his sock puppets,
he's still afraid. (By the way, if you ever want to see a good portrayal
of the runt-punk, watch Al Pachino's character in the movie "Scarface,"
who can't complete a sentence without three forms of the word "fuck." But
perhaps the best example of life with DM is truly Kevin Spacey's abusive
character in the movie "Swimming With Sharks," which takes place in
Hollywood. Small world. But then so is DM.)


ON BEING A WRITER

As to what I else I have been doing and will be doing, I am doing some
intense writing and in such an effort - for those of you who haven't had
the experience - it requires considerable time and solitude. And in my
case, more than usual, as you will find out.

It was no accident that I chose the handle "writer" when I set up my
Eskimo.com account years ago. I've been writing all of my life. It is
not only a love of the Muse but it can be a curse, as many a writer will
tell you. Mine was both.

I did a lot of writing in the cult, but there is little there of any
pride. Since then, I won some awards but nothing else captivated me until
now. So sit back and let me tell you how it happened. I think some of you
will find some of this interesting.

THE HUBBARD ARCHIVES

Let's start in late 1981, when I happened to acquire the archives that
contained Hubbard's private papers. (These were the ones that Gerry
Armstrong started.) The truly essential material came down to perhaps 15
linear feet of paper. Over the months, with nothing else to do, I had a
chance to read private letters, papers and manuscripts (including the
three, yes, three, versions of the infamous Excalibur, which has to be the
most overblown piece of hype he EVER produced and, no, it has NOTHING to
do with OT3), which also gave me the full uncensored view of this man. I
read everything from love letters to (and from and about) his mistresses,
his girlfriends (such as Fern, who gave him the clap, forcing him to
secretly take sulfa), his private pornographic ramblings (he liked to draw
penises and vaginas around the margins in red ink, which gave the page a
grisly look), his black magic material, his letters to family, wives (in
the early 1950s, while having mistress Barbara on the side and at the same
time preaching about the dangers of illicit relationships), editors and
even to himself, as journals.

There was one problem with what I read. It didn't match what we
(collectively then, meaning the organization) were saying about Hubbard
and what Hubbard, based on what he had say to say. When I tried to gently
point this out, the Shinola hit the fan. It didn't matter that it was in
Hubbard's own hand. It didn't match the story he put out so - straight out
of "1984" - it didn't exist. (These documents were later confiscated and
sealed away to make sure no staff see them but enough of us did -
including a few still on staff (hi, guys!) - so it can be verified
someday, if it comes to that. But that is another story.)


WRITING FOR HUBBARD

In the years that followed, Hubbard and I had a fascinating relationship
because I was intrigued with him as a writer and I found I could easily
mimick his style, which came in handy later.

But in 1982, drawing from the archival material, I proposed the idea of
the "Ron" magazines. Hubbard loved the idea and we cranked out the first
issue which is a serious collector's item. (Because Stacy and I produced
it, it no longer officially exists. It is an Orwellian non-mag.)


BIOGRAPHIES AND GHOSTS

At one point I was tagged to be his biographer but the biography went the
way of all the other attempts, ranging from Omar Garrison to Fletcher
Prouty. (Meanwhile I was identified as such, from the San Luis Obispo
paper to the Washington Post in Scientology-produced stories that it is
difficult for the cult to rewrite.)

I also ghosted for Hubbard, meaning I wrote material for which he was
credited, which was not uncommon. I wrote everything from these short
little greetings that were sent to events (staff and public always thought
that Hubbard was writing to them, which always showed us how gullible they
were) to policy letters (I wrote the current disconnection policy with
some help at the end of it by Ray Mitoff, who ghosted a lot of the
technical material and issued it under Hubbard's name) to ghosting
sections of his "Mission Earth" series, while I was editing it. (And boy,
is THAT another story! Whew!)

HUBBARD'S DEATH

When Hubbard died, everything changed. (duh) I went to the death site (his
ranch at Creston, near San Luis Obispo CA) that night along with David
Miscavige and some attorneys. Since none of us - including Miscavige - had
ever been there, we were met at a restaurant by Pat Broeker who took us to
the ranch. We arrived at perhaps 4 a.m. (Hubbard was found dead at about 8
p.m. I was told at 10. We left LA at perhaps 1 a.m. I wasn't always
watching the clock, given the circumstances.)

What's amusing in the cult's attempt to DA me is their saying that I went
to the ranch along with some gardeners and cooks. Right. Gardeners and
cooks were the first to be rushed up that night, before the authorities
were called or the body taken away. ROFL! Don't you just love these guys!

Creston was where the story was put together that he had moved on to the
next level of research, or however it was worded, when it was announced at
the Palladium and to the world. The event was so carefully constructed
that no one noticed that something essential was missing, but Ill get to
that in a moment. But during the event, I stayed at the ranch to deal with
any media who might show up or call. None did and less than 48 hours
later, the Challenger space shuttle blew up, bumping news of his death and
any serious questions from the media. I was monitoring the TV news via a
satellite dish and watched it happen and reported it. While the rest of
the world was in shock, DM was happy because we had been bumped from the
news. But that is how one comes to view the world at that echelon.

THE NEWBERRY RANCH

I later moved to another ranch Hubbard owned, at Newberry Springs, east
of Barstow CA and stayed there for a couple of months. Hubbard never
visited it (it was merely a fallback location for him) and I never did see
that anyone learned about this one, even the media. I guess they were all
hung up on the Creston property, near San Luis Obispo, where he died.

The most lasting benefit of my stay at Newberry was that that was where I
stopped smoking. One day DM, Mitoff, Pat Broeker, Mike Eldridge and I were
sitting around and we all agreed to stop smoking, although Broeker was the
only non-smoker. Mitoff had a horrible time of it. He ended up on Skoal
Bandits, spitting disgustingly into a bucket while driving back and forth
to LA, and also addicting me to the little cusses. In the end, I was the
only one who stopped, making me wish we had put some money in a pool.

In the months I spent between the Creston and Newberry ranches, Pat and I
became good friends. He had been Hubbard's closest and most trusted aide
and confident for those final years. With what I already knew about
Hubbard, Pat and I had the greatest talks. Sometimes Pat and I were the
only ones at the ranch, so we eould chat while moving horses or going to
town to shop. I began to learn about the life Hubbard had lead while in
hiding for those last years, moving between towns in the Bluebird bus and
finally settling down in Creston. (BTIAS)


THE STRUGGLE STARTS - WHO WILL REPLACE HUBBARD?

Meanwhile, a power struggle was brewing to see who would take control of
Scientology and Newberry was the place where many of the discussions
occurred while DM stayed either in LA or in Hemet. (Jesse will have
something to say about that someday because he was seriously involved in
the ensuing explosion.) It would result in a number of people fleeing
(such as Jesse) or going to the RPF (such as me).

A key element in the power struggle was Hubbard's last message to the
rank-and-file. Those who were in the cult back in 1986-87 will remember
this incident. It was a message from Hubbard that was issued as a Sea Org
directive. It said goodbye, wishing them well and establishing a new
rank/position called Loyal Officer or LO. (The term is taken from OT3.)
Pat was to be the LO1 and his wife Annie was to be LO2 and it basically
turned the management of the Sea Org over to them. And since the SO ran
Scientology, that meant they were at the top of the heap. DM was not
mentioned in the directive. It was later was issued to all staff -
with DM's approval and authority - reduced in size and put in a small
fram with a photo of Hubbard for the desk of every staff member.

In the meantime, Pat began to slowly take control. I would often get phone
calls from him. He would never identify himself on the phone, going back
to his years of tight security, but merely would say, "Hi, it's me."

I won't try to give the details of the ensuing power struggle because I
was in LA and it was happened at Creston, Newberry and Hemet. (I leave it
to Jesse, who was there.) But the outcome was that Miscavige won. And
typical of any political coup, there was a sudden purge as he consolidated
his power. Anyone DM thought might be a friend of Broeker's who would pose
a threat were sent to Scientology's equivalent of Lubayanka Prison or
Siberia: the RPF, so I went. For 16 months and three escape attempts.

Now here is where it gets interesting, folks.

MISCAVIGE CANCELS HUBBARD'S MESSAGE

While I was on the RPF, a directive came out from Miscavige saying the
supposed final message from Hubbard that named Broeker was a forgery by
Broeker and it was being canceled. That same day, Annie Broeker appeared
on the RPF. This was not the Annie I had come to know. What stumbled into
the RPF was a completely broken person. She was pale and hollow and her
eyes were empty. There was no mistaking it. She had been broken and only
now was she being thrown away into the trash heap called the RPF. Even
then, she was kept under guard, just to be sure.

TWO IMPORTANT OMITTEDS

With the cancellation of the message from Hubbard, there were now two
vital things missing that were 100% Hubbard and 100% standard tech and
yet no one seemed to notice or, if they did, no one dared to remark on it.
But then, as Hubbard correctly pointed out, the hardest thing to notice is
the thing that is omitted.

What was now missing was (1) something from Hubbard to all Scientologists
saying goodbye and what he was doing and (2) something that passed his
hat, which is one of the most basic tenets in the organization. They had
been missing at the event announcing his death but with the cancellation
by Miscavige, they were missing more than ever.


WHERE WAS HUBBARD'S MESSAGE?

One does not require much knowledge about L. Ron Hubbard to know that it
would be completely unlike him to simply leave - especially if the story
about his going off to do more research were true - and not leave a
message. So if he HAD left as Scientologists were told, where was the
message if the other was a forgery?

But perhaps more importantly, where was the hat turnover? I don't mean the
volumes of policies and bulletins. I mean something that says, I hereby
appoint Joe Blow to take over as... Would Hubbard leave the planet and not
pass on the command? Hardly.

Or let's put it in one of the most basic tenets from Hubbard: if it isn't
written, it isn't true.

(Note: Hubbard's will was hardly a Scientology hat turnover and has not
been issued to the rank and file as policy.)

So the question became (to those of us who wondered), if the LO directive
was a forgery, where was the real one? Where were Hubbard's wishes IN
WRITING?

MISCAVIGE HAD NOTHING FROM HUBBARD

Of course, DM never provided anything and no one was willing to ask and
risk being sent to the RPF with the rest of us. He said it was a forgery
and that was that. End of discussion.

For the rest of my stay in the cult, Pat Broeker was never mentioned
because, in the cult, you learn what to not talk about. Pat became what in
Orwell's "1984" is a non-person. He had been written out of history, with
anyone who cared (such as me) being sent to the RPF or interrogated
(security checked) until they got the point, which meant (per the head on
a pike policy) that everyone else got the message.

So without a shred of WRITTEN evidence from Hubbard and by canceling what
even DM had first agreed was from Hubbard, Miscavige was now in control
while Broeker had disappeared.

Can you say, "coup"?

But hold on! It gets better.

READING THE MATERIAL ANEW

After Stacy and I fled the cult in 1989, I put it all behind me. I simply
wanted my life back and the last thing I needed was to think about the
cult. They had taken enough of my life without my adding more. But after a
couple of years of drying out, Stacy and I were invited to help with some
legal cases and this gave us a chance to handle the material that once
handled us. We could now read Hubbard and TALK about the material, which
is completely forbidden in the cult. It was like back-flushing a radiator
and watching what comes out.

I came across a copy of Miscavige's cancellation of Hubbards final message
and I began to kick it around with Stacy. As we talked, I started to
comment on the various little oddities, starting with the cancellation
itself. I began to remember a few others that I had packed away at the
time. We were having a conversation that Sea Org staff could no more do
than a loyal Communists might question the a change of power in the
Kremlin, and for the same reasons.


AN "ACCEPTABLE TRUTH" IS FED SCIENTOLOGISTS

In the weeks and months that followed, I couldn't shake the events
surrounding Hubbard's death and DM's takeover. Little oddities took on
forms like pieces of a jig saw puzzle. I felt like an amnesiac trying to
recover his memory yet what was there to recover? I was there at the
ranch. I was there when Hubbard's body was taken out. I was there when the
execs were called up the ranch and told to get an event together, but not
being told why. I was there when the attorneys reported his death and then
scurried to get the body through the coroner. Etc, etc, etc. So what was
the problem? Yeah, the next higher level of research story was the sort of
pap we used to feed the rank-and-file all the time but it wasn't as if we
LIED to them. (Sort of the way Clinton said he didn't LEGALLY lie.) We
didn't LEGALLY lie, did we?

Per Hubbard's policy, they were given an "acceptable truth" because of
"the greatest good for the greatest number of dynamics." What that means
in plain speak was that there would be panic and disaffection in the ranks
if it was thought that Hubbard - the OT of all OTs, of course - was not at
cause over life and death. If the tech couldn't help him, how could it
help others? That was the myth that had to be protected at all costs and
that was what the story did when his death was announced. It fed the myth
that everyone so wanted to believe. (And it kept the money coming in.)

WORKING WITH PUZZLE PIECES

While in the cult, I had done a lot of investigative reporting and some of
the best I did was working on some of the CIA's mind control documents
created under the code name MK ULTRA. When the CIA released them, much was
blanked out and working with a team of people hand-selected by Stacy, we
went through documents that the media had skipped past because they were
so fragmentary and so heavily deleted. In one file, for example, there
were receipts for the installation of mufflers on a 1953 Mercury, a tiny
battery-powered motor, elevator tickets to the Empire State Building, nose
plugs, a receipt for someone to attend a Microscropy convention, etc.

Bit by bit, we struggled to give them meaning until one piece cracked
another, like breaking a code. We came up with the experiment and got
national news on Operation Big City where bacillus were released (through
the mufflers) to test for bacterial warfare. (The elevator tickets were so
agents could go up and measure the amount of released bacteria.) It is a
story the cult still likes to cite, along with several others I did for
them, under my byline in the Freedom rag. Since then, per Orwell, my name
has been deleted, of course.

Pouring over those heavily deleted CIA documents was how I felt like while
I chewed on the oddities around Hubbard's death, such as nothing in
writing from him, Broeker missing, the fact that Denk (Hubbard's physician
at the time of death) had also disappeared, Annie's appearance and little
things that I had seen and learned at the ranch.


THE BLUE FLASH

And then it hit me. It was what Hubbard calls a blue flash, the sudden
insight.

Hubbard didn't die.

He was killed.

I fell back in my chair, completely stunned. In all of the years since
1986, I had never once considered that possibility. Even with my being
long out of the cult and directing criticism at various practices and
policies, the thought had never crossed my mind that Hubbard might have
been killed.

I got a sheet of paper and began to take notes, my heart pounding and my
breathing hurried. That nagging feeling had turned into an adrenaline rush
that I couldn't explain.

Who was there at the Creston ranch when Hubbard died?

* Pat Broeker - MIA.

* Annie Broeker - broken, under their control.

* Two Scientology ranch hands. While trusted to work on the ranch, I
came to see how much they were kept out of the loop.

* Gene Denk - Hubbard's personal physician. (And mine. Small world.)
Denk had disappeared for a year after the death, which was one of those
oddities, before returning to his practice up the street from the main
Hollywood complex.

End of list, a too-short list so I started to add who went up that night
in the three-car caravan that included DM, some attorneys and a couple of
us "gardeners and cooks." Nothing there.

I looked at the list. Pat Broeker was the only possibility, if he was out
and alive. For all I knew, he was dead or locked up somewhere and in a
mental state that approximated cold oatmeal. There was no middle ground.
He wouldn't have been given a safe back-lines job or I would have heard
about it.

SEARCHING FOR BROEKER

So how would I find Pat Broeker, if he was alive. I racked my memory,
trying to dig out some clue he might have given me in the months that we
were together but I came up with nothing. My tendency to not inquire about
a person's personallife had just sold me short. I didn't even know what
state he was from. Who might? Who would know where he came from or where
he was born? I needed some clue to start the search and the problem was
the security that Pat used for his job. He had explained to me how any
trace of him had been wiped out, to ensure that no one could find Hubbard
by finding him. Plus if Pat had escaped or fled, he was skilled enough to
hide from any search as that was what he had been doing for years to hide
Hubbard from the authorities.

I finally remembered one location he told me about and sent a message
there saying that I was trying to reach him but no reply came. After a few
months I sent another and waited. The months turned into nearly a year and
I basically gave up until one day when the phone rang.

"Hello?" I said.

"Hi," came a voice. "It's me."

I paused, saying nothing.

"Pat?" I finally said with some incredulity. "Is that you?"

"Yeah," he said, with what I swear was a twinkle in his voice. "How are
you?"

What a question!

RINDER WAKES UP

Let's jump ahead a few years when I was in a deposition in Denver, in the
FACTNet case. The usual goon squad was there, including Mike Rinder, who
proudly heads up the criminal Dept. 20 where Scientology's felons are
produced. Rinder was struggling to stay awake in the corner while the cult
attorney was going through a list of names, wanting to know if I had
spoken with any of them. Rinder's head was bobbing as the attorney asked
monotonously, "Pat Broeker?"

I glanced at Rinder. I had to enjoy this one.

"Yes," I said.

I couldn't have gotten a faster reaction with a bucket of water. Rinder
jumped awake and looked at me in shock, fear and hatred. I smiled.

The questions about my involvement with Broeker were routine, from a list
that they asked for each person I named but Broeker wasn't routine. They
soon stopped to take a break. Like the good sock puppet that he is, Rinder
dashed out of the room, obviously to call DM. (I so wish I could have
watched DM's face too.) About 15 minutes later, Rinder returned and shoved
some questions at the attorney and the depo continued. But little was
gained and not one question was asked about what Pat might have told me
about Hubbard's death, if he had at all. They clearly didn't want it
on the record, under oath. I found it amusing, this great powerful cult
was so terrified of the subject, not to mention Broeker.

So let me tell you a little bit about Pat: he's doing fine and his sense of
humor has improved. End of a little bit.

THE CORONER'S REPORT

Now lets back up a tad, before Pat and I spent several days together,
going over old times. I went to San Luis Obispo, the county seat for where
Hubbard died. It was there that I got the full coroner's report from a
very friendly deputy sheriff. I poured over the pages and noticed that
something called Vistaril was found in Hubbard's blood. Since the cause of
death was a stroke, I assumed it was a stroke medication so I didn't
bother further. Several days later, I called a physician friend and was
going over the documents and the medical language.

"By the way,? I asked casually, "what's Vistaril?"

"A psychiatric tranquilizer," he answered matter-of-factly.

I nearly dropped the phone.

"Excuse me," I said in near-shock, "but what did you say?"

"Vistaril is a psychiatric tranquilizer, usually injected through the
buttocks."

I flipped to the document where the Coroner had examined Hubbard's body. I
read it to my friend, about the needle puncture wounds found on the left
buttock, under a band-aid. "Could that be the Vistaril shots," I asked.

"Probably," he said. "That's where they are usually given."

I looked at the Coroner's report and the blood sample report.

Holy shit, I said to myself, in my best French. Holy fucking shit.

THE AUTOPSY IS PROHIBITED

I pulled out another document, signed by Hubbard. It prohibited any
autopsy of his body on religious grounds, which was legally binding on
officials. DM and attorney Earle Cooley had shoved it at the coroner to
stop him, leaving him to take only blood samples, which turned up the
Vistaril.

So, I thought, L. Ron Hubbard, the man who fought psychiatry since 1950
and who railed against the dangers of any psychiatric drugs had died with
them in his brain while signing a new last will.

Plus even the coroner was suspicious of the will as it had been signed by
Hubbard just before he died. Coincidences like that tend to make coroner's
worry. (I wonder what the coroner would have thought had he known that
Denk was gambling at Lake Tahoe when Hubbard had his stroke, as several
people can attest. The impression the coroner had was that Denk was "in
attendence" with Hubbard not only at death but was there at the stroke,
having stayed at the ranch for months. Hmmm....)

I fell back in my chair, trying to catch my breath.


OUTPOINTS? WHAT OUTPOINTS?

Okay, I said to myself, lets see if we understand this. Hubbard signs a
will while on the psychiatric tranquilizer Vistaril and then dies. The
coroner cannot conduct an autopsy because Hubbard also signed a paper
(also while on Vistaril?) prohibiting an autopsy on religious grounds. The
Scientologist doctor who was in attendance (except when he went to Lake
Tahoe and Hubbard had the stroke) signs the death certificate as the
physician attending to Hubbard and then disappears for a year. Then even
though David Miscavige has nothing else in writing from Hubbard, he
cancels Hubbard's last message and hat transfer to trusted aide Broeker
and ousts Broeker, who disappears while his wife is turned into a
compliant vegetable, leaving DM in charge.

Nope, nothing wrong here, I facetiously thought. No outpoints, borrowing
Hubbard's word for oddities.

I had to take a walk.

STARTING WITH A TITLE

I don't know when it was but I clearly remember a particular moment when I
sat down at my computer keyboard. I am one of those writers who needs
either the opening words of the article or a working title in order to
really start. I had a working title, not for an article, but a book, and I
typed it out. Then I leaned back in my chair, took a deep breath and read
it. It said, "Who Killed L. Ron Hubbard?"

I leaned back and my eyes roamed over each word and letter. I took in the
question and then the words and letters and back to the question. I even
digested the tiny pixels on the screen, as if I hoped the answer would
leap from the phosphorescence but nothing changed but the black cursor
blinking at me, almost mocking my effort. Yes, I thought, it is a
pretentious question but it was the one I had to try to answer, if there
was an answer.

Then I had the exact moment for the opening words. It was on the night
that Terri Gamboa - former Executive Director of Author Services, Inc.
and now out of Scientology - called me to DM's office where I was told
that Hubbard had died and that I would be going to his ranch.

THE WRITING STARTS

I leaned towards the keyboard and began to write. To my amazement, the
words and the scene poured out effortlessly. I wasn't striving for
literature. I merely had to capture the scene.

As the cursor flitted across the screen, I began to remember how it
happened that night and into the days that followed. There was more that I
needed to remember but for now, this would do. Let it roll, I told myself.
Let it roll. It was as if I was regaining myself.

Perhaps six or so hours later, I finally stopped, exhausted and
sufficiently satisfied for the moment. But even then, I found it difficult
to sleep as my mind kept returning to the ranch, Broeker, DM, the RPF, the
Challenger disaster, Newberry, the ambulance taking away his body. I was
searching for pieces of a puzzle that had no comprehension.

And how could I possibly answer the question?

HOOKED ON HUBBARD

What ensued over the next few years was more of a personal journey than a
professional quest, meaning - as I came to learn very recently - because
it was as much a search for closure on part of my life as it was a search
for the story. But then, that is so often the case with writers, as anyone
who has studied literature knows.

As I pursued it/him/me, it took me around the country and into subjects
that I never expected, such as meeting with police who were involved in
the investigation of the odd suicide of Flo Barnett, David Miscavige's
mother-in law. She was found with several shots to the chest with the coup
de grace to the temple, all from a rifle. (At one point, the cult grilled
me in a deposition about her death, asking if I had any evidence of any
foul play. No, I said, which made them happy. They failed to ask me if
anyone else has any evidence. Scientology: Knowing how to know. Yup.)

I even came across people who claimed to know about Miscavige's
in-the-cult-sex life, via accounts from his wife Shelly. (Scientology
confessional methods have an interesting rippling effect.) If true, I felt
sorry for her.

THE WRITING STALLS

But when I tried to continue my writing, it stalled and I struggled. At
one point I became so disillusioned that I killed the idea for nearly a
year as a ridiculous obsession but then like a weed taking root, it
sprouted again but only to wither and die in my inspirational drought. Was
it the subject or was it me? Had my disregard of the Muse prompted a like
response?

I had not written anything truly worthwhile since 1991, when my article
for San Diego Magazine won two journalism awards, from the Society of
Professional Journalist and the San Diego Press Club. The article was
about the dangers in the flight pattern of the San Diego airport, from the
perspective of the pilots who flew it.

When we fled the cult in 1989, we settled in Ocean Beach, on the Point
Loma Peninsula because of the nearby Dog Beach where a hundred canines
would romp on any given summer day. The downside was that Ocean Beach was
in the westerly flight path of Lindbergh Field and the roar of the jets
above us garnered enough attention to prompt my learning that the flight
path was the target of a citizens group. They in turn introduced me to
pilots who were concerned about the safety of the eastern approach and my
journalistic tendencies took over and the magazine accepted my query.

The article was woven around a hypothetical flight approaching Lindbergh
Field that I had constructed from interviews with a dozen experienced
commercial pilots, moving the reader from cockpit to the airport back to
cockpit to FAA regulations and back to cockpit and then to buildings that
loomed in the pilot's eyes as he seemingly navigated them like the cars a
few hundred feet below. The pilot's called it a "white knuckle landing."

Braiding these elemtns was a thrill and a challenge and the article drew
more letters of praise than anything the magazine had published in years,
the editor told me, prompting them to publish letters for the next three
months. They received only one critical letter, from a Coast Guard pilot
who liked the approach. I guess he loved the thrill.


WRITING FOR THE REAL WORLD

When my name was announced as the best news magazine article at the awards
banquet for the San Diego Press Club, I was stunned for two reasons. Yes,
winning was a thrill. But there was a more important reason: I had
succeeded as a writer. I hadn't written it according to "policy" or to
fulfill some program step or as an amends project or to attack some
imagined enemy. My editor didn't require that I include certain buttons and
attack phrases and the article didn't need i/a or issue authority to be
certain that it forwarded the most current Party Line. It was MY article
and I had chosen the style and techniques and my professional peers
applauded as I walked to the podium to accept the plaque.

THIS was what writing was about, I realized: the freedom to write without
propaganda or Party Line, without a Big Brother looking over my
shoulder, as if I am the old Soviet Union.

Suddenly there was a separation between what I had been doing for 20 years
in the cult and what writing truly was about. All one has to do is pick up
any Scientology publication, especially their rag called Freedom and watch
the propaganda drip off the page like the rotting garbage it is. What
astounded me was how I had come to believe that this was writing, not
unlike how writers for Pravda probably felt during the Communist regime.
But writing for Pravda or Freedom is to writing what prostitutes are to
love and for the same reason.


RETURNING TO THE MUSE

And so I began to long to return to my greatest and dearest love and I
realized that just as the cult had drained my creativity by demanding
propaganda instead of art, so had my post-cult days. A piece that I wrote
for Quill magazine about how Scientology manipulates the media
(http://www.scientology.no.net/archive/media/young-quill.html) was
informative but it was hardly satisfying to me as a writer. Another that I
wrote for Der Spiegel magazine about the top secret Snow White program
(http://cisar.org/g50925ae.htm) was as satisfying as eating cardboard
because it appeared in German. How can a writer see and judge the final
piece if he/she cant even read it? At least it hd some photos.

I began to ask myself, what am I doing? In the cult they wanted propaganda
pieces attacking imagined enemies that made the cult executives feel good
when they read them. (That is always the most important audience for such
propaganda. It makes the members feel as if this is reality and truth when
it is nothing but one's own sock puppet show.) And outside of the cult, I
was writing stories and giving sound bites about Scientology, whether it
be for a newspaper, magazine or TV show. Where was I as a writer, other
than as an email address? So I turned more to cats than cults. At least
they purred.


HOW IT WENT OFF THE RAILS

With some help, I began to see what had happened to me. During my nearly
21 years in the cult, I had sold my creative soul as certainly as if I had
worked for a money-grubbing ad agency, and in that regard, the two aren't
any different. My proudest achievement - the San Diego story - came after
the cult and before I started consulting on Scientology cases and writing
about the cult. As a writer, I had moved from one cult to another. It was
no wonder that I had spun my wheels for years on that book. I realized
that if I am to regain that joy of writing so the Muse can inspire me to
the completion of any effort, it had to recapture what I was free to do a
few years earlier. But to do that, to entice the Muse to return, I have to
step away from this arena for as long as it takes, whether it be a month
or a year. The Muse works not by deadlines.

How did I come to all of this? At a little retreat called Wellspring in
southern Ohio, where I was able to relax and write and walk with Mac and
talk with friends about any subject I pleased. I could arise in the middle
of the night, as I often did, to pound out something on my laptop until I
wanted to crash until my next inspiration, whatever the hour. Meanwhile,
the kitchen downstairs was stocked for any meal or snack, or prepared for
me if I wanted to devote my time to my own recovery rather than making
dinner. Or I could walk the rolling hills with Mac and a few others of his
species and enjoy the fading purple Ironwood flowers, indicating the end
of summer. Or if the silence was too much, I could watch TV or go into
nearby Athens (a college town, for Ohio University) and enjoy a coffee
house, movie or a good used bookstore, the kind found only in college
towns.


CULTS VS. CREATIVITY

Yes, I realized, this is definitely the type of place that Scientology
would hate for it allows freedom and creativity. They would have to hate
it and pump the propaganda just as Pravda attacked the institutions west
of the Berlin Wall that represented the antithesis of the official Kremlin
Party Line. Any true freedom challenges boundaries, especially those that
pretend to be otherwise, as Communism pretended to be the bastion of true
peace and freedom. One can even find and measure totalitarian systems by
their knee-jerk party lines and Scientology is among the best. I know
because I did it for so very long from inside, and then became their
target from this other side.

Wellspring was important because they know what it is like to try to be
free in an abusive environment, whether it be a marriage or a cult or a
job. (They work with a lot of abused women.) Abuse is abuse. Terror is
terror. It differs by degrees and it rips away individuality and
creativity and future for the individual.

But at Wellspring, I was free to write and to peel away the barriers to my
own creativity that included not only the cult but post-cult and pre-cult
experiences, even back to the days when I wrote for school papers or for
the anti-war movement in San Francisco or a political campaign, of which
there were several for me in the 1960s. It was no wonder I was so
qualified to produce propaganda for an abusive cult. I had been writing
propaganda for years!

This is what my two weeks at Wellspring gave me, amongst other insights.
(Results will vary, as label disclaimers remind us.)(laugh) But it was
what I needed to regain a personal integrity that any abusive system,
especially a cult, despises.


BACK TO THE FUTURE

So that is what I was doing, am doing and going to do and it will require
concentration and reflection and time which is why I've not been on ARS
and won't be, for as long as I must.

My apologies to many friends who have left messages or sent me mail and
gotten no reply. It's difficult to explain why one is so involved with an
idea or a project or any creative effort, so that virtually nothing else
exists. I usually don't even like to talk about it or discuss it. Stacy is
an exception because she has followed this journey since it started. It
was when she told me how many were reaching her to ask about me that I
realized it would be rude to continue to say nothing, given the role I
have played in this endeavor. (I even shared this post with her before
sending it.)

So don't take it personal if you get no reply. Consider it just the
eccentricity that some writers get into when they latch onto an idea and
lock themselves away or take long walks or won't talk to anyone and get up
at all hours of the night (it is 4:30 a.m. as I type this), chewing on an
idea, a style, a voice, a scene, a thread and then throwing it all away
and starting again or merely prowling for more information or even
traveling with a friend or a dog to take a break.

My intention is merely to restore and rebuild the creative self I touched
earlier and then decide on my direction. It is not a matter of disdain for
hack writing. That is snobbery. There is a place and time for classic hack
writing just as there is a place for great B movies. Few of us can live on
pure diets of Shakespeare, Mozart and Kant.


KEYBOARDS AND FREEDOM

What does this have to do with the original idea that I was writing about?
The best answer I can give is, we'll see. Besides, there is more to write
about, including fiction. Or I might find another airport.

Besides, with HTML and the Net, writing (not to mention publication) has
changed. One no longer needs a footnote or an appendix with documents when
HTML can link to a document, a map, a photograph or even a video. A writer
who knows HTML - which I have had the good fortune to learn - has greater
opportunities and options and freedoms.

It used to be said that freedom of the press belonged to those who owned
one. Well, with the Internet, that freedom can now belong to anyone with a
keyboard and THAT is what dries the mouth, puckers the hole and strikes
fear in the heart of every tyrant. What Tom Paine could have done today!

So there you are, a writer's account of himself, past, present and future.
It is long because it is easier than ever to write. Never has a keyboard
felt so clean and comfortable. I hope each of you, especially those in a
cult or out of a cult, have a chance to find YOUR true talent and purpose.
It is what the world needs.

Keep the faith.

Robert Vaughn Young
with a keyboard as a wri...@eskimo.com

P.S Wellspring has a web page at <wellspring.albany.oh.us>.

Rod Keller

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You can find LRH's coroner's report at
http://www.oakharbor.net/skyhawk/cos/lrh/lrhind.html

--
Rod Keller / rke...@voicenet.com / Irresponsible Publisher
Black Hat #1 / Expert of the Toilet / CWPD Mouthpiece
The Lerma Apologist / Merchant of Chaos / Vision of Destruction
Killer Rod / OSA Patsy / Quasi-Scieno / Mental Bully

Deana Marie Holmes

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On 2 Sep 1998 04:34:34 GMT, wri...@eskimo.com (Robert Vaughn Young)
wrote:

>HUBBARD'S DEATH

If you want to look at the actual coroner's report, go to:

http://www.oakharbor.net/skyhawk/cos/lrh/lrhind.html

I love the Net!


Deana Marie Holmes
The Few, The Proud, The Banned (2x + 1 ISP on Scientology ban list)
$cientology: Sponsor Windows84: "Where CAN'T you go today?
mir...@xmission.com

bc

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-----BEGIN PGP SIGNED MESSAGE-----

On 2 Sep 1998 04:34:34 GMT, wri...@eskimo.com (Robert Vaughn Young)

brewed up the following, and served it to the group:

>INTRODUCTION: The length of this post is relevant to its
>subject. It does include some Scientologese. If you find a
>word you don't understand, call your local Dianetics or
>Scientology organization and ask them to define it. They
>like people to do this. Be sure to tell them you are reading
>alt.religion.scientology.

<snipped purely for brevity>

>So there you are, a writer's account of himself, past,
>present and future. It is long because it is easier than
>ever to write. Never has a keyboard felt so clean and
>comfortable. I hope each of you, especially those in a
>cult or out of a cult, have a chance to find YOUR true
>talent and purpose. It is what the world needs.
>
>Keep the faith.
>
>Robert Vaughn Young
>with a keyboard as a wri...@eskimo.com
>
>P.S Wellspring has a web page at
><wellspring.albany.oh.us>.

RVY--Thank you so much for this post. I really don't know what else
to say. My short time in the cult was enough to show me that
creativity, true creativity, is anathema to Co$. First they tried
to take my sense of humor, and then they wanted to take my music.

I understand.

Thanks again for posting this. I, and I am sure many others here,
wish you all the best.

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rod_fl...@my-dejanews.com

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In article <6sihsq$vsj$1...@eskinews.eskimo.com>,

wri...@eskimo.com (Robert Vaughn Young) wrote:
>
> INTRODUCTION: The length of this post is relevant to its subject.

snip, snip, snip.


(Or)wellspring is one spooky place. (It's not an accident that it
was set up in 1984?) Young goes there for a couple of weeks and
comes back writing like a zombie. He's turned pathetic. The
brainwashing worked. He wastes our time regurgitating stuff he
has been telling us for years. A legend in his own, downsized mind
- courtesy of Orwellspring. First Stacy, then RV. Minton is molding
his robots, his personal Frankensteins. Whose going to get the
treatment next? Anyone want to bet? The most likely target may well
be "The Con-Artist Formerly Known As Prince"? Rod.

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Cicero...@usa.net

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In article <6sihsq$vsj$1...@eskinews.eskimo.com>,
wri...@eskimo.com (Robert Vaughn Young) wrote:

> Hi, guys. Long time no write, which is what this post is really about.

> I've been posting to ARS for a few years now and then I disappeared,
> although I was occasionally in touch with several of you via email. I
> want to tell you what's been going on.

Wow, the spy who came in from the cold.

Same old stuff we've heard many times - two weeks to reformat your
old files? What is omitted (and not hard to notice) is no comment
on the fact that Minton bought your wife and left you to stroke
your old dog!

Have you been completely emasculated by Bob's Big Boy?

Inquiring minds want to know.

Is the animal farm being converted into something a little more in
keeping of a woman of Mrs Brooks-Young-Minton's station in life now?
Or is she going to take up residence somewhere else and leave the
animal farm to you?

Pour forth oh mighty Muse. We await your prose and sage words of
wisdom.

Cicero

> Robert Vaughn Young
> with a keyboard as a wri...@eskimo.com
>
> P.S Wellspring has a web page at <wellspring.albany.oh.us>.

Anonymous

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Jesus H Christ, Robert! Your post makes me feel sorry for you, makes
me cry. What happened to the once so proud Robert 'Fuck 'em all!'
Vaughn Young? The man who sold real stories like the one in San
Diego? Not sob stories! Sorry, old dude, your story is just that: a
sob story. Man, look in a mirror. You come across like an old,
retired hippie. RV and his Lassie. Looks like Wellspring made you
more docile than Mac, that dog. (Is that dog for real or is it some
imagined hound which keeps you company and doubles as someone you can
talk to when you hit the mental doldrums?) What makes me sick is that
you just stand there looking like an oaf while Bob Minton runs off
with your wife, balls her until she can take no more of the
Viagra-induced humping and locks you up in some deprogramming farm
(a well-stocked kitchen - wow, cool, hip hip hurra!) Have you given
up this last residue of pride even the lowliest hobo drags around in
his knapsack and resigned yourself to living out the rest of your
days as a "horned" man. I can't stand the siruppy stream of
consciousness you posted because it just shows you have gone soft
where, presumably, Stacy once played with a couple nuts. If you go
any softer, you will melt. Don't do this, because that would be
another sob story, and I can't take another one!

An Oldtimer


Zane Thomas

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On Wed, 02 Sep 1998 17:52:50 GMT, Cicero...@usa.net wrote:

>Have you been completely emasculated by Bob's Big Boy?

Once again an anonymous OSA thug demonstrates to the world what fine
spiritual values the tax-exempt "church"<spit> teaches.

Anonymous

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Woe is vaughn, muse got your tongue? Too much catnip? unbalanced
lithium springing from the well?

Vaughn get ahold of yourself. That's not you speaking. You've been
successfully depersonalized.

Bring back the old RVY. Sure he was an asshole, but he had a
personality. This cyber-psycho needs real help.

BKG


ind...@dangerous-minds.com

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In article <1998090218...@replay.com>,

Anonymous <nob...@replay.com> wrote:
> Jesus H Christ, Robert! Your post makes me feel sorry for you, makes
> me cry. What happened to the once so proud Robert 'Fuck 'em all!'
> Vaughn Young?

(More blather follows. Does not bear repeating.

Obvious troll. Did you write this one to get your stats up?

--
Indigo
ex-COS (1978-1998)
former CMO INT staffer

Mike O'Connor

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In article <1998090218...@replay.com>, Anonymous
<nob...@replay.com> wrote:

> Jesus H Christ, Robert! [...]

> An Oldtimer

Where is HIDING on the tone scale, Oldtimer? Why do ALL your cult
spokespeople do it?

-Mike
Censored by Scientology

Bev

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Anonymous wrote:

<SNIP>

Oh Dear, too bad you pushed and pushed, but coulnd't find
any buttons to upset RVY.

Sorry to tell you this, but RVY is going to be pushing some
buttons.

Gee, he may even tear some whole fabric. Of course, when
the garment is made of ~cheese-cloth~, it shouldn't be
too surprising.

Sit back and enjoy what's coming.

Beverly

Cicero...@usa.net

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Interesting circumstances surrounding Vaughn.

At Wellspring getting brainwashed at Minton's expense. Why not
choose some other hotel to "get away from it all"? They have
room service too?

It appears that Wellspring has done a good job in brainwashing
you because you carefully avoided the subject of Minton having
stolen your wife.

You seem to have reinvented your own history too. What happened
to the part about your failed career as a cab driver?

Cicero

In article <6sihsq$vsj$1...@eskinews.eskimo.com>,
wri...@eskimo.com (Robert Vaughn Young) wrote:
>

> Hi, guys. Long time no write, which is what this post is really about.

snip


> This is what my two weeks at Wellspring gave me, amongst other insights.
> (Results will vary, as label disclaimers remind us.)(laugh) But it was
> what I needed to regain a personal integrity that any abusive system,
> especially a cult, despises.

snip


> Robert Vaughn Young
> with a keyboard as a wri...@eskimo.com
>
> P.S Wellspring has a web page at <wellspring.albany.oh.us>.

-----== Posted via Deja News, The Leader in Internet Discussion ==-----

Martin Hunt

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In article <1998090218...@replay.com>,
OSAnonymous <nob...@replay.com> wrote:

>Jesus H Christ, Robert!

You're hitting a nerve, Robert; keep up the good work. :-)

--
Cogito, ergo sum.
"Scientology is evil to the core." - Jesse Prince, former core
Scientologist.
http://www.islandnet.com/~martinh/prince/prince.htm

ska...@postoffice.pacbell.net

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Anonymous wrote:

> Jesus H Christ, Robert! Your post makes me feel sorry for you, makes
> me cry. What happened to the once so proud Robert 'Fuck 'em all!'

(snip of boring attempt to be funny)

Let me guess. You're a graduate of the Celebrity Center's "How To Be a
Comedian" course. Your post reflects the $11.00 you paid to take the
class. :(


Martin Hunt

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In article <6skopd$1e9$1...@nnrp1.dejanews.com>,
brians...@my-dejanews.com wrote:

>Vaughn Young has been a failure at everything he
>attempted in life. Including the truth. Bankruptcy
>was his reward.

Why was such a downstat ever allowed on staff, then? Why was
he made into an executive in the cult, if he was such a dismal
failure? Shirley, you lie.

brians...@my-dejanews.com

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In article <6sihsq$vsj$1...@eskinews.eskimo.com>,
wri...@eskimo.com (Robert Vaughn Young) wrote:
>
> INTRODUCTION: The length of this post is relevant to its subject. It does
> include some Scientologese. If you find a word you don't understand, call
> your local Dianetics or Scientology organization and ask them to define
> it. They like people to do this. Be sure to tell them you are reading
> alt.religion.scientology.
>
> Hi, guys. Long time no write, which is what this post is really about.
>
snip snap


Any opinion for a price.

Even if for the sake of argument you accept Young's
allegation that he was somehow under the "control" of the
Church during those twenty years, why should anybody
believe what he says today when he is under the control
of others who decide the content of the testimony for
which Young is being paid?

Young is not his own master today. If he does not
provide the goods that others demand, he does not get
paid. So he has no alternative but to do others' bidding.

Vaughn Young has been a failure at everything he
attempted in life. Including the truth. Bankruptcy
was his reward.

And now he pays with his wife.

Brian

Rebecca Jo McLaughlin

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Robert Vaughn Young (wri...@eskimo.com) wrote:
:
[snip interesting post]

: I basically gave up until one day when the phone rang.


: "Hello?" I said.
: "Hi," came a voice. "It's me."
: I paused, saying nothing.
: "Pat?" I finally said with some incredulity. "Is that you?"
: "Yeah," he said, with what I swear was a twinkle in his voice. "How are
: you?"


To David Miscavige:

Ooops. Pulled it in good, didncha?

(heheh)

Beck

Tommy

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Something's coming, anonyclam.......bend over. And I will be glad to
quote your sleazy little rant in full - just in case anyone missed what
a nasty little item you are.....

Tommy


A typical $cientologist wrote:
>
> Jesus H Christ, Robert! Your post makes me feel sorry for you, makes
> me cry. What happened to the once so proud Robert 'Fuck 'em all!'

> Vaughn Young? The man who sold real stories like the one in San
> Diego? Not sob stories! Sorry, old dude, your story is just that: a
> sob story. Man, look in a mirror. You come across like an old,
> retired hippie. RV and his Lassie. Looks like Wellspring made you
> more docile than Mac, that dog. (Is that dog for real or is it some
> imagined hound which keeps you company and doubles as someone you can
> talk to when you hit the mental doldrums?) What makes me sick is that
> you just stand there looking like an oaf while Bob Minton runs off
> with your wife, balls her until she can take no more of the
> Viagra-induced humping and locks you up in some deprogramming farm
> (a well-stocked kitchen - wow, cool, hip hip hurra!) Have you given
> up this last residue of pride even the lowliest hobo drags around in
> his knapsack and resigned yourself to living out the rest of your
> days as a "horned" man. I can't stand the siruppy stream of
> consciousness you posted because it just shows you have gone soft
> where, presumably, Stacy once played with a couple nuts. If you go
> any softer, you will melt. Don't do this, because that would be
> another sob story, and I can't take another one!
>

> An Oldtimer (normally someone who's been in jail so long they've forgotten their own name)

--
'I'm drinking lots of rum and popping pinks and greys.'
-- Hubbard, 1967 letter to his wife submitted to the court in the
Armstrong
case, authenticity unchallenged by LRH/CoS lawyers

Anuhasaj

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On Thu, 03 Sep 1998 00:44:28 GMT, brians...@my-dejanews.com wrote:


> Vaughn Young has been a failure at everything he
> attempted in life. Including the truth. Bankruptcy
> was his reward.

Then explain why RVY had a high rank in $cientology?
Maybe you're trying to tell that $cientology has and
always will be failing.


J.M. Ivler

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In alt.religion.scientology Martin Hunt <mar...@islandnet.com> wrote:
> Why was such a downstat ever allowed on staff, then? Why was
> he made into an executive in the cult, if he was such a dismal
> failure? Shirley, you lie.

Of course he lies (don't all OSA staff?) , and stop calling him Shirley.


Beverly

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brians...@my-dejanews.com wrote:

> Any opinion for a price.

From the attention you and your other comrades are giving, I
would say there's something you seem to be concerned about.

You have tried to destroy Bob and Stacy, and you failed.

You thought Vaughn could be caved in, you were wrong.

You have no idea how badly your hatred and desire to utterly
ruin fellow human beings can backfire when all your little
birdies get rebuked and sent back on you.

Your plight shall be ten times worse than the first.

Beverly

Andreas Heldal-Lund

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On 2 Sep 1998 04:34:34 GMT, wri...@eskimo.com (Robert Vaughn Young) wrote:

[SNIP]


>RETURNING TO THE MUSE
>
>And so I began to long to return to my greatest and dearest love and I
>realized that just as the cult had drained my creativity by demanding
>propaganda instead of art, so had my post-cult days. A piece that I wrote
>for Quill magazine about how Scientology manipulates the media
>(http://www.scientology.no.net/archive/media/young-quill.html) was
>informative but it was hardly satisfying to me as a writer. Another that I

This has been moved here:

http://www.xenu.net/archive/media/young-quill.html

Best wishes, Andreas Heldal-Lund
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jus...@directnet.com

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Sep 5, 1998, 3:00:00 AM9/5/98
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Who wrote that Vaughn Young post? It didn't sound like Vaughn.
Well it sounded like a brainwashed puppet Vaughn. Minton probably
threatened him as well as forcing him to get brainwashed at
Wellspring.

Vaughn isn't much of a man, Minton steals his wife and Vaughn
writes. Maybe Vaughn should renounce women and run to Graham Berry.
It amounts to the same thing when you don't even fight back when
another guy just ups and screws your woman almost right beneath
your nose.

Vaughn, are you still living in the house that Minton bought your
wife with?

Justin


In article <6sihsq$vsj$1...@eskinews.eskimo.com>,


wri...@eskimo.com (Robert Vaughn Young) wrote:

> I've been posting to ARS for a few years now and then I disappeared,
> although I was occasionally in touch with several of you via email. I
> want to tell you what's been going on.

Beverly

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jus...@directnet.com wrote:

> Who wrote that Vaughn Young post? It didn't sound like Vaughn.

http://www.xenu.net/archive/co$pls.html

From the writings of L Ron, the Hubster:

Never let entheta pass unhandled. Prevention is better than
cure. Handle fast, handle with live communication, handle with
documentation, use PR technology including tone scale evaluation.
Liaise with your senior and the other divisions/bureaux. Maintain
ethics presence and see the matter through to a completion
including the discrediting of the attacker.
[...]
If there will be a long-term threat, you are to immediately evaluate
and originate a black PR campaign to destroy the person's repute and
to discredit them so thoroughly that they will be ostracized.
[...]
It is my specific intention that by the use of professional PR tactics
any opposition be not only dulled but permanently eradicated. This
takes data and planning before positive action can occur.

--L. Ron Hubbard, "Handling Hostile Contacts / Dead Agenting"

["Entheta" can be described as any discussion or writings critical of
the Co$; "theta" is any positive discussion on such matters.]

More at: http://www.xenu.net/archive/co$pls.html

Beverly

Rob Clark

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On Sat, 05 Sep 1998 07:00:31 -0400, Beverly <dbj...@iag.net> wrote:

the blubbard wrote:

>Liaise

GAK! cough! choke!

i HATE that fucking word!

rob

Antony Phillips

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Sep 7, 1998, 3:00:00 AM9/7/98
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This is an interesting thread, from the point of view that it starts
with some material about Rons death, and the church leadership
following his death.

Most of the rest of the thread seems to focus on anything but those
two subjects.

Like RVY, his 2D, his writing abilities, other things Hubbard has
said.

Are there any conclusions to be drawn from that?

Perhaps we are failing to focus our attention on something important.
Like my 2D and my writing abilities :-)
Ant Antony A Phillips
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David Gerard

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Sep 7, 1998, 3:00:00 AM9/7/98
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:the blubbard wrote:

:>Liaise


It's corporate[*] speak now. It'll take major surgery to excise it from
English.


[*] I mistyped this as copro-ate and marveled again at the perceptive
skills of my finger thetans.

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