Just a baby in recovery, I don’t pickup, pray, talk to another alcohol/
addict, attend a meeting everyday and read the literature.
Interviewing Sponsors, ha ha! A block from my house is a Meeting
House and a long term Treatment Center also within a block. I am more
than a frequent visitor at both. Any problems I have are for the most
part shared with another addict. To vent, as well for feed back to
certain situations. Whoo, hoo!
I am afraid, yet stay vigilant of my recovery, because this time, it
seems easy to stay away from the stuff. Praise the Lord!I follow the
instruction from meetings and recovery addicts. I stay in gratitude
and I give of myself. It says ”to practice these principles in all of
our affairs.” Wow! This makes the situations I believed overwhelming,
not quite so devastating! I still go there but , I don’t stay, as
long! I’m 49 years old but, I feel like I just turned 18 or 21. I’m
growing up at 49, still lost and confused but that’s because it’s all
new, at least to me.
I’m a relationship with a struggling addict who relapses every seven
or eight days. I continue to welcome her back out of love and fear.
She asks me for help! I try to guide her by example and suggestion,
remember I am a baby in recovery. I have not seen much change or
improvement in her life or our relationship. She says it’s difficult
to talk to someone and even has a Sponsor. I practice humility and I
feel she uses this against me. When she comes back from her relapses,
only for a second, she humble. Then it’s back to being bossing and
selfish, with no remorse for her actions.
I need feedback, good or bad. Help me think, please! I can’t figure
this shit out.
Sign lost and confused!
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