Re: a poetic effort

[OJ Simpson]

On Dec 27, 1:29 pm, bc...@FreeNet.Carleton.CA (Eleonore Beaudoin)
wrote:
> OJ Simpson (tariq.1.ra...@spamgourmet.com) writes:
> > the day i was fired i went home and cried out loud
> > that was the day i fell forever out of the crowd.
>
> > from then on, marked and scarred, i could barely breathe
> > at others' joy and laughs, i could only seethe
>
> > now the snow slashes through my withered heart,
> > try as i do to function, i simply cannot restart.
>
> > those who remember me recall only a blurry face
> > someone who never thought suicide was a disgrace.
>
> > oh to have a noose yank and sever my brain stem
> > to be found lifeless in my own feces and phlegm
>
> Not a very pretty sight...
> Nor  is it very uplifting a tought nor life mode...:(
>
> It sometimes can be a good thing to not be remembered, to start wit a new
> slate, to meet new faces, without any expectations towards what can come
> out of it, each little moment taken as a surplus that would otherise not
> have existed.
>
> Most people do not want to suicide: they want to Live. They just do not
> want to live *what they were living* anymore...
>
> Starting with that idea, it might be worth trying soemthing else then
> instead of throwing that life away: making a new life with new thoughts,
> cleaning the slate of the mind too, as in New life, ad not as in dragging
> the old feelings and thoughts into the next moment.
>
> Can you consult, where you are?
> Maybe you aready do, I don't know...
>
> Do you read?
>
> How is te finanial side doing? Can you afford renting movies and trying to
> go places, or buying a book or magazine?
>
> Sometiems a magazine is easier, wen oen is really down and out, for
> shorter thigns to read, and more actuality, also lending itself better to
> start conversations with others around us. Like if one can afford to of
> course, having a magazine to read whle having a coffee somehwere where
> other peopel come and go. Somehwere where there are tables where you can
> sit and feel at ease to not be thrown out if you take your time to read
> the said magazine...
>
> Some palces have newspapers they leave for others to read, too....
> In that costing only the coffee.
>
> Where abouts do you live? North America or other? N need to specify if it
> is too personal, just trying to think of things to try that might fit
> where you woudl happen to live...
>
> Do you look for work? Or do you feel like it has been too long with
> nothing on your resume and feel stuck, maybe?
>
> Could you afford a class? Or do you feel like by now you could not go out,
> a bit agoraphobic maybe from being stuck indoors?
>
> What do you do with your days?
>
> BTW, the contact on my page as severed, but not by me. Perhaps some
> mishap? I have a lot of trouble with my system...A new one coming up soon,
> and hopefully that will solve the communication problems...
>
> Feel free to reinitiate the contact at ny time if ever you care for it, of
> course...
>
> Tried to email you XMas wish with card pic, but it bounced....
>
> C
not much to say, i live in the western hemisphere and work and read,
that's about it. i don't talk to many people, not that they have much
to learn from hearing me. i don't have much to spend, so to stay
current i read in the library and in coffee places, as you mentioned